The long journey to finding myself


I’ve written about the struggles that I’ve been though and put my significant other (at that time) through when I’ve had an abortion.

It was hard, but I wanted to tell the story, to let it reach out to as many people as it can, so perhaps it can help some.

I’ve also written about my previously estranged relationship with my parents and how it’s always true that blood runs thicker than water.

I think I’ve lead an extraordinary life and I’m glad I’m still alive to write about it. I’ll like to thank you all for sharing my video stories and the kind (and also not so kind) comments. Life is worth living, you go through it and become a better person if you’re willing to change for the better. Cheers!

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12 thoughts on “The long journey to finding myself”

    • Thanks Jimbo! ๐Ÿ™‚

      Yeah, I’m lucky to have parents like that. For that, I’m very thankful.

      Cheers buddy, that I will do. ๐Ÿ™‚

  1. Indeed, our life is a blank page. How it turns out depends on how we draw on it.

    When my daughter was in an art school here, I saw how the teacher “taught” – he just let her draw and colur and at the end of the day, he would come round and make some modifications here and there, add a few of his own special touches…and by George! The finished product looked pretty good in the end!

    So you’ve drawn yours your way, you’ve made the modifications…colour it well, Huai Bin! It will be beautiful…, a work of heart!

    • Yeah, that’s life indeed.

      Thanks for sharing that anecdote buddy! ๐Ÿ™‚

      Yeah, that’s a really good analogy, I like the wordplay there too.

      Seriously, I’ll do that. I’ll paint the best on the canvas that I’ve been given.

      Cheers buddy! ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. I have analysed the video from your โ€˜Dirty Little Secretโ€™ post and I have some troubling news….

    You can say alot about a person through his/her body language, and I detect no sincerity in your โ€˜video confessionโ€™. All the hesitations and uneasiness is just driving you INSANE on the inside. You are withholding the true DEVIL inside you and your true narcissistic self righteousness. You may think you are just letting things out, but you are just kidding yourself. You are pregnant? I think NOT. You know absolutely nothing about being pregnant or its repercussions. Your body is not going through the pregnancy let alone the abortion; it is the other half who is. You havenโ€™t learn much sadly (back again at Genting eh?), and you still have a loooooong way to go my troubled friend….

    • Haha! Well, you’ll do well to be a guest star on Criminal Minds. ๐Ÿ˜‰

      No, psychology isn’t that simple buddy.

      It’s a foreign environment where I was filmed, I could be uncomfortable with the surroundings or the people etc etc – there’s a hundred possible factors in play.

      I usually don’t reply to people like you:
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      I tend to ignore people who comment with multiple nicks, but it’s a good morning. Don’t hide behind anonymity – just come as you are mate. ๐Ÿ™‚

      I appreciate your couch psychoanalysis though, gave me a good laugh. Heh.

      Cheers mate! ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Yeah, thank God for that! ๐Ÿ™‚

      Indeed, such is the folly of youth…

      …sometimes you just gotta think that youth is wasted on the young.

      Oh well, such is life.

      Soldier on and keep on improving oneself.

      Cheers buddy! ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. HB. sometime trust is so important people take it for granted. I lost my trust to my parents when I lied to them. They found out and see lost trust in me for a long time. It had to be earned and it took a long time for me to do. People see it no big deal but it is to parents .

    • Indeed it is.

      Trust is something that you take a lifetime to built, and yet can be broken in a single second.

      Ironic eh?

      Good luck with your parents! ๐Ÿ™‚

  4. I’ve been following your blog for quite sometime and it’s proven to be quite entertaining and informative. Frankly I’ve also read your posts about your experiments with various substances which shall not be named etc. Haven’t met you in person but how far you’ve come from then to now still baffles me. You sir are the epitome of turning over a new leaf. You can keep telling yourself to be a better person but what matters is the physical effort you put into it.

    And with my mom recently diagnosed with cervical cancer I can honestly sympathize with you on how you feel about your parents.

    You truly inspire and drive me to best myself.

    Cheers HB.

    • Thanks for reading Glenn! ๐Ÿ™‚

      Yeah, the good ol days of substance use and experimentation. There’s a bit of a darker side to it, was addicted to meth and ruined my kidneys from injecting it using the cold shake method (no filter, just pouring the crystal into the syringe and drawing in water).

      The impurities and all.

      …and then I quit by starting opiates, which is a classic case of out of the frying pan and into the fire.

      It also amazes me – how lucky I was and how I managed to dodge so many bullets (figuratively).

      I’m lucky to be still alive and my mom’s battle with lung cancer just made me realize that life is really worth living and it’s always a constant struggle to improve ourselves.

      Thanks for commenting mate, it’s people like you who makes me feel that I’m doing some measure of good too.

      Cheers mate! ๐Ÿ™‚


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