You can have your cupcake and eat it too

cupcakes

Waiting is something I’m traditionally very, very bad at.

I think most Aries do not wait. It’s just not in our dictionary.

(we leave that for the other star signs)

I could eat the batter of the cupcake. However, won’t it be nice to wait until the cupcake is done?

I have run out of analogies. Honestly, today has been one of the most emotionally draining experiences I’ve had.

Emotional highs and lows – it’s like the roller-coaster ride from hell.

It’s the constant “What if” game:

What if I didn’t see you today?
What if I have behaved differently?
What if I made you less nervous?

Well, you get my point – Would things be different?

There’s honestly no answer to that. Time only flows in one direction (unless massive breakthroughs are made in fringe physics) so a better question to ask would be:

Am I happy with this?

It’s a bitter-sweet answer. I keep thinking of The Longest Line (it’s a NOFX song) where the lyrics go “I think of Chinese food when I think of life. It’s sweet and sour.”

I’m happy and sad at the same time.

However, if that’s what I’m feeling, I can’t imagine how you must feel.

You must be feeling a million times worse.

I know it can’t be easy.

I really hope I can be there for you. I really hope that I can earn your trust. I hope for a million things but above all I hope that you’ll give me a chance.

I’m sitting here eating your cupcakes and I couldn’t bear to eat the last one, not knowing when I’ll see you next. They’re delicious (no chocolate chip “surprises” inside smirk).

love

I have three cupcakes. They’re all packed nicely into a 3-cupcake box and I didn’t even throw away the paper on the two that I’ve eaten, knowing that you put so much effort into making them, and knowing that it’s handmade by you.

I *do* think you’re worth the wait.

We’ll do it right. 🙂

Listening to: Alanis Morissette – Head Over Feet

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30 thoughts on “You can have your cupcake and eat it too”

  1. As they say, the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach…. Ummmm…any more cupcakes to share? Oops!!! I’m in it for the cupcakes, nothing else…you have my word! LOL!!!

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    • Haha! I only have one left, which I didn’t want to eat. 🙂

      It’s very tasty though.

      She found my way into my heart by just being her, although cooking is a plus, I’ll love to cook with her too. 😀

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    • Thanks Grace!

      It’s a bit of a emotional rollercoaster – it’s kinda complicated but I still am going forward despite everything.

      I want to be with her. 🙂

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      • ya, can feel that very much by now.. am very touched =)

        i like your seriousness about her and also how she reciprocates in her own way.. thanks for sharing, there’s a lot of inspirations in this for me 😉

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        • It’s not going to be easy but life seldom is. 🙂

          The important thing is the willingness to walk down this road.

          I’m already going down the path. I’m putting her as my #1 priority in all things. I think of the famous Epistle to the Corinthians about love – love is kind, love is unselfish etc.

          Glad you like it Grace! 😀

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    • Yeah, I love how she was so meticulous in packing the cupcakes too! Everything looks so neat that I was afraid of eating it.

      I still have one cupcake. 🙂

      Thanks Merryn!

      I will hang in there. This one is worth the wait.

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    • I know, it’s an Arian trait that I found out is very true with all Aries star signs. 🙂

      I never wait also, but for the right person I will, despite the fact that it’s also not going to be easy.

      She’s the right person.

      *waits*

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  2. When a woman bakes for a guy, it means something. Ask me, coz I do it for my hubby all the time. If you know she’s worth it go for it and I seriously hope she feels the same about you too coz you deserve a happy ending, good luck HB!

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    • Thanks Cas! 🙂

      Yup, she’s definitely worth it. I hope she feels the same way about me too, it looks good so far, it’s just a bit complicated.

      I appreciate that! I think she deserves a happy ending too, we’ll be good for each other.

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  3. That sounds cryptic. I’m sure she’ll know that it’s her when she reads this. =) I like your honesty: it shows that you’re serious with her.

    Cas’s right; good luck on winning her heart and soul, HB! You know we’re all hoping for the best for you. =D

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    • Thanks Ciana! 🙂

      I’m serious with her, and the relationship is starting well (although there’s complications, just like anything else) but we’re in this together.

      Cheer for the support and the vote of confidence!

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    • Haha! I don’t mind doing that too – I’ll love to cook and bake together. I like doing all those too. 🙂

      Cheers bro, appreciate the support!

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    • Yup, things are going well! 🙂

      I’m glad it turned out that way, I’m seriously blessed to have her with me. I don’t know what I did to deserve it but I’m happy.

      Cheers buddy!

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