Waiting is something I’m traditionally very, very bad at.
I think most Aries do not wait. It’s just not in our dictionary.
(we leave that for the other star signs)
I could eat the batter of the cupcake. However, won’t it be nice to wait until the cupcake is done?
I have run out of analogies. Honestly, today has been one of the most emotionally draining experiences I’ve had.
Emotional highs and lows – it’s like the roller-coaster ride from hell.
It’s the constant “What if” game:
What if I didn’t see you today?
What if I have behaved differently?
What if I made you less nervous?
Well, you get my point – Would things be different?
There’s honestly no answer to that. Time only flows in one direction (unless massive breakthroughs are made in fringe physics) so a better question to ask would be:
Am I happy with this?
It’s a bitter-sweet answer. I keep thinking of The Longest Line (it’s a NOFX song) where the lyrics go “I think of Chinese food when I think of life. It’s sweet and sour.”
I’m happy and sad at the same time.
However, if that’s what I’m feeling, I can’t imagine how you must feel.
You must be feeling a million times worse.
I know it can’t be easy.
I really hope I can be there for you. I really hope that I can earn your trust. I hope for a million things but above all I hope that you’ll give me a chance.
I’m sitting here eating your cupcakes and I couldn’t bear to eat the last one, not knowing when I’ll see you next. They’re delicious (no chocolate chip “surprises” inside ).
I have three cupcakes. They’re all packed nicely into a 3-cupcake box and I didn’t even throw away the paper on the two that I’ve eaten, knowing that you put so much effort into making them, and knowing that it’s handmade by you.
I *do* think you’re worth the wait.
We’ll do it right. :)
Listening to: Alanis Morissette – Head Over Feet