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pharmaceuticals
4-MAR (U4EA)
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Two foils of 4-MAR containing 100 mg each.
Okay, I have recently acquired 2 points (a point is 0.1 gram or 100
mg – local slang) of a substance sold to me as Ice. I’ve been told it’s
NOT methamphetamine but U4EA (U4Euh). U4EA (pronounced euphoria) is the
common name for 4-methylaminorex (4-MAR)
[erowid.org]. Now this substance is not common at all, so I was
surprised at the availability of it. It costs only A$25 for a point of
powder. It’s not pure crystals (that’s a given, considering the price)
but I can see crystals in the crushed white powder mix. It burnt really
bad going up, and take note that I regularly insufflate crushed
dexamphetamine tablets, so I know the difference between an
unremarkable burning and a fairly bad burning, although my scale might
differ from yours. 🙂
Substance: 4-methylaminorex (4-MAR) also known as U4EA (Euphoria).
Initial dosage: 50 mg (eyeballed 1/2 of a point)
Method of administration: Insufflated (snorted)
Notes: I had 50 mg dexamphetamine orally about 6 hours ago on an
empty stomach, if that’s of interest. I was coming down when I
insufflated this.
Taste: Very, very bitter, like methamphetamine (licked a bit off the foil).
Drip: Gosh, I don’t even want to go into the drip. Nasty, bitter
stuff. Man…either the crystals are cut with something like quinine or
4-MAR tastes different from methamphetamine.
Visual: It’s a white powder with crystalline bits visible inside.
I’m feeling charged up now, renewed the flagging dexamphetamine
high. I snorted another 1/4 point and it’s definitely feeling pretty
speedy here in my slice of space/time. 🙂 I can’t tell for sure
(scientifically) whether it’s really U4EA (4-MAR), but it’s definitely
at least methamphetamine. It takes fairly long to come up though, it’s
not the instant charge of methamphetamine but it took damn near half an
hour to make it’s presence felt. It feels different from meth though,
but unless someone knows how to test for methamphetamine vs 4-MAR I
can’t say for sure.
The white powder with crystals inside the foil
My contact is pretty knowledgeable about drugs, and he’s not a dodgy
guy plus I can see no reason for him to say it’s U4EA as opposed to
meth, coz I would have bought it anyway. He also got hold of something
that most people can’t (Uncle Sid is in town =D), so I don’t doubt his
ability to get rare substances. I don’t care either way, coz it’s good
stuff compared to the meth that I used to get off another contact. It’s
definitely a powerful substance, just 0.75 mg (snorted) staved off and
totally negated a 50 mg dexamphetamine comedown and overcame the built
up amphetamine tolerance to give me a new rush of energy. My contact
warned me to go slow on this one, and that’s good advice. With only
0.75 mg insufflated, I’m feeling borderline amphetamine overdosage
indications, although strangely without the anxiety. This is going to
keep me up for a long while indeed. I get icy cold hands and feet and
compulsive behavior like biting my bottom lip.
stop doing that! stop it! can’t…feel a compulsion…stop! my bottom lip is getting mangled.
I’m feeling a strange body high too. Yes, a very different body
high. I’m feeling it now, it’s like the feeling of pissing while on
dexamphetamine, you get this head rush and a tingly sensation all over
your body. It started out very messy and scattered and it’s quite an
intense high, but whether this is from the combination with
dexamphetamine or just that I took too much amphetamines type
stimulants in one day, I don’t know. What I do know is that my heart is
beating uncomfortably fast and that worries me. I’m ignoring it though,
standard amphetamine side effects *whistling in denial*.
Okay, after an hour, my mind is starting to clear up, and heavy jaw
clenches and jaw tension is getting better. I feel like I can actually
work and think on this drug again, instead of the messy, scattered come
up I felt then. Unless I have contrary evidence, I believe my contact
in that this is 4-MAR (U4EA). I’m very wide awake and clear headed now.
It’s a surprisingly very ‘clear’ and ‘clean’ high compared to
methamphetamine. Keep in mind that this is qualitative evidence based
on my experience, how much is placebo and how much is true
pharmacological effects is questionable. What I mean by this is that I
can’t scientifically claim that this is either 4-MAR or meth, but I can
say for certain that the substance is a strong stimulant comparable
with methamphetamines. Furthermore, 50 mg of dextroamphetamine was
consumed orally beforehand (T -6:00) and that might have affected the
substance in unknown ways. I’ll try again next time with just 4-MAR
alone to really get a feel for the substance.
I have a confession to make…
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I am actually Huai Bin. There is no guest author on sixthseal.com.
There is no veritas. veritas is the pseudonym I use to distance myself
from drug related postings. I’m surprised no one picked this up. The
writing itself should have tipped you off. The writing style, formation
of sentences, terminology, language quirks and favorite words should be
a dead giveaway. 🙂 It’s hard to change one’s writing, it’s like a
fingerprint. I’ve also made some mistakes that would give me away in
the past, which I thankfully picked up and corrected before anyone
could notice.
However, other than the language style (and what one my good friends
refered to as photography style) I’ve done well to cover my tracks
though. One example I particularly loved is the “veritas still in
Malaysia while killuminati is already in Melbourne”. I intentionally
posted the pill report late because there was suspicion brewing. I also
did little things like commenting on the veritas’s posts comments box
with my killuminati nick and then replying with the veritas one again
so it seems like two people are actually having a conversation. Got
tired of that after a while though, which is why I don’t do that
anymore. 🙂
There isn’t even an email address veritas@sixthseal.com. All of that
goes to a catch-all email address which is me@sixthseal.com, so I would
be hesitant to reply you unless I don’t know you personally and even
then I’ll have to caution you not to mention anything about it in the
blog because:
1 My parents read my blog
2 My girlfriend reads my blog
3 Law enforcement officers may stumble upon it
Numbers 1 and 2 are against recreational experimentation with
illegal substances and I don’t want them to worry about me. I’ve tried
educating them about the effects, risks and any dependency issues which
can arise from the consumption of various drugs, but the government
propaganda machine is sadly much stronger than me, despite my
references to research papers and studies done by distinguished
scientists and researchers of the field. I don’t want them to have to
worry about me, so veritas sprang into existence.
Number 3 is to protect myself against any raids from the police,
although without the amphetamine induced paranoia, I think that’s
pretty unlikely. Wasting the money and manpower just to bust some uni
student on possession charges isn’t very likely, although I’ve heard
horror stories about that happening. The risk factor is pretty low, the
time, money and manpower involved in coordinating a raid just to find 2
grams of cannabis isn’t a very likely scenario. Personally, I think the
chances of that happening are pretty low because their resources would
have been better spent on raiding drug dealers or underground chemists.
However, being safe is always better than being sorry. 🙂
Anyway, it also distances me from being associated with recreational
drug use, as the general public back home is being terribly misled by
the government propaganda machine and associates all drug users with
the “dirty junkie” stereotype. I don’t want to have the social stigma
of that hovering over me, because the uninformed public just look at
you and treat you like you’re some kind of scumbag. I find that even
some friends have subtly changed their opinion about me after a
disclosure. It’s like recreational drug use is the overriding factor in
evaluating my character, instead of more important things like honesty,
integrity, loyalty and any other more important characteristics that
you have.
Of course, the media doesn’t help either with their misinformed and
ill-researched articles, news items and shows. There are exceptions
though, I’ve read some mainstream magazines with well researched and
accurate articles about recreational drugs. Unfortunately, this is the
exception to the rule. In the media business, their bottom line is to
ultimately to draw in more viewers. What better way to do that than
sensationalist reporting? Which headline do you think sounds better?
a) KILLER DRUG ECSTASY CLAIMS ANOTHER VICTIM IN A “RAVE” LATE LAST NITE!!!
or
b) Excessive consumption of water lead to a water poisoning death at a rave last night.
b) probably won’t even make the news. Ecstasy doesn’t kill people.
Irresponsible drug use kills people. Not knowing contraindications
kills people. If you’re interested, there’s plenty of links to the left
where you can find out more about harm minimization and real facts
about illegal or legal substances. I remember reading a funny article a
couple of years ago in a Malaysian newspaper. This was a “Dear Abby”
type advice column where someone writes in. Anyway, this guy wrote in
and asked if taking Ecstasy is harmful to the body.
The reply: (paraphrased from memory) ARE YOU KIDDING???
Taking just one will hook you for life! It makes your head shake so
hard uncontrollably you won’t even be able to stop it and you’ll feel
like your neck is going to break off and it probably will.
I would laugh, but I was too angry at this irresponsible and
misinformed reply. Oh, it’s worthy to note that most “Ecstasy” pills
(or feng tau yuen (literally: shake head pill) in the local dialect)
here are mostly meth(amphetamine) or ketamine. The “amphetamines makes
your head shake” myth stems from the local version of the Melbourne
shuffle. The users congregate around speakers and does a repetitive
horizontal movement (picture yourself while saying “no”) with just
their heads. I admit, doing that is fun while on amphetamines,
repetitive movements just feels right and it gets you nicely dizzy and
adds to the high. MDMA pills does exist but it’s not that common, since
the market is saturated with the cheaper (meth)amphetamine and ketamine
pills.
And don’t get me going about the government propaganda in Malaysia.
They actually print absolute fucking bullshit as “facts”. I don’t know
if it’s getting better now, but with the government’s “2003 War on
Drugs” campaign, I don’t think it would. Shock tactics like saying
you’ll die/go down an irreversible path to addiction/get brain damage
the moment you try a drug does not work. In fact it’s
counterproductive. The first drug I took was LSD was at a rave, and I
had an experienced group of friends with me and it was an amazing experience. I didn’t get irreversible brain damage, I didn’t go blind, I didn’t go psycho, I didn’t get addicted to it.
Instead, it opened my mind and at the risk of sounding clichéd, it
gave me a new and improved perspective on everything. After the
experience, I find myself being more open to new and unorthodox ideas
and this “thinking out of the box” mindset has been with me ever since.
🙂 This is contrary to the government propaganda I read, so like many
other people, I thought “Hey, what they’re saying isn’t true…hell,
probably all the things they say isn’t. I’m going to try another drug
now”. This is bad because some of the things they say are true, and
that deserves mention. I’m very much for a harm minimization approach
which gives accurate information (including the positive effects as
well as dangers) about drugs.
The government’s approach to dealing with the “drug problem” is not
going to change though, at least not in my lifetime. I have a friend
who was forced to go into a stay-in “drug rehabilitation center” (read:
prison) where you can’t leave the premises and visits are for family
members only. Guess what he was busted for? Nothing! There was no drugs
at his house, he just failed a urine test. He smoked cannabis a couple
of days ago, and that’s the sentence he got. Can you imagine that? Just
for detecting cannabis use in his urine test…he was a minor at that
time (17) so he was forced to go to rehab. It’s for his own good you
see. He’s an evil marijuana addict. Hey, I typed that without laughing too hard.
I’m sure everyone has heard of the drug laws of Malaysia [pemadam.org.my]. If you don’t read Bahasa Malaysia, here’s a short summary about the interesting bits (emphasis mine):
Section 10 Sentence for possessing drug paraphernalia like a bong (without drugs, just the equipment):
Jail sentence up to 5 years AND a fine of up to RM20,000 (A$10,000)
Note to self: Do not bring bong back
Section 39(A)(1) Possession of 20 grams or more of cannabis (marijuana):
Jail sentence not less than 2 years but not more than 5 years AND a MANDATORY caning between six to nine times.
You’ll fear the caning if you’ve seen it done before…
Section 15(B) Being in the same premises where drug use is
taking place (just being in the same place, it doesn’t matter whether
you’ve taken drugs):
Jail sentence not less than 2 years or a fine of not more than RM5,000 (A$2,500)
Ridiculous…
Section 15(A) Ingesting a scheduled drug (positive urine test):
Jail sentence not less than 2 years or a fine of not more than RM5,000 (A$2,500)
Very, very puzzling. I’m seriously mystified by this. Possessing a
bong gets a higher sentence than ingesting a drug? Who made up these
laws?
I’ve got a question for any Malaysian lawyers reading this. Do I get
to choose or is it the courts decision? How nice it’ll be if I can just
consume whatever and pay RM5,000 (A$2,500) for a “Get out of Jail Free”
card.
Anyway, despite my differing views regarding Malaysia’s (and just
about every country’s) drug laws, I still love my country. Home is
where the heart is, even though the draconian drug laws make me
paranoid every time I take any illegal substances back home. Oh well,
at least Xanax and other pharmaceuticals are OTC if you go to the right
pharmacists. 😉
Oh, and look at the date. 1st of April. April Fool’s Day.
Baking soda potentiates amphetamines!!! =D
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I’ve dumped a total of 45 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets over the
course of the night. I mean, fucking hell! That justifies a bit of
profanity…45 tablets is nearly half of my script! Gone, either digested
or absorbed through my sinuses. That’s unacceptable! 225 mgs over a 10
hour period…half of my script consumed in a night. 🙁 Jesus wept.
Forgive the blasphemy (on the day of the Lord somemore) but I’m not due
to refill my script until 23 more days and half of it is already gone!
I did feel a very good rush during my initial dose of 80 mgs orally and
20 mg insufflated, but after that it was just maintenance doses to keep
me awake. I’m planning to stay up until late tonight.
I would weep for the amount of dexamphetamine that was wasted, but
there’s no use crying over spilt milk (or consumed dexies for that
matter). It’s just an issue of tolerance and that’s unavoidable, but I
was wondering if there’s any way to maximize the efficiency of the
dexamphetamine tablets. I still need more to be able to stay up until
late tonight. I did a bit of research for amphetamine potentiators
(things that causes a synergetic effect and makes the drug stronger or
last longer), but didn’t find anything noteworthy until I chanced upon
this tidbit of information on [rxlist.com]:
Alkalinizing Agents
Gastrointestinal alkalinizing agents (sodium bicarbonate, etc.)
increase absorption of amphetamines. Urinary alkalinizing agents
(acetazolamide, some thiazides) increase the concentration of the
non-ionized species of the amphetamine molecule, thereby decreasing
urinary excretion. Both groups by agents increase blood levels and
therefore potentiate the action of amphetamines.
Increase absorption of amphetamines! Potentiate the action of
amphetamines! Those are magic words…music to my ears! =D Praise the
Lord! Sodium bicarbonate…that’s baking powder! I did some more reading
and found out that taking dexamphetamine an hour or so after
alkalinizing your GI tract will increase the effects. Why wasn’t I
aware of this earlier?!?! Curse you (I mean me), for not doing your
research.
Today is a Sunday and I couldn’t be bothered going far to buy some
baking soda so I went to the local café instead. This was how the
conversation went:
Me: Hello, this is going to sound like a strange request, but can I buy some baking powder off you? I have really bad gastric…
Girl at the counter: Baking powder? Okay, let me get some.
(takes a plastic cup and goes into a kitchen)
1 minute later…
(the cook comes out holding the cup with the girl at the counter)
Cook: Hello, are you the one with the stomach problem?
Me: Yeah, I need some baking powder for my gastric. Can I buy some off you?
Cook: I can give you some, but it’s not going to help your stomach.
Me: It has always worked before, it neutralizes the acids in my stomach.
Cook: Okay, give me a second
(goes back into the kitchen)
30 seconds later…
Cook: Here you go. No charge.
(hands me the cup full of baking powder)
Me: No, let me pay you for it.
Cook: Don’t worry about it, I’ll give it to you.
Me: Okay, thanks!
I felt bad about getting the baking soda for free, so I bought a
pear (which I read was also an alkaline food) for 70 cents. Yes, I’ve
done a lot of reading and contrary to popular belief, fruits are
alkaline while milk is acidic! Apparently, there’s a difference between
the chemical properties (we all learnt in chemistry that fruits are
acidic using the PH testing strips) while nutrition wise, it’s
alkaline! Milk, which one would assume is an alkaline is in fact acidic
in nutrition (after your body processes it). Well, you learn something
new everyday.
My stomach has been very acidic the whole night, I could feel it and
I was about to puke my stomach acids out, so I wasn’t really being
untruthful about my gastric. No wonder the pills didn’t work so well.
Here’s another related tidbit from the wonderful rxlist.com entry on
dextroamphetamine:
Acidifying Agents
Gastrointestinal acidifying agents (guanethidine, reserpine,
glutamic acid HCl, ascorbic acid, fruit juices, etc.) lower absorption
of amphetamines, Urinary acidifying agents (ammonium chloride, sodium
acid phosphate, etc.) increase the concentration of the ionized species
of the amphetamine molecule, thereby increasing urinary excretion. Both
groups of agents lower blood levels and efficacy of amphetamines.
No wonder! I wasn’t getting the full potential of the precious
little pills due to my acidic stomach. Lower absorption of
amphetamines! Lower blood levels and efficacy of amphetamines! Heresy!
Such dirty, disgusting, filthy, revolting, repulsive, sickening,
horribly blasphemous words! Get thee behind me Satan! No acidic foods
for me today! *makes a sign to ward off evil*
Anyway, the cook gave me a lot of baking soda even though I only
asked for two teaspoons. I dissolved 4 heaped teaspoons of baking soda
(or sodium bicarbonate if you want to be technical about it) into a mug
of water and drank it. 1 hour later, I dropped 6 pills and by God, I
was peaking again! That was 30 minutes ago, and I’m still feeling great
now! It wasn’t as good as the first dose, naturally, but I did feel
rushes this time. I don’t know how much is placebo and how much is
actual pharmacology but if rxlist.com says it’s true, that’s good
enough for me. 🙂
Just passing the information on…amphetamines can not only be potentiated, but the effects prolonged
by a simple kitchen item! Good old baking soda! Amazing…you really do
learn something new everyday. How I wish I knew about this sooner. I’m
going to change the PH levels of my GI tract to lean towards the
alkaline side every time I take dexamphetamines! More value, more
effects, more more more! I love you rxlist.com! Praise the Lord!
Hallelujah! He works in mysterious ways indeed! 🙂
500 mg dexamphetamine + 200 mg clonazepam = success!
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Today’s haul: Stimulants and tranquilizers in a single day. Hmm…both
of them are white tablets, I hope I don’t mix them up when I put them
back. Taking dexamphetamine when you’re expecting a benzodiazepine or
vice versa would be unfortunate indeed.
I had a successful run today. 🙂 I got 100 x 2 mg Paxam (clonazepam)
and 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets. The first visit was to the Benzo Messiah
[sixthseal.com], where I claimed that the “pills didn’t feel right and
I found out that I was actually taking 2 mg ones instead of 0.5 mg
ones”. Guess what the doctor said? He just said okay, and took out his
script pad! Amazing. You know what’s even more amazing? He said:
“So what was it you were taking again? Xanax?”
My mind went into overdrive. Here’s what my thought process was:
Xanax!
100 x 2 mg of Xanax!
200 mg of Xanax! Say Yes, for Christ’s sake, say Yes!
But wait…I need Klonopin to sleep after a dexamphetamine run…clonazepam makes me sleep but alprazolam doesn’t.
Stupid! Xanax is much more euphoric! Say YES!
Yeah, it’s more euphoric, but it doesn’t make me sleepy. How will I manage amphetamine comedowns?
It’s Xanax! The doctor is offering to script you 100 x 2 mg Xanax bars! Have you finally tweaked yourself stupid???
But 200 mg of Xanax…I’m not sure I’m responsible enough to handle that. Xanax withdrawal is hell.
Who cares? Euphoria buddy, fucking euphoria…couple of beers,
couple of Xanax bars, couple of bowls of weed…think man, think about
the fun times!
Hmm…
Say Yes
Hmm…
(all this happened in milliseconds)
“Nah, it was clonazepam”, I said
🙂
100 x 2 mg clonazepam tablets (Paxam)
It’s true that Xanax (alprazolam) is much more euphoric than
Klonopin (clonazepam) but I’ve learnt to respect Xanax after taking up
to 5 mg daily with alcohol during my last holiday. Benzodiazepine
withdrawals are bad, especially with Xanax since it has such a short
half life. Just one month of daily use fucked me up for days when I
stopped. I can’t even imagine how bad it is for people who’ve used it
at higher doses and longer periods of times. I have a good friend who’s
on it for years (legitimate prescription for anxiety and panic attacks)
and I can’t even imagine how bad the withdrawal would be for her when
she wants to taper off.
Well, those of you who’ve taken benzos regularly at high doses for
prolonged periods and then stop suddenly know what I’m taking about.
It’s hard to explain benzo withdrawals to the uninitiated. There’s the
ultra-heightened anxiety and recurring obsessive thoughts and panic
attacks. There’s also the possibility of seizures if you’ve been on it
long enough, but that usually take months or years of heavy use. It’s a
wonder that a legitimate pharmaceutical drug produces worse physical
and psychological withdrawals than most illegal drugs. I don’t trust
myself with 200 mg of Xanax, so that’s why I told the truth and said it
was clonazepam. 🙂
The 2 mg clonazepam tablets are white, with “CN2” imprinted on the front, and a dual score at the back
“Okay”, went the good doctor and scripted me and I was out within 2
minutes. 200 mg of clonazepam can cause a lot of trouble too, but I’m
not going to take it daily, my new policy is for it to be a weekend
thing when drinking or for comedowns only.
All hail the Benzo Messiah!
The next trip was to Doctor Dexamphetamine. Very hassle free as
well. I haven’t told you the story behind this, so I’ll give you an
abbreviated version now about what happened last time. Basically, I
just went in and claimed I have been on Dexedrine (a brand name of
dexamphetamine) since I was 19. I didn’t say dexamphetamine because I
wanted to avoid using the word ‘amphetamine’. 🙂
If you’re wondering what dexamphetamine is and why it’s so good,
it’s because it’s speed. Legally prescribed speed. 🙂 This is the same
thing you get off the streets in the form of powder and pills (like
some of the feng tau yuen pills that makes you unable to sleep, though
that can contain either methamphetamine or amphetamine) and it’s pure
and clean because it’s made by a pharmaceutical company instead of a
dodgy chemist. 😉
Made very locally by Sigma Pharmaceuticals at 1408, Center
Road, Clayton (!) I’ve seen their production facility before too. Won’t
I love to go on a tour of their labs.
Anyway, I’m digressing, this is what I told the doctor the first time I went there:
I said I was diagnosed with narcolepsy (it’s a condition where you
suddenly fall asleep, occasional temporary paralysis etc) and excessive
daytime sleepiness and I was prescribed dexamphetamine to manage that.
I told him I usually get my script filled in Malaysia and bring enough
for the whole semester, but unfortunately customs confisticated my
stash because I didn’t have an Australian doctor’s prescription.
The doctor considered my story and then decided I was telling the
truth. 🙂 It really helped that I looked half asleep that day. I didn’t
get much sleep the night before in anticipation for that. I told him
that I thought I could do without it, but it’s really affecting my
studies and I’ve been sleeping 14 hour days and falling asleep in
lectures etc. He asked me what my symptoms were, which of course I knew
because I’ve been reading up on narcolepsy. I never forget the mantra: Always do your research! 😉 He scripted me 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets and off I went.
That was about a month ago. I went back again today and the doctor
just wrote me a script without any hassles, though he did a bit of
calculation in his head to see if I was due for the script. 🙂 He went,
“Yeah it’s been 25 days”. I tentatively asked if it was wise to
increase the dosage, which was a mistake, because I was hit with a
barrage of questions after that. 🙂
He asked me a lot of questions about why I wanted do that. I said I
was still feeling sleepy at times and he re-asked me my symptoms on
narcolepsy which I thankfully managed to answer despite being partially
memory-incapacitated from my heavy benzo use these couple of days.
Anyway, he didn’t get suspicious, thank God for that! You hear me God?
Thanks for that, I owe you one buddy! 🙂
How I wish both bottles were full instead of just one
Anyway, he wrote me a script and asked me how much it costs. It’s
A$30.35 for 100 tablets and the doctor said it’s expensive and asked me
how much it cost in Malaysia. I was caught by surprise by the
unexpected question, and made up a figure. Sheesh, I should be more
prepared next time. Well, after thanking the doctor profusely (I think
I thanked him a little too profusely) I made my way to the pharmacy to
get my dex script filled.
Tell you a funny thing that happened there. I got my script filled
by the pharmacist and went to the counter to pay for it. The girl at
the counter, who’s about my age, took one look at the bottle and gave
me a grin and asked me what it’s for. I said it’s for my narcolepsy.
She went “Oh, that’s terrible” and gave me a huge grin. I think she
somehow knew I was a scripter. Instinct from a fellow scripter?
She asked me some questions about my ‘condition’ and made small talk
and was really friendly, all the time looking at the bottle lovingly.
After I paid, she gave me a knowing wink and said “Have a nice day”. I
didn’t wink back because this is after all a pharmacy and even though
the cashier isn’t the pharmacist and is just working there, being
indiscreet might jeopardize my scripting activities. I just smiled and
said “You have a nice day too”. She knew what was going on though. For some reason, she just knew. Heh. 🙂
Well there I go again with my verbal diarrhea. You know I’m tweaking
when I go on like that. 🙂 It’s like dexamphetamine is my muse and I
use it to complete assignments and work too. I think some form of
psychological dependence is happening here. I’ll be careful though, so
don’t worry about me. 🙂
Link of the Day: Iraq’s WMD: How Big a Threat? [time.com]
Excerpt:
He added that Iraq’s exotic weapons programs also involved the use
of psycho-tropic agents similar to LSD. “They were not meant to kill,
just incapacitate, confuse,” says the inspector.
Book me a plane ticket to Iraq straight away! 😉
Xanax scripting
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Mosaic on doctor’s handwriting, script number and other possible identifiers
I got a Xanax (alprazolam) script off my regular doctor (the Benzo Nazi) last Friday. You probably have to read this
[sixthseal.com] to understand the background. I had wanted to visit the
Benzo Messiah and get 100 x 2 mg Klonopin (clonazepam) tablets by
claiming that it wasn’t working, so I called back to my doctor back
home and realized it was 2 mg pills after all. I made two appointments
but the Benzo Messiah was not in both times coz he was sick. I have
made another appointment for this Friday, and I’ll probably visit Doctor Dexamphetamine [sixthseal.com] on the same day, so wish me luck! 🙂
Pharmacia Xanax 250 microgram 50 tablets – Made in Belgium
Anyway, I was kinda worried when I visited Benzo Nazi. My pupils were absolutely huge
from my dexamphetamine run, and I tried to avoid eye contract to give
myself away, but I think the doctor didn’t pick it up anyway. Anyway, I
just told him the Aropax (also known as Paxil, contains paroxetine)
wasn’t working and I went to another doctor and he scripted me 0.25 mg
of Xanax twice a day and it helped a lot. This of course was not true,
and I do feel bad about being untruthful. It may surprise a lot of you,
but being untruthful makes feel me guilty and I don’t do it unless I’m
doctor shopping for scripts.
The front of the blister pack
Pill front: Upjohn 29
Pill back: Single score, beveled edges
I told him that the other (fictional) doctor gave me only a two week
supply and I changed my story by telling him I’m aware that it’s
addictive, but it really helps me with my anxiety. Of course, I didn’t
visit another doctor, I just wanted to try an alternative angle to see
if he would prescribe me Xanax. Well, long story short, he did. 🙂 He
actually wanted to script me Valium but I told him that makes me too
sleepy and I needed to concentrate in class and he went “Oh, yeah,
that’s true”. 🙂
The back of the blister pack
Xanax
alprazolam
tablets 250 ug
PHARMACIA
He scripted me 50 x 0.25 mg Xanax tablets on the condition that I
make an appointment with a clinical psychiatrist to evaluate me. The
Xanax is only enough for 5 recreational doses if I combine it with
alcohol or 2.5 recreational doses if I don’t. I usually take 2.5 mg +
alcohol or 5 mg by itself. The script isn’t much, but I didn’t want to
blow it by saying I was scripted 0.5 mg or 1 mg pills by the fictional
other doctor because standard prescribing procedure is 0.25 mg at
first. I don’t think it’s worth the A$15.05 I paid for it, but at least
the consultation is free.
Update: My math is so screwed up. It’s actually cheaper than the prices back home so it is worth it. Very much so. 🙂
Reflections
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I wasn’t feeling too good due to my binge on dexamphetamine. How is
that possible when I’ve nearly finished my stash a couple of days ago,
you ask? Well, I have acquired some more from…ah, the ‘diverted
pharmaceuticals’ market you if you get what I mean. 😉 I’ll be
refilling my legitimate script this Friday anyway, so more is coming
in, no worries. I am concerned that I like this stuff a little too much
though, so I’m going to reflect very hard on that.
My concern is due to the way I binge on these tiny white pills for
days, forgoing sleep and food. I guess some personalities naturally
have an affinity to stimulants, making it hard control consumption.
Some serious reflection is needed indeed to manage my usage. I know
binging is usual behavior for speed freaks but I’ll like to keep my
usage experimental and recreational instead of becoming dependant on
the stuff. By the end of the run, I was getting paranoid an slightly
delusional. I’m seeing a greenish tint on my hands too whenever I look
at them and visual distortions everywhere.
I actually had 100 mg of Valium (diazepam) and stayed awake after my
speed binge. That kind of tolerance is not unheard of, but it’s
unacceptable to me, so I’m going to watch my benzo usage as well. I
don’t feel guilty about smoking cannabis daily though, due to its
comparatively benign nature. I think at some point you have to give
yourself a critical appraisal and evaluate whether you’re still a
recreational drug user or becoming dependant on them, regardless of
whether it’s pharmaceuticals or prohibited ones.
Don’t wake me from this dream…
My pupils dilate when I see you
A glimpse of your white skin
You smell so good, you taste so pleasant
There is no happiness like mine
Being with you makes me feel like God
Blasphemy, you give me so much pleasure
I want to be with you every second of the day
There is none other like you
I lick your skin, I eat you out
I savor the smell of your presence
Fill my nostrils with your essence
I want to make love to you
Fleeting, like a feather in a breeze
Leaving, after a scant few hours with me
Fickle, you leave me wanting
My pupils constrict, I feel like shit
Dexamphetamine, my love
Don’t ever leave me
Speak my name…
I want you here with me…
Don’t wake me from this dream…(A chemical love story)
– veritas March 2003
Dexamphetamine thoughts (the ramblings of a tweaker)
What is the best way to avoid coming down? Why, more drugs of
course. 🙂 Instead of popping a couple of clonazepam tablets and go to
sleep, I’ve stayed up and have been going on strong since then. 5 days
and 11 hours with only 4 hours of sleep in between. The first two days
were not drug assisted. I’m still feeling very energized although I
don’t want it to go longer than tonight, because I’m running low on
pills and I want to save up the rest for a rainy day. I’ve had 74 of
the 5 mg tablets in three days. Such fun!
I could work if I wanted to, although after several days without
sleep, it became very hard to do so. I felt very scattered in general.
I usually insufflate one tablet and eat one as a ‘maintenance dose’ to
keep awake. If I want a good buzz, I’ll eat 5 and snort two. That’s not
economical though since I only have 100 tablets and I can’t go back to
the doctor until about a month passes. I could have said a higher dose
last time but I didn’t want to blow it by sounding too ridiculous.
Insufflating tablets. The way I prepare it is to put the pill on a
piece of firm cardboard. This is a one of those scratchable lottery
tickets. I don’t gamble, I just got a couple last time for fun.
Anyway, when I was younger, I used to think that people who say they
can stay up for days or even weeks were bullshitting. It sounded
incredulous then but it’s actually very possible and easy if you want
to do it. With chemical assistance of course. I learnt it the hard way
when I had nearly ½ gram of meth last year.
Well, I noticed several good and bad points about dexamphetamine.
They give a really good head buzz when you snort them. It’s a rush of
blood to your head and that’s quite pleasurable. However, the high is
harsh and I get easily agitated if I snort it. Eating them produces a
really even high that’s more euphoric and ‘happier’ than snorting which
is strange. Maybe, it’s just me.
Well, another good thing is the extreme weight loss that happens
while you’re tweaking. I talked about this with Huai Bin when we were
in college together. Not sure if I’m allowed to mention it, but he
calls it the Tricyclic Diet because it works in three powerful ways.
Amphetamines suppress appetite so you don’t feel hungry at all. It also
increases your metabolism because it’s a stimulant and that contributes
towards your weight loss. The third one is from the stimulating effects
when you can’t sit still and go out dancing the night away. Exercise.
I lost an unbelievable amount of weight in these few days. My
stomach shrunk noticeably and I think I’ve only eaten once while
tweaking. It saves money too eh? 🙂 No need to pay for food. The
downside is you sometimes get tired if the drug wears off before you
redose. That’s bad, I nearly collapsed while walking yesterday. I
nearly fell asleep in the shower too and I kept on nodding off EVEN
WHILE WALKING! Heh!
I then fold it in half and use something durable like a dog tag to
crush it. This one was from when I lived at the halls last time while
in college. I find it easier if you press down hard on it first. You
don’t really need to apply that much pressure, most pills are not that
solid. Just press down and apply pressure until the pill crumbles. I
then run the edge of the dog tag several times over it until I can
‘feel’ the smooth consistency
It really was that bad. I kept on bumping into people and had
microsleeps and nearly fell down. I had to be economical coz I didn’t
have that many tablets and you do build up tolerance after a while. I
also had a totally flaccid and shrunken penis all the while. It always
happens when I take amphetamines. Also, taking a piss can really be a
chore on dex. It’s hard to start pissing so I had to tickle my backbone
a bit to get started. Sorry if that’s more information that you needed
to know. 🙂
Another bad point is it raises your blood pressure that standing up
suddenly is likely to make you pass out if you’re not careful. I took a
little too much yesterday and got a bit paranoid. Also, you have to
remember that stimulants makes you violent so watch out for that.
Amphetamines are also neurotoxic so that should be taken into
consideration.
Anyway, I’m rambling here. I just had my last dose of two tablets
eaten and one insufflated 30 minutes ago. I’m saving the other 26 pills
for another day. Oh, I also found out that taking a small dose, like a
single tablet works kinda like caffeine in that it makes you be able to
concentrate and think really well. It’s very nice for studying or doing
some work. Well, I still have a lot to talk to you all about but I’ve
written too much already. Does anyone ever enjoy reading my drug
related posts? It seems that most people are from the “Drugs are bad,
mmmkay…” contingent and doesn’t read it. I don’t mind, coz I like to
write when I’m on stimulants. 🙂
However, I’m really annoyed by people who judges recreational drug
users and automatically think they’re “bad” people. It’s hypocritical
how some people think. When someone says “Oh, I got so drunk and I
picked up this hot chick and fucked her senseless last night at the
club”, their friends will probably laugh and cheer. But when you say
“Oh, I had a couple of ecstasy pills, had a great night dancing at a
rave. It was an awesome crowd, full of energy and love” you get
disapproving stares and people think “Junkie”.
Abracadabra! If you did it right, you should have a fine powder by
now. I use a straw to insufflate. Don’t do as the movies do and use a
dollar bill, that’s disgusting! Germs and all that. Yuck. At least use
clean cardboard. Some people snort by closing one nostril with a
finger, some people don’t. I don’t need to. Remember to breath out
first before you approach the powder or you’re going to scatter it!
After breathing out, I position the straw over the powder and snort
really hard. If you don’t breath in hard enough it won’t get into your
sinuses and some will stick to the inside of your nostril and fall out
later. Waste not, want not
Fucking hypocrisy, eh? Why don’t you stop being such a government
propaganda victim and start thinking for yourself? If you don’t take
drugs because you don’t want to, more power to you. But accept the fact
that some people enjoy responsible recreational experimentation and
they’re good people who can study hard, hold down jobs and are nice
honest people, not “bad” people. What a shocker, eh?
Anyway, I’ve rambled enough. If anyone read everything I wrote, I just want to thank you and let you know that I love you! 🙂
Funny story: I keep all my good stuff in this drawer beside my desk.
My clonazepam (a benzodiazepine) and my dexamphetamine pill bottles
looks almost the same. I didn’t really look and took several pills out
and was about to pop it into my mouth before I realized. Heh, now that
would have been funny.
I haven’t written:
Project Doctor Shopping
Episode II – Project Divine Stimulation
Traveling at the Speed of Light
yet because currently there is only one story and that’s not very
interesting now is it? I’m going to try for Adderall (mixture of
amphetamines) or Ritalin (methylphenidate hydrochloride) next month. I
need it for my ‘narcolepsy’ you know. 😉 On a serious note, I don’t
want to go doctor shopping for stimulants any sooner than that coz I
know myself and I love stimulants so much that if I get my mitts on any
amount, it just gets ugly…
Gotta do the drugs, and not let them do you and all that ya know? 🙂
Man, I’ve got a huge sleep debt to pay off…
P/S – I feel bad after writing this, it sounds decidedly pro-drug and that’s not very responsible of me. My apologies.
Dexedrine (dextroamphetamine sulfate) and fuzzy (not related)
500 mgs of dextroamphetamine loving
Dexedrine. That’s the brand name for dextroamphetamine
[rxlist.com]. Dextroamphetamine is the dextro isomer of amphetamine
sulfate (the street drug called speed). I wonder if dextroamphetamine
and dexamphetamine refers to the same thing. [Edit: I just found out
that dexamphetamine and dextroamphetamine is the same thing.] I’ll
appreciate it if any pharmacy students clears this up in the comments.
It has the same effects as amphetamines and it’s a very controlled
prescription drug, very much more so than benzos, due to it’s addictive
nature. Again, I put my trust in my acting skillz and I got a bottle of
100 x 5 mg tablets for my ‘narcolepsy’ ;). They are white pills with
D/5 on one side and no imprint on the other. The edges are beveled.
It’s the instant release kind, not that time release bullshit. Woo!
From my subjective experiments, I would say that 3 of these pills would
be equal to one of those feng tau yuen pills you get in Malaysia. I’m
talking about the “no sleep” ones that contains (meth)amphetamines, not
the ketamine pills. The “no sleep” feng tau yuen contains the same
chemical anyway.
Well, I took 4 tablets and crushed one up and insufflated it. Whoa!
Dextroamphetamine should really be snorted instead of eaten. It gave me
such a huge head rush when I insufflated it. You have to snort hard and
get all the powder from the pill deep into your sinuses for that rush
though. The drip wasn’t too bad tasting, but snorting more than a
couple of these beauties would clog up your nose really fast.
Mosiac on my real name (used medical insurance coz this stuff is expensive) and the doctor’s name
Well after eating 4 and snorting one, I felt really good.
Amphetamine type feelings, like eating a strong feng tau yuen. Very
energetic and euphoric and I couldn’t stop talking. Hmm…there’s this
saying which goes “Never let a speed freak near you or he’ll talk your
ear off”. Heh. Very true, this one made me very sociable. It doesn’t
cloud your mind either, I could work and read fine.
In fact, my concentration increased (happens with all amphetamines
though) and I felt like my IQ doubled and I could work three times as
fast as I usually could. Of course, I pulled those numbers out of my
ass, and it’s probably just perception but you could really get some
good studying done on these things. Anyway, like all amphetamines there
is a very strong compulsion to have more. After a couple of minutes I
ate another two pills and had another two pills 15 minutes later.
That was when I reached the peak and damn, was it euphoric! It was
amazing, clean and in my opinion a better high than methamphetamines. I
couldn’t sit still and felt absolutely wonderful. I couldn’t go out and
party though coz I had some stuff to do so I thought it was a good idea
to call random people.
I think I called more than 10 people. It felt good just to talk, but
I’m the type of guy that LOVES stimulants. I couldn’t stop smoking too,
another amphetamine type effect I get. I think all smokers chain smoke
while on amphetamines because it somehow feels much better than it does
normally. The buzz was really good, I heard someone call this phenomena
“reward smoking”. It’s when smokers who take amphetamines start to
crave for cigarettes and couldn’t resist the urge to smoke due to some
kind of dopaminergic (sp?) activity amphetamines cause. Don’t quote me
on this though.
I found out that it’s much easier to photograph white pills on a black background using macro mode
Anyway, I smoked a pack of Marlboros and still wanted more. I broke out my Nicorette Inhaler
[nicorette.com.au] and toked hard on that instead. That reminds me,
I’ll write about the Nicorette Inhaler some other time. It’s really
nifty. I had a bit of a panic attack when I couldn’t find the inhaler
stem though. I was all out of cigarettes and I had a craving from hell
and the inhaler was nowhere to be found! I practically overturned my
room and finally found it. Nothing has ever looked so beautiful before.
I smoked all the 4 remaining nicotine cartridges. I was still fiending
after that so I smoked half a cigarette that I used to mix with
cannabis. Ugh, stale. I usually smoke cannabis alone, but sometimes a
bit of tobacco makes it good as well.
Anyway, I called one of my good friends and talked to her for a long
time. We really connected too, it’s kinda like MDMA in that sense. I
also talked to someone I haven’t seen in 5 years and it was great! I
had a nice long chat with her about everything and made up for lost
time. I also got this bright idea to call fuzzy (Stephanie Goh)
[absolutely-fuzzy.com] in New Zealand. 🙂 Surprisingly, the rates to NZ
were much higher than to Malaysia for some reason. I’m in Australia if
you’re wondering. I could only talk for 15 minutes on an A$10 card. It
was the Super Saver Card.
I was lazy to go out so I called my friends to see if anyone had a
spare calling card. No one had any, but one of my friends picked me up
to get a calling card at 7-11. What a nice guy eh? Drove out just to
get me to the nearest 7-11 to grab a calling card. 🙂 The calling card
was It’s Green Card and I called Stephanie again and could also
only talk for 15 minutes. How strange, I’ve always thought NZ rates
were very, very low. Something like 3 cents a minute or something. What
is wrong with these cards? NZ is nearer and yet the per minute charges
were higher.
*drool*
Well, Stephanie is a really nice girl and very easy to talk to. I
still think she speaks too fast though. 🙂 I’m glad I called her. She
was drinking coffee at home when I called. She’s one of those friendly
people that’s easy to talk to so that’s good coz I originally wanted to
call just to hear what her voice sounded like. Heh. We talked about
Wanganui and Melbourne and some other stuff. I also remembered
discussing raves vs clubs.
I can’t remember much though, I had too much clonazepam tablets in
the past few days and that totally negates short term memory.
Fortunately my long term memory was pretty much unaffected so words
like “Saddle”, “Lai Ming” and such were used in the conversation. 🙂
Anyway, over the course of the night I took 11 dextroamphetamine
tablets and insufflated 2 for a total of 13. The first dose was very
euphoric but boosting the dose didn’t really do much except prolong the
high. Don’t chase the high with this one. I’m feeling very scattered
towards the end and could hardly hold up my end of the conversation.
Uh, like all amphetamine type stimulants it shrunk my member to the
size of a pea and I found it very hard to take a piss too. It was all
good fun though. Dextroamphetamine is dangerous for me…I just like it
too much! I love stimulants in general. I’m going to make drugs a
weekend thing instead of a daily thing from now on. Gotta be careful
now.
Amphetamines are addictive for me coz I love their stimulating
effects so much so I have to be really careful with it. In fact, I’m
thinking about popping a couple right now. The bottle is just there
seducing me! Dammit, me and my poor self control with regards to drugs.
I’ll just settle for one last one before locking it into my desk. I
hate myself. 🙁 I haven’t eaten anything for two days too. Amphetamines
= appetite suppressant.
Amphetamine type stimulants are actually a really good way to diet.
It works through three ways – appetite supression, increased metabolism
and exercise. Exercise coz you feel like you gotta do something to keep
you busy. I’m not recommending this diet though, but I’ve used it
before and the results were shocking! I lost 15 kgs in a week after
daily use with minimal food (no appetite).
[Edit: I keep eating more and more pills…too compulsive! 🙁 ]
Total dextroamphetamine tablets consumed: 21 x 5 mg tablets for a total of 105 mgs.
That is still within the safe range. I think.
I’ll write the
Project Doctor Shopping
Episode II – Project Divine Stimulation
Traveling at the Speed of Light
another day.
I’m feeling very scattered now. Good for going to a rave and really
caning it but not so good for doing work. I’ll take less next time.
Stimulants + no sleep + no food = crash
I’m not looking forward to tomorrow…
What’s the difference between doctors and drug dealers again? 😉
Caution:
Possessing this class of presciption drugs without a prescription will
get you arrested. Seriously, it’s heavily regulated and you need a
doctor’s script.
