Script shenanigans (Dexamphetamine Reloaded)

*wipes tear away from eye* I thought I’ll never see you again.

Would it be possible to cash in a dated dexamphetamine (Schedule 8)
script several weeks EARLY? I was wondering the same question myself,
and I decided to try after reading a caveat in the pharmaceutical
dispensing guidelines regarding Schedule 8 substances. It was in a
pharmacy site, but I forgot the link. I remembered getting there from
the “australia schedule 8 prescription” search string though. Anyway,
if you’ve been reading about my “narcolepsy” and the legal speed I was
prescribed to manage the symptoms, you’ll have read my final farewell to dextroamphetamine sulfate []. That farewell seems to be premature though. Don’t you just hate that? πŸ˜‰

32 days have passed since the last time I refilled my script
(including today). I had thought that was the last time I’m going to
see my little white friends, because the good doctor upgraded
(supersized?) my dexamphetamine prescription by trusting me with the
responsibility of 200 x 5 mg dexamphetamine (Dexedrine in the US)
tablets upfront with a refill in 50 days instead of the usual 100 x 5
mg every 25 days. The nice doctor did not increase my dose, but he
allowed me to get 200 tablets at once, which is not standard
prescribing procedure for a Schedule 8 drug.

I have 2 repeats left on the script (time based, only valid if 50
days have passed since the last refill) and I’m not due for a refill
until 10th of July, which is next month. I would be back in Malaysia by
then so I thought it was the last time I’ll be having pharmaceutical
quality amphetamines. However, I decided to use one of the methods in
my Tome of Doctor Shopping (available for the low, low price of
A$0, I’ve documented everything on this site) to see if I could just
eek out one last refill before I go back. It just might be possible,
and I won’t have to lie to get it. I just have to be economical with
the truth. πŸ˜‰


I’ll be going back soon for my holidays and my tablets would run out before I come back, so can I please have an early refill?

There is no untruth in this statement, everything is TRUE. Isn’t
that great? =D I just didn’t mention that I’ll be going back for good,
as that would invalidate the script (it still has a repeat) which is
supposed to be inherited by CT. I also neglected to elaborate
that I won’t be heading home that early. My tongue slipped and that
made me erroneously emphasize the word “soon” with a particular tone
which might be misleading to chemists, leading them to think that it
was a date like tomorrow. Sorry! πŸ˜‰

I haven’t been to any of the pharmacies I went to today. I didn’t
want to use the regular dexamphetamine one, since the pharmacist
clearly told me about the 50 day refill timeframe. I can’t use any of
the pharmacies near my place because I have either filled
benzodiazepines or bought fit kits and other injecting paraphernalia
there, and I didn’t want to risk my script. I decided to trawl the
pharmacies further away from my usual haunts. We’ll see how it goes:

Pharmacy #1

This medicine may increase mental alertness and/or co-ordination. If
affected. Do not bite lower lip or smoke too many cigarettes.

I walked in and gave the pharmacist on duty (a nice looking old man)
a big ass smile and said “Hello” cheerily. πŸ™‚ “Could you possibly help
me with this? It’s not due for a while, but I’ll be going home for the
holidays soon and my prescription will run out before I come back, so would it be possible to get this filled today?”

“That shouldn’t be a problem, I’ll get to it right away. It would take a couple of minutes, do you use prescription assistance programs?”

“Sure, take your time. I appreciate your help.”

I tried to be nonchalant and pretended to read a book while in
actually fact I was watching the pharmacist out of the corner of my
eye. I saw him make a phone call, no problem, he’s probably just
validating the script, 200 is an extraordinary amount for
dexamphetamine. He came up to me after that and said: “I’m sorry sir,
but I only have 100 tablets in stock now. However, if you come back at
4:30 pm, the prescription would be all ready for you.”

It was slightly before 9 am in the morning then. Hmm…this is a
definite go, I thought, I’ll be happy to come back at 4:30 pm if that
means I would get the refill. However, it bothered me that such a large
pharmacy did not carefully maintain the stock levels to avoid
situations such as these. Maybe I’m just paranoid, but it doesn’t hurt
to be careful, and I’ve learnt something important in my years of
recreational drug use: When in doubt – bail.

I did not plan to be untruthful, but circumstances dictate that
moral issues should be shelved and contingency plans initiated. “Oh,
that would be great, but unfortunately I have an exam later so I
wouldn’t be able to come back at that time”. Pharmacist: “That wouldn’t
be a problem, we close at 6 pm, so if you just come back anytime before
that, the prescription will be ready for you.” He was still holding on
to my script. I wanted it back. “Well, my exams are in Caulfield so I
wouldn’t be heading down again, since it would be out of the way.
Thanks for your help anyway.”

“That wouldn’t be a problem, you can just come back tomorrow or another day, and it’ll be all ready for you.” He was still
holding my script. Subtlety will not work here. “Thanks, but that won’t
be necessary. I’ll just get it another day. I’m sorry for bothering
you.” I hold my hand out for the script. He handed it back rather
unwillingly. “Have a nice day” I say as I walk out. I walked to the
traffic lights about 25 meters from the pharmacy and stood there while
the pedestrian lights were red. I happened to glance beside me and saw
two police officers smiling at me in a manner I thought was predatory.

Paranoia? Or did the pharmacist call the police? He wouldn’t would
he? Even though prescription fraud is punishable by a 1 year jail
sentence, I didn’t do anything wrong by asking for an early refill (at
least I don’t think that’s breaking any laws). It’s such a minor
infringement anyway, but why are the police looking at me like that? I
am dressed well and conservatively, like I always do when doctor
shopping or filling scripts. I nodded at the police and said “Hello
officers.” I looked back at the pedestrian lights. It turned green. I

It’s probably just a coincidence but it was disconcerting.

Pharmacy #2

Keep a supply – …

Okay, it seems that refilling scripts before the due date is
possible under certain circumstances, like the one I’m experiencing. I
just need to tweak (no pun intended) the statement a little bit to
optimize it. I walk into the second pharmacy and said “Good morning, I
was wondering if you could help me out with this. It’s not due yet, but
my exams are over and I’m flying back home tomorrow. The tablets would
run out before I get back, so would it be possible to get this refill
earlier so I don’t miss my medication?”

“Okay, just a minute, let me ask the pharmacist.”

The pharmacist (who happens to be another old man, but not as kindly
looking as the first one) looked at the script, looked at me and walked
over. “I’m sorry, but we don’t stock these. Why don’t you go back to
the original pharmacy and get it from there?” “Okay, thanks for your
help.” No go. I don’t believe for a second that this large chain does
not carry dexamphetamine. The pharmacist probably just though the
script was a bit odd, considering the amount and the fact that I’m
filling it at a place which is really quite far from the one who issued
the repeat authorization and didn’t want to fill it.

Oh well, since I’m bending the truth a little (okay, more than a
little), I have no right to comment, but does the pharmacist think I
look stupid? That’s such a lame excuse coming from this well known and
large pharmacy chain, but he’s probably thinking the same thing too. πŸ™‚
“Does this guy think I’m stupid?” Heh. No harm, no foul, I’ll just move

Pharmacy #3

…don’t cease…

I optimized the statement again. I decided I wasn’t going to draw
attention to the due date unless the pharmacist asks about it. Hey,
maybe I’ll get lucky and he’ll miss the fact that the due date is next
month. “Hello, can I have this filled please?” I say while smiling my
“I’m just an innocent student, a nice guy” smile. Cheery and polite,
what a hoot I am. πŸ™‚ Unfortunately, this pharmacy does not carry
dexamphetamine. I did believe him, because it was a small, hole in the
wall chemist, with a tiny prescriptions section. The pharmacist was
kind enough to point me in the right direction too. “Hmm…let me think
of the pharmacists in (deleted) who stocks these. There are two at
(deleted) Street that would most likely have them in stock. You could
pop over and see.”

“Thanks for your help!”

Pharmacy #4

…without Dr’s advice

I modified the statement again. I implemented the lessons learnt
from the first three pharmacies and decided to experiment with an
additional sentence to add authority to my statement. I put on my best
shit eating grin and applied my friendliest tone with overtures of “Oh,
I feel sorry for all the hard work you do that goes unnoticed. I really
appreciate your self-sacrificing service to the community.” The
pharmacist was a man in his early 30s, he looks young and I somehow
feel that this would be the one.

Me: Good morning! Rainy day huh?
Pharmacist: Yeah, it’s been raining the whole morning. It’s quite cold eh?
Me: Indeed. The weather has been rather dismal these days. It’s
going to be good for the alpine though, I hear there’s some nice
snowfall up there. Too bad I’m going to miss snowboarding this year.
Pharmacist: Oh, that’s too bad. Where are you going?
Me: I’m heading back for the holidays. Just finished my exams,
oh this reminds me, this script is not due yet, but unfortunately, I’ll
be going home for a month and half so the tablets would run out before
I come back. I called the doctor and he suggested that I get a refill
before I go back. The doctor’s details is here.
I flip the repeat authorization over confidently and pointed out the
original doctor’s script, while taking care not to overextend myself
and expose tattoos. It doesn’t hurt to be careful, even a shave to look
clean cut helps.

Pharmacist: 200? Oh, wow.
Me: Yeah, I’ve been prescribed this for narcolepsy. The doctor gave me a larger amount so I won’t have to get it filled so often.
Pharmacist: I see. Sure, this is no problem at all. It’ll just take 10 minutes for me to get this filled.
Me: Thanks! I appreciate your help.

I pray that he won’t call the doctor, because the part about me consulting the doctor for advice didn’t exactly happen.

I pretended to browse around the store and decided that a display of
hair coloring is very interesting and stared at that with a half smile,
all the while keeping my ears cocked for phone conversations. This is
dangerous territory…if he calls the doctor, all would be lost. The
doctor is under the impression that dexamphetamine is cheaper in
Malaysia so it wouldn’t make sense for me to collect the script here,
and he’ll certainly remember if we had a conversation about early
refills, and we didn’t. Malaysia didn’t even approve dextroamphetamine
for anything! It’s not available for prescribing in Malaysia. I
shouldn’t have said that. Lady luck, show me some love!

5 minutes later… (it felt like 50 minutes)

Pharmacist: Hey!

I pretended that he didn’t made me jump. I was on methcathinone
(I’ll write about it some other time) and it doesn’t take much to make
me jump when I’m tweaking. Thankfully, a column of hygiene products
obscured me, so my startled response didn’t get noticed.

Me: Yes?
Pharmacist: It’s (deleted) right? Is that how your pronounce it?
Me: You’ve got it spot on, that’s my name alright.
Actually he didn’t pronounce it right, but going into semantics would just slow the process down, so on with the show!
Pharmacist: Are you still taking it twice daily?
Me: Yeah, that’s my dose.
Pharmacist: Okay, thanks!


There was sounds of fast typing, and my paranoia imagined the
pharmacist talking to the doctor online. He was just typing the new
repeat authorization. πŸ™‚

Pharmacist: Here you go buddy. Do you want a receipt?
I hide my grin.
Me: Yes please, that would be great.
Pharmacist: Here’s everything. I also put in a leaflet about
generic medicines, it’s a good read. This is your repeat authorization,
there’s one repeat left, 50 days from now. And this is the 200 tablets
of dexamphetamine, two tablets to be taken twice daily.
Me: Thank you, I appreciate your help.
Pharmacist: Have a nice trip!
Huh? What is he insinuating? Is he trying to tell me that he knows
I’m scripting and he filled it anyway? What would be the appropriate
reply then? Oh wait, he’s talking about the trip back home. Duh!

Me: Thanks, have a nice day mate.

/me walks out with 1 gram of dextroamphetamine sulfate in the form
of two bottles of dexamphetamine containing 100 tablets of 5 mg each.

Remember: Keep a supply – don’t cease without Dr’s advice!

That’s doctor’s orders. πŸ˜‰

Mini Binge Draft: v.beta

<p>This is a post by <a href=””>veritas</a>.</p>

<p>I wote this while still very under the influence and try as I want
to, I cannot simply provide resoanably understandable phrases while in
this mindstate. Plus, I took a heavy dose of benzodiazepines and theire
siren calls are irresistible, try as hard as I could. That was
originally the plan – I hae tweaked for a few days so today ios the
time to stop…except I ended up having classic ideas like taking LSD
(acid) at 5am the morning. Hehe! If I knoew I wasn’t gonnabe this
tired, I’ll have been out. So here’s the very dubious draft, read at
your own risk, sinlight just looks so beautiful on a low 1 blotter dose
of acid. I amazed that that all the insufflated meth couldn’t keep me
from sleeping. The acid too, visuals look great in the daytime , it’s a
small dose, but its great. I’ll tell you more tomorrow, Too sleepy not
to saything except food. And fractals. Anyway, I’m stopping here and
I’ll post a photo up so it isn’t all tes.t I can’t think coherently
now, but check back tomorrow and I’ll have posted a nether post with
all the pirctures and when I’m sober enough to write. Bye nite…and you
can have a read at the really rough draft starting here:</p>

<p><img alt=”msysleep.jpg” src=”” border=”0″ height=”263″ width=”350″><br>
Intrigues by this picture? Have you been subject to sleepless nights
because you wonder what that picture is. Well , check ack tomorrow and
all will be clear! I did take a lot of pics of substances b ut nah
can’t postm them today toooosleepy. I had something to say but I forgot
it again like usual. Fuck.</p>

<h3>Idiot warning: Please refrain from reading because there’s an idiot writubg (though not intentionally.</h3>
<h2>Final warning: Drug retard’s journal. Not recommended for reasing</h2>
Oh man, even typing that out made me have to think for a long to to get
that thought out. I should probably put a caution here: This post will
endoubtadly lead in an appropriate degress of respect, but in my
defence, some stuff have been sitting in the drawer for AGES and I
never had an urge to touch them (except for dex/meth). I don’t know why
I’m at the first paragraph again, will go down and find the one I
posted in last and I’m going to put an idiot waitning on top.
<p><b>Substances: </b><br>
Day 1 – Day 6<br>
Methamphetamine <br>
Dextroamphetamine (Dexamphetamine, Dexedrine)<br>
Day 3 or 4 or 5  <br>

<p>Ketamine = early this morning (or was it last night?) time just loses it’s meaning when you stay up a while.<br>
Bendodiazepines (clonazepam, diazepam)<br>
Salvia Divinorum (Diviner’s Sage)<br>
Cannabis (marijuana)<br>
95% alcohol…I think that’s what made me so drowsy wit the benzo doses I just look. I’m having a bizzzare feeling now./<br>
Mushrooms! =D</p>

<p><b>Caution: </b> This post might be offensive to three different people<br>1.
Who have been brainwashed by government propaganda into thinking “Drugs
are bad mmmkay?” The scond group that might be displeased is the harm
reduction organizations, who’s work and time towards the cause have
always been appreciated! To them I say, my apologies for contributing
to the image of irresponsible use. To the first group I say, get your
fucking ass out of your head because eat food – shit comes out – eat
shit ad nauseum is not a healthy way to life. I’ll also like to mention
that I’m not the most responsible drug user out there, so please do not
take my comments as representative of a larger group. If you do, I
suggest that a refresher course in university might do you a world of
good to keep things in perspective.<br>
<b>Background:</b> Taking methamphetamine/dextroamphetamine for 6 days
straight. Today is the sixth day. I wanted to comedown yesterday but
thatfunny ketamine kept me awake and so here I an,I would love tell you
about the..tius is like a really bad movie but I seriously forgot again.<br>
<b>Substances: </b></p>

<p>It’s the end of the semester some more!!!!! I felt so tired after my
5 day run without food and sleep (got some on the sixth night, yum
drowisnes alernt, oh and I’m going to pass out right now I’m so sleepy!</p>

<p><b>Anyway substances taken:</b> methamphetamine (meth) <b>I’LL STOP
that’s giving up, I will resist the URGE to sleep and I promise I’ll
get this done pictures and all (although shoddiness is garunteed) </b>now iE TONIET., dextroamphetamine (Dexidrine instant release), diazepam (Valium),</p>

Note: er…somehow this post didn’t survive the server move, but the final post did</p>

Upgraded dextroamphetamine sulfate (Dexamphetamine, Dexedrine) script…and a farewell

Why is this man laughing? [].


I went to pick up my dexamphetamine script today. Granted, the day
that happens usually warrants a post filled with much joy and
laughter…but not to this extent. Hahaha! πŸ™‚ Look, I’m at it again!
Okay, let me fill you all in about what happened today. I went to my
usual doctor to pick up my script 100 tablets of dextroamphetamine
sulfate today. The good doctor raised the price issue again with me, so
I thought it would be a good time to push my luck. Hehe!

Anyway, the price issue stems from the fact that the good doctor
feels sorry for me because I have to pay the clinic consultation fees
(A$35) every time I pick up my script. He knows I’m an international
student from the first consultation, and it might have been something I
said that first time (don’t really remember), but he’s really concerned
about my financial situation. πŸ™‚ Now, is that a good doctor or what!

However, the thing is, my Medibank Private OSHC (Overseas Student
Health Coverage) makes me eligible to claim back the consultation fees.
I’ve told the doctor that when he raised the issue the first time but
he seems to forget it every time I go in. Man, I’m feeling really bad
about scamming this doctor, he’s a really good, concerned medical
professional on all fronts. Bless him!


A rather long aside:

I read a post about 25 mg getting someone “too wired” and another
about a guy taking “35 mg but don’t take that much because I’m a big
guy”. Fuckers!!!!! I can’t get off on less than 60 mg and I need
urinary alkalinizers and a really empty stomach for that to work, and
re-dosing has to happen frequently. I just took 60 mg, a 40 mg booster
dose at T+30 and snorted a fat line of meth to go with everything when
I felt the oral dose kick in. I’m fairly nice and stimulated (whee! =D)
but it’s not a “recreational dose” in that I’ll need much more to get
ready to “fucking party”. πŸ˜‰ This is just a “work dose” for
assignments. Reading those posts got my panties all in a twist (not
literally, I prefer lacy G-strings…I kid! :)) because my tolerance does
not allow me to “get off” on that kind of doses. πŸ™ I’m not saying “my
dick is bigger than yours” – fuck, not at all! I wish so much that I
have the tolerance level of a normal person so my stash will last
longer! Reading those posts makes me envious…imagine how long my gear
will last if I only need 20 mg to get tweaked. The possibilities! Oh,
the sweet sweet possibilities!

P/S – Don’t take the amounts I take – dosage guides are available at
Erowid (link on the right). I’m in a bit of a meth here…tweaking very
often and not exercising moderation and self-control. Don’t worry or
feel sorry about me though, I’m going to quit (don’t laugh, seriously)
in June, for reasons I will explain later. πŸ™‚

Anyway, back to the post, I told the doctor not to worry about it,
coz I can claim back the consultation fees, but he keeps on forgetting
that. Another small aside: I’m sure my health coverage allows me to
claim back part of the medication cost, but there’s no way I’m doing
that! πŸ™‚ Maybe I’m paranoid, but I want a “clean record” – no
benzodiazepines or amphetamine type stimulants on my medical record
please. I’ve read that Medibank does check for doctor shoppers,
and benzodiazepines for anxiety and dextroamphetamine for narcolepsy
will be a bit of a discrepancy now won’t it? Maybe it’ll just make a
few people at Medibank scratch their heads in puzzlement at this
contraindicatory prescription list, maybe they won’t even notice it,
but maybe, just maybe, they’ll flag me as a doctor shopper and that’ll
be the end of things.

Picked up 200 tablets (a whopping 1000 mg – that’s a gram of dextroamphetamine sulfate) today

“False representation to obtain a prescription drug” aka faking
symptoms to get a prescription IS a drug offence and can lead to 1 year
in prison in Victoria! Don’t fuck around, I’m not glamorizing or
promoting this practice in any way, I’m just telling you about my day
and that’s what a blog is about right? You might also be concerned
about the other issues raised by Dave in his comments in Project Doctor Shopping I
[]. He’s got a couple of good points in there, however, I
don’t mean to “proudly drawing attention to my exploits”. I don’t
mention about my doctor shopping shenanigans anywhere else, but I
neglected to notice that “Dexamphetamine” seems to be an Australian
“brand name” and thus my site is in the top 10 returned hits of Google
(sometimes, seem to change every time Google crawls) if people search
for that particular word. This worries me a bit though, I would like
the site’s readers to read about my day, but I’m also aware that a
doctor/medical insurance representative/pharmacist/law enforcement
officer (*crosses fingers*) might stumble upon it and do something
about it. Well, in the unlikely (but statistically possible) event that
you’re one of the above…not that this is a valid excuse, but consider
giving a final semester (more about this later) university student who
will be leaving Australia for good in June 2003 a break eh? πŸ™‚

You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

My, am I paranoid today. And I’ve digressed so far from the point.
Sheesh! πŸ™‚ My apologies, 100 mg + line of meth does get me fairly
tweaked – it’s not as high as I’ll like to be for recreation, but it
sure gets me talking and writing excessively, which is why I use it for
assignments. Sure gets things done really fast, if you control the urge
to elaborate and go off on tangents. Hehe! πŸ™‚ I wouldn’t use it for
writing stuff though, it makes me write inappropriately intimate
“Hello, we’re having a conversation” type essays instead of the
detached “The simulation was run for 420 seconds, and upon completion,
the average utilization rates for the TD link is found to hover around
60%. The TD link’s parameters were then changed to meet the IEEE 802.3
1000BaseT standard and this resulted in a significant decrease in the
utilization rate figures as predicted, with an average of 7.7% over the
course of the 7 minute simulation.”.

I am digressing again. Sorry, I’ll get back to the post now. Lemme
just scroll up and see where I ended…ah, yes. I’ve never claimed back
the medication costs due to that reason, and also I don’t feel good
about being “subsidized” for something I’m using for recreational
purposes. I do claim the consultation costs though – and this may sound
like hypocrisy – but I make a distinction between this and medication
costs. Before you accuse me of “taking advantage of Australia’s good
medical facilities” and tell me to go back home (which I’m going to do
in June anyway) please take note of the fact that I’ve only claimed
back the consultation costs for the doctor who prescribes me
dexamphetamine, and that’s just 4 times.

Dexamphetamine driving in traffic.
Speech bubble: Vroom!

I also pay high monthly medical premiums for my Medibank Private
health insurance – I’m not on Medicare because I’m not a PR or citizen!
Perhaps that’s why I don’t feel bad about claiming back the
consultation costs for the dexamphetamine consultations (never claimed
the other ones, used a fake name so that’s not possible), it’s
something about claiming back small amounts from a for-profit private
insurance company that doesn’t bother me at all. Hell, the amounts I
pay for premiums and the out of pocket costs from several unfortunate
incidents is many, many times higher than the meager claimbacks I did.
I’m contributing to the Australian economy from that, my university
fees (overseas students = very inflated figures) and the other
associated living costs. I’m about to digress into a 10, 000 word essay
about why international students are contributing to the economy, not
“taking away” from it, but I’ll spare you all that. πŸ™‚

I’ve said I’ll stop digressing, right? Oops…okay, anyway, I’ve only
done 4 claims for the consultation (but not medication) from the
dexamphetamine clinic, because my altruism can only go as far as my
financial means, which isn’t much at all. Oh, and the claims are not
paid back in full though, there is out of pockets costs for people on
OSHC – I don’t know how much it is in terms of percentages, I could
break out with the calculators (or at least click on Window’s
calculator) but I’ll let someone with the adequate math skillz to work
this out in the head do this. πŸ™‚ Consultation costs me A$35 and I’ve
been to 4 consultations for dexamphetamine, so that’s A$140 (I had to
use a calculator for that – damn my poor math). I got A$100.50 from the
claims, so that’s A$39.50 out of pocket expenses. Phew, I didn’t use a
calculator for that (though I was tempted to) – worked it all out in my
head…it took quite a while and I had to bend and flex my fingers to
keep track and provide visual cues during the calculation, but I did
it! That’s something to be proud of…heh! Okay, now someone else work
out the OOP expenses if there’re interested, I forgot how to calculate
percentages even with a calculator…

Dexamphetamine in: Delusions of Grandeur – Hovering over the skies of Melbourne.
Speech bubble: Behold mortals!

Anyway, I told the doctor that I can claim back the consultation
fees, but he says he doesn’t feel good about me paying every time. I
think he mentioned something along the lines of he’ll rather me pay the
pharmacy for the medication and not the clinic for the
consultation…which leads me to wonder if he’s involved in any
outstanding issues with the clinic, but it’s not my place to speculate.
Nevertheless, I wish you well, good doctor. All the best in everything
and may you live long and prosper! I don’t think doctors need any
wishes regarding the prosper bit though. :p

Well, after all this paragraphs of digression and sidetracks, now
I’m back to what I said in the first paragraph. πŸ™‚ He raised the issue
again with me today, so I thought…I’m feeling lucky today so I’ll push
my luck and see how far it takes me. Roll with it, and all that:

Me: Hmm…
(The “hmm…” is because I wanted to make it look like the idea just got into my head)
Me: Well, would it be possible to…say, write a script for 200
tablets instead of 100 tablets? I won’t need to come back so often in
that case.
(I immediately regretted saying this, I meant to say 300, but my tongue
slipped. Curse you for abandoning me in my moment of need…I’ll give you
a good bite in retaliation! Ouch! Okay, back to the conversation.)
Doctor: Yes, that’s a good idea, that means you’ll only have to
go to the pharmacy instead of all the way here (my address is on my
patient details sheet, good thing he never asked why I came all the way
here instead of going to a doctor in my suburb) and paying consultation
every time to get your script. I’ll do that. How much were you taking
(I’m thinking really hard at this point…is the doctor testing me? Or
has he really forgotten and the patient history sheet doesn’t have my
dosage on it? Split second decisions, buddy, do it right this time, go
with the flow, do what feels right!)
Me: I’m taking two tablets twice a day.
(Yes, I told the truth. I had decided the doctor wasn’t testing me
based on his expression and other cues, including body language, etc
and my gut feeling (which is actually pretty good). However, I didn’t
want to lie to this doctor when he’s been so nice to me, it just won’t
be right. It may sound strange that a doctor shopper has “morals” but
you don’t understand the scene if you think that way. Recreational drug
users and the doctor shopping subculture is just a microcosm of the
general population – there are good people, they are bad people, like
general society. (Note to self: Nice one! You managed to squeeze the
word ‘microcosm’ into a post at last! =D) Personally, I consider myself
a “good person”. The written version of verbal masturbation? Oh well, I
feel that way anyway because I’m honest except when doctor shopping (I
prefer the term “going into character” instead of lying) and I don’t:
rip anyone off, dob anyone in, fuck anyone over, steal, cheat, deal,
manipulate etc etc. Yes, writing that did felt good, and it’s true too.
πŸ™‚ However, others might not think I’m a “good person” because
substance use is still shaking off its stigma, but that’s okay. Judge
not lest ye be judged yourself. πŸ˜‰ My God (blasphemy), that is an
inappropriately long aside in the middle of reenacting a conversation –
I wish I had an editor to cut out all this crap.)

Dexamphetamine using a public toilet. The yellow stream missed the bowl.
Speech bubble: Ahh…

Doctor: Okay, so I’ll write 200 tablets (I kick myself again
for not saying 300) and also put in some repeats so come in again when
you finish the tablets.
Me: Thanks doctor, I’ll come in again next Monday then.
(I kid!!! I didn’t say that last sentence. Sorry. Couldn’t resist. πŸ™‚ This is my real reply:)
Me: How do the repeats work?
(I want to sound clueless in preparation for my next phase of
“Operation Upgrade Dexamphetamine Prescription” or OUDP. Heck, that
didn’t even have a ring to it. Okay, “Operation Supersize Prescription
– Elicit Extra Dexamphetamine”. Hmm, ‘elicit’ doesn’t sound right,
‘solicit’ is better but that doesn’t start with ‘e’ and ‘elicit’ is the
only other ‘e’ word I could think of. Be glad it’s not “…Extra Extra…”.
πŸ™‚ Anyway, I’m sure taking a long time to write this…back to “Operation
Doctor: The chemist will give you a piece of paper which you can use to refill the bottle when it’s empty. Remember to keep that paper.
Me: I will. Thanks doctor! I appreciate your help.
Doctor: My pleasure. I don’t know if the pharmacy would fill 200
tablets of dexamphetamine though, they might have a problem with it.
Just tell them to call me if they say anything about that. My number is
on the top of the prescription form.
Me: Okay, thanks for everything doctor!

I walked out of the clinic. What happened to Phase Two of Operation
SPEED? I didn’t initiate it…I was planning to talk about tolerance
(which the doctor never asked about) in Phase Two. I reckon it’s normal
to get the dose increased after a while because you do build a massive
tolerance on these things, even if you’re using it for legitimate
reasons. However, things didn’t go well last time I brought up that
issue and my sixth sense told me that asking right would be a bad idea
when the doctor has trusted me with 200 tablets at once (instead of 100
tablets with dated repeats as is the norm). Even though tolerance is a
valid issue, this doctor has never prescribed dexamphetamine before (he
told me the first time) and I have the feeling he may not be aware of
tolerance issues.

Dexamphetamine stopped and questioned by the police!
Speech bubble: I’m not on speed officer, honest!

I’m not trying to discredit the doctor, I’m sure he knows a lot, but
doctors are not pharmacists and my experience tells me that a lot of
doctors are not familiar with the details of every medication (it’s
impossible to do that!) and they often rely on something like a
“Physician’s Desk Reference” or something like that, when prescribing
something they’re not familiar with. Those books tend to have something
along the lines of “HIGH ADDICTIVE POTENTIAL”
[] under dextroamphetamine (probably in capital letters and
bold font too) and no mention about tolerance, except something like
increase might make me sound like I’ve succumbed to the first warning,
and it just didn’t feel like the time was right. In other words, the
planets did not align to form a straight line, a rare phenomena of epic
astronomical proportions.

Oh, I must have written thousands of words already. Okay, I’ll
finish up…I’m familiar with the Latin notation in prescriptions (read
up and memorized it), and I could (not would! could – would,
can – will, possibility – acting out) modify the script, but I’m not
that morally bankrupt. I’ll always go the doctor shopping route instead
of forging scripts or modifying existing ones. However, the thought did
flit across my mind before I pushed it out (Naughty!). Prescription
fraud is where I draw the line, it’s just not something I’ll do. The
two are similar in the eyes of the law though, modifying a script
(forging a prescription) attracts the same penalties as doctor shopping
(false representation to obtain a prescription drug) – both give you a
one year (maximum – a lot of people are waiting to take advantage of
this offer!) accommodation at the local Hilton (all expenses paid, no
less). I would make a joke about showers and slippery soap, but I don’t
feel like it anymore – thinking about the government’s generous offer
is depressing.

Anyway, the thought just crossed my mind because the pen I have
produces the same colored ink and texture as the writing on the script.
I had noticed that the doctor is using the same pen I have (well, the
pen is not the same, but the ink cartridge is…just knew this because it
was a bit of information I picked up and filed into my “temporary
storage for things that are not worthy of going into permanent memory”
while shopping for a good pen, but for some reason the temporary files
didn’t get deleted) instead of the free “Zoloft” or some other
pharmaceutical company’s free pens to promote their latest and
greatest. Theoretically, I could either change the frequency or the
quantity to a more accommodating figure. The doctor is using the BNF
(British system) instead of the US standard, seeing as he wrote
abbreviated “Bd” instead of “b.i.d.” for twice a day…changing the
capital B to a capital Q and adding s after the d (doubling the
frequency) would make a “mess” with the B and it would be easy to pick
up. “Bd” to “PRN” is possible without too much of a mess, but I doubt
the pharmacist would read that without laughing or calling the police.

Dexamphetamine vs possum!
Speech bubble: j00 dead fool! Eat me will ya?

I don’t think anyone prescribes dextroamphetamine to be “taken as
needed”. “Bd” to “Tds” to increase frequency by one is potentially
feasible, but the way the doctor “crosses” the end of B makes it
impossible to alter without looking dodgy due to the extra bottom
“wing” of B. Anyway, “Bd” to another frequency is not easy from the way
the doctor writes…it’s not something as easy as changing “qd” to “qid”
in the US notation system, that’s for sure! Modifying the frequency is
out…what about the quantity? I don’t even dare to touch that
non-standard notation! I can’t even make sense of it…what with the T
with an additional bar and two dots thingy. My impulsive side was going
“Try ADDING two vertical bars and two dots and see what happens!”. Duh.

The easiest mod is obviously the Arabic (or Hindu, or European
depending on what you read…it’s the common 1, 2, 3 numbers) numerals
for amount. Changing 200 to 300 isn’t all that hard, and I’m sure a lot
of people have had practice doing that in primary school if you have
parents with high expectations. πŸ˜‰ But yeah, I’m just throwing the
ideas around in my mind then, I’m not seriously going to do it! Like I
said, it’s not something I want to be involved in. Besides, the script
is suspicious enough as it is (even though it’s perfectly legit), and a
callback to check is practically guaranteed. It’s not common at all for
controlled drugs like dexamphetamine to be prescribed in large amounts
– the usual practice is to have time limited refills, not double the
amount in one go (like what the doctor gave me today). This shows that
the doctor is placing a lot of trust in me by not following standard
prescribing procedure, and I don’t want to betray that trust.

Anyway, I had to wait a long time to get my script filled at the
chemist…I couldn’t see behind the counter, so I don’t know if they
actually called the doctor to check, it doesn’t matter anyway, since my
script is kosher. πŸ™‚ However, the reaction of the woman attending the
counter was soooo funny. Heh. The prescription dispensing happens at
the back and you go to the front to pay for it. There I was, carrying
my two lovely dexamphetamine pill bottles in a small basket…I put them
down on the counter, the woman picked up both the bottles and went:

“Oh, wow! This is a large amount eh?”

The funny thing about it was the way she squinted first, adjusted
her spectacles and the way her eyes bulged at the second visual
confirmation. Oh man, that just made my day! =D I guess you had to be
there. I would have thought that there would be plenty of people who
have cashed in much larger scripts before, so I really thought her
reaction was strange. Strange, but funny. πŸ™‚ Perhaps she’s new. I can’t
even think of an appropriate answer to that, and it sounds like a
rhetorical question anyway, so I just smiled and said “yeah” in
noncommittal tone.

The price for 1000 mg of dextroamphetamine sulfate is A$45.25. 200 x
5 mg dexamphetamine pills for less than A$50. πŸ™‚ Also, notice the 200
beside the top part. That usually states the number of pills in the
bottle, all my previous ones had 100 on them. Be still my beating
heart! Is it possible? Has the pharmacist made a disastrous mistake
while reading the script or counting the tablets and gave me 200 pills
in each bottle, totaling 400 tablets or 2000 mg of dexamphetamine?
Could it be? The anticipation!

Oh, I noticed a very large price discrepancy…it just boggles the
mind! Okay, I usually pick up 100 5 mg dexies for A$30.35. That’s the
price I’ve always paid. Now, at the very same chemist, I go and fill my
script of 200 tablets. They came in two pill bottles, each containing
100 tablets, and the price for BOTH of them is…A$45.25. What? It just
doesn’t make sense at all. It should have cost A$60.70. There shouldn’t
have been a discount as high as A$15.45 for just double the amount,
it’s not like a bulk discount for say 1000 tablets.

There’s some things which somewhat makes sense, like 100 x 0.5 mg
clonazepam costing A$18.85 and 100 x 2 mg clonazepam (from the same
chemist, same brand – Paxam) costing A$26.15. That’s not unusual in the
pharmaceutical industry, mg to mg comparisons makes the 2 mg ones much
cheaper, but still it’s two different doses and I understand that the
industry prices things like this. However, two similar strength and
amount things like the dexamphetamine tablets shouldn’t have such a
large discount when bought in twos. Is it common for chemists to make
such unusual price tiers?

Well, I’m happy it costs only 0.22625 cents for 5 mg of
dexamphetamine, it’s unbeatable compared to street prices for normal
speed. Oh, and the doctor told me during the first consultation that he
was wary of prescribing dexamphetamine coz there are people selling it
for A$5 per 5 mg pill on the streets. I was talking to CT today and he
mentioned that there are people selling it for A$4 at the university!
That’s per 5 mg pill! Absolutely crazy prices, I wouldn’t pay A$4 per
pill, but CT says that a lot of people will because they consider it to
be “pure and clean” because it came from a pharmaceutical company. I
would make quite a profit (A$750 net profit for 200 tablets) if I did
that. Even if I love the stuff, selling it at that price and buying
heaps of meth with the profit would be a feasible move. However, I’m
adverse to the idea of selling stuff, I don’t feel comfortable with it.
I don’t know why, but it just seems strange to me (I would not make a
good businessman) so I wouldn’t deal. Heck, I wouldn’t even middleman
for people, much less deal, I’m too paranoid for that to ever happen.
Paranoid = worried all the time = poor quality of life. πŸ™‚

I counted the pills and the original label was right after all…there
is 100 pills per bottle, the two bottles total 200 pills as prescribed.
The chemist label was tabulating both the total amount. Ah, you got me
all excited for nothing! I just had to rush back to count the lovely
little things! πŸ™‚

Anyway, I also got a Repeat Authorization form which I need some
help with. I can’t get through the prescription mumbo jumbo. Any
pharmacists, pharmacy school student or seasoned doctor
shopper/prescription frauder out there? I’ll appreciate it if you could
explain how the repeats work:


The thing I don’t understand is the three columns under “Original
Prescription Transcription” (the part with DEXAMPHETAMINE TABLETS 5
MG). Below that are three columns: the first one is “Original
Prescription Details”, the second is “No. of times already dispensed
(including original supply). If original not supplied insert ‘0’” and
the third is “PRICED ITEMS ONLY”. I’m interested in the first and
second one, and I neglected to ask at the pharmacists just now. The
first column has “2” printed in “No. of Repeats Authorized” and the
second column has “1” indicating it has been dispensed once. Now, what
I don’t understand is, do I still have 2 refills left, or 1?

Personally, I think I have 2 left, because the original script says
“Dexamphetamine 5mg (weird notation for 2) Bd (200) x 2 Rpts”. That
means I get two repeats right? Also, the bottle labels (from the
chemist) has “2 Rpts” printed on each bottle. All my past bottles has
“Nil Rpts” printed there. Unless pharmacists use a different discipline
of meth, sorry math, the chemist labels and original script plainly
says I have two repeats left for both the bottles, thus 800 pills (a
delicious 4000 mg of dextroamphetamine sulfate) awaits me, with 400
pills available after 50 days and the other 400 pills available another
50 days past the first repeat date. However, the repeat authorization
form seems to count the original prescription as a “repeat”. Or maybe I
just don’t know how to read it. I’ll appreciate it if anyone could shed
some light, coz I don’t feel like going to a pharmacy and asking. It
would be…uncomfortable, considering the day I cashed it is listed. Heh.
I don’t want to look too eager, like I’m just chomping at the bit to
get it filled. :p

The protagonist of the pictorial series! Presenting – Dexamphetamine

Okay, I remember saying that I’ll go into why I’m going back for
good in June. Get ready for this…it’s coz I’m graduating! Hah! I did
fail a lot of subjects, but I managed to finish at the same time as my
college mates. Yeah! I had to pull a few strings and jump though
(fiery) hoops to graduate in June, but I’m graduating! That means I’m
going home for good in June, and it means that the repeats are wasted…I
did ask whether I can cash the script at any pharmacy at the chemists,
and the resident pharmacists said I can, but I have to make sure that
50 days have passed.

Yes, 50 days…each 100 tablet pill bottle is supposed to last me 25
days according to the 2 tablets, twice a day regiment I’m on for my
narcolepsy. Oh, if this is the first time you’re reading, I don’t
really have narcolepsy, so I don’t need to take it according to
instructions. I do suffer from amotivation though, and I’m
self-medicating by 60-150 mg dexamphetamine (150 mg is the most I’ll
take in a single sitting, more than that is pushing it for me) or the
methamphetamine equivalent, taken as needed (is there really any other
way? ;))! Haha! I’m so unfunny sometimes I kill myself.

Dexamphetamine eating an ice cream.
Speech bubble: You know…I’m not really hungry…and the ice cream is much bigger than me!

Well, that means that I won’t be able to use the repeats, but I
should be glad coz the good doctor trusted me with a double dose, up
front. Not that he has any reason not to, from his point of view. πŸ˜‰ I
turn up regularly, clean shaven, no visible tattoos, dress
conservatively, and always carry a backpack to reinforce my “university
student” status. I’m also careful not to be tweaking when I go, I don’t
even drink caffeine! The dosage I’m taking is supposed to suppress my
narcoleptic manifestations, so I can lead a normal life, not get me all
strung out! In fact, I’m still sedated by benzos most of the time I go,
it won’t hurt to appear sleepy (might be good in fact, the doctor might
up the dose) but it’s not gonna look good to appear all spun out. Just
simple things like taking care to be soft spoken, polite, respectful
can go a long way in fostering trust and establishing an image of
responsibility. P’s and Q’s my friend, P’s and Q’s…

I just thought of something…I listed “excessive daytime sleepiness”
as one of my symptoms the first time and hey, I’m just realized I’m not
being untruthful at all…I really am sleepy during the day! πŸ™‚ The
cataplexy I described isn’t a total story too…I do get that, especially
after long meth runs. πŸ˜‰ Sleep paralysis w/hallucinations…yes, that
too, it’s especially prevalent when I’m in a K-hole. =D Perhaps I
really do have narcolepsy. Jokes aside, I do experience EDS though, but
probably not at the scale which narcoleptics suffer.

Dexamphetamine in: Drug deal in progress @ abandoned car park!
Speech bubble: You got the money?

Okay, I’ve spent too much time writing, I’m going to stop now. The
repeat authorization is practically useless for me, I’ll be back home
in 50 days. I will go around and try to convince a sympathetic
pharmacist to refill my dexamphetamine thought, I’ll just say that I’m
going home and I’ll like to bring back a reasonable amount to keep my
narcolepsy under control. Of course, I won’t be bringing the stuff
back, dextroamphetamine is NOT prescribed in Malaysia! That means it’ll
go under the drug laws, and I’ll be treated like an amphetamine
trafficker. Well, to be fair, dextroamphetamine is an
amphetamine, and the recreational (fun) isomer of amphetamine at that,
but still…Anyway, it’s not listed in the Biro Pengawalan Farmaseutikal
Kebangsaan (Malaysia National Pharmaceutical Control Bureau) database,
so I won’t be taking any back with me that’s for sure! I’m may appear
reckless in my posts, but I’m not stupid in real life. πŸ˜‰

I’m not sure what they do to treat narcolepsy in Malaysia, a Google
search didn’t turn up anything useful, heck, this site is one of the
returned hits, and I wouldn’t say that my ramblings are useful. There
are no amphetamine type drugs on Malaysia’s approved list of
medications, the only stimulant with recreational potential that’s
approved is methylphenidate (Ritalin) and that’s indicated for ADHD. I
wouldn’t be surprised if narcoleptics are just given caffeine pills…I
seriously hope that this is not true though, anyone with narcolepsy in
Malaysia who can testify otherwise? Nevertheless, it’s not going back
with me, not a single pill. Uh, why am I talking about this anyway, the
dexies never last more than a couple of days for me. I will try to
squeeze out a repeat though, and gobble them up before I head home. =D

Failing that, I’m still very thankful to the good doctor for
providing me with an extra 500 mg of dextroamphetamine, I would have
only got 100 tablets otherwise, and another 25 day waiting period will
see me back in Malaysia already. I’m not going to use tired, old
tactics like “Oh, I lost my pills (or the variation “I lost my (insert
object eg bag, car) with the pills in it”)/someone stole it/robbed
me/my pants pocket has a hole etc., can I have an early refill
please?”. On an effectiveness scale, that rates way down the bottom,
along with “classics” like telling your teacher your dog ate your
homework. πŸ™‚ Unless you have a police report or something, and well,
that’s on a whole new level that I’m not prepared to go to. Sharpening
your theatrical skills in front of a doctor is one thing, having police
as the audience is another.

I’m afraid I don’t have the balls (alternate phrase for “not stupid
enough” ;)) to walk into a police station and file a report that my bag
containing my prescribed 200 dexamphetamine pills was stolen. Lodging
false police reports is probably very illegal and besides, you’ll be
tying up law enforcement resources, and that’s not very nice,
considering they can be put to a better use like arresting users for
possession and arresting users for possession. I kid! πŸ™‚ Please don’t
kick down my door in retaliation, it’s a joke. I was already expecting
today to be the final day I get a dexamphetamine pill bottle, and it
probably is, but I got two instead of one, thanks to my doctor
scripting me 200 pills upfront instead of my usual 100 pills. Very much
appreciated indeed, and I’ll be sure to put my favourite white pills to
good use! Which means no more writing, damn, when will I stop?!?!? I’ll
work on the assignments now…really going to finish up now.

Dexamphetamine getting up close and personal with lingerie model!
Speech bubble: *sigh* If only I could get it up…

Anyway, if there’s no pharmacist kind enough to refill me early
based on my true predicament (going back, need the script, thanks), the
dexamphetamine repeat authorization will be inherited by chemist_tip
in honor of all his help, generosity and trust. πŸ™‚ That’s 1000 mg (a
gram) of dextroamphetamine sulfate if there’s one repeat left and 2000
mg (2 grams) of dexamphetamine if there’s two. He’ll be the person who
would most appreciate the script, considering the fact that the vast
majority of my friends do not think the words “chemical” and
“recreation” have anything in common. Oh, I just thought of someone
else who likes dexamphetamine – Haggas, the guy who
occasionally comments on the dexamphetamine related posts. Well, just
wanted you to know that despite not knowing you in real life, I would
sooner mail the script to you than see it go to waste. You sound like
someone who really appreciates dexamphetamine. However, CT is a real
life friend so I’m passing it to him. My apologies and thanks for
reading! πŸ™‚

Well, if you’re wondering whether scripts can be passed around, the
answer is yes (according to my experience). In my many trips to the
chemist to cash in scripts of benzodiazepines and dextroamphetamine,
not once have I been asked for any ID or my Medibank Private card. I’ve
been asked for a Medicare card though, and the correct reply to that is
“I’m using Medibank Private”, and then everything’s cool. They don’t
ask for your Medibank Private card or any other form of ID. As far as
the chemist is concerned, the person holding the script is the owner of
the script. This is not an issue with the repeat script though, since
my name is in the “Medicare No.” field (which means I don’t have a
Medicare card and is a private customer).

Dexamphetamine living LARGE at the train station. Text mentions a
huge picture of a dex tablet and a final, farewell piece of poetry
below. The End.

Speech bubble: I could buy myself with a Zone 1 daily ticket…

It’ll be funny if CT goes personally to get the script filled
though. Oh man, I’m laughing out loud in the middle of the night, just
imagining that scenario. Heh! Imagine the look on the pharmacist’s face
when an obviously Caucasian male goes up to the prescription counter
and hands in a script with an Asian name on it for 200 x 5 mg tablets
of dexamphetamine (of all things). Haha! I wonder what the pharmacist’s
reaction would be…it will be priceless, that’s for sure. I can think of
two possible reactions and both of them cracked me up:

1. You’ve gotta be kidding me…(while alternating between looking at CT and the script)
2. Hmm…are you sure this prescription is for you? (with an unsure look and wanting to be tactful)

Heh! It would be a hoot eh? Imagine the possible range of reactions!
There are jaded pharmacists, new pharmacists, polite pharmacists, rude
pharmacists, interns etc etc. It would be so funny, but obviously CT
won’t find it funny if the pharmacist starts making phone calls, which
is why he needs to get an Asian guy to fill the script. It would be
smooth sailing then, coz they don’t ask for ID, unless it’s a ludicrous
situation like the one above. πŸ™‚

Okay that’s enough from me, I just cut and pasted this into
Microsoft Word to check the word count – it’s close to 6,000 words…I
could have written an assignment instead. Oh well, hope you all enjoyed
reading this post, I sure enjoyed writing about it – a long post to
mark the end of my “legal, pure speed from your neighborhood pharmacy”
days. This is probably the last time I ever get amphetamines (and the
isolated dextro isomer (it’s more recreational) at that!) by walking
into a pharmacy and I’ve still not gotten over the fact that people can
do that here, with the right combination of words to a sympathetic
doctor. πŸ™‚ It would be hard to go back to Malaysia’s meth pills/street
meth when I’ve been spoilt by the pharmaceutical grade, dosage
measured, content ensured, hygienically packaged, and low priced
amphetamines here. I wouldn’t be getting 1 gram of speed (without
cutting and binding agents, actual weight is substance
quantity) for RM100 (A$45) that’s for sure. I don’t think I’ll get off
on one RM45 (A$20) speed pill with my current tolerance either – not
when I’ve been taking large doses of dextroamphetamine and
methamphetamine. This was what I meant in the beginning regarding
stopping – the prices back home just don’t appeal to me anymore.
Goodbye dexamphetamine, I will miss you!

Farewell, D5


Dexamphetamine…you will be missed…
Little white pills smelling of sweet chalk…
D – a perpetual smile
– – a single score signifying focus, concentration and single-mindedness
5 – delivering 5 mg of dextroamphetamine sulfate, guaranteed
Versatile, ready to be crushed and insufflated (together with a whole lotta binders, all the better to clog my nostrils with :))
Or eaten, providing quick stimulation within 30 minutes
Reliable…you always deliver what you promise
How I choose to use you is the only variable…

The ritual of opening the screw on cap,
Feeling the tangible weight of the bottle resting on my palm,
Pulling the thick cotton out,
Giving the bottle a good shake,
The pills rolling out into my open hand,
The way I go “two, four, six, eight, ten, twelve” (and often more)…
Sometimes I have to shake more out,
Sometimes I have to put excess pills in,
Always on an empty stomach, with urinary alkalinizers at regular periods…
Making you work harder, longer, stronger
I will miss the other things too…
Like holding my urine for prolonged periods of time…:)
Another effort to make you last longer
The bladder pressure almost seems pleasurable.

The thing I will miss most about you…
“The score” – a symbol of the focus, the concentration and the single-mindedness,
The productivity, the mental clarity, the speed of thought you give…
and yes, the euphoria and the rush when you announce your presence.
The urge to fiddle and fix minor things, you bless me with the gift of perfectionism that I never had,
Turbo charging my brain, making hard tasks easy,
Boring tasks fun, repetitive work pleasurable.
The greatest catalyst of all, things get done quickly when you’re around
Speed – you’ve truly earned that name.
Dexamphetamine…traveling at the speed of light…
It was the best of times, it was the worst of times…

EZ-Test substance testing kit (Ecstasy pill tester)

You’ve got mail!

EZ Test
[]. It’s a set of chemical solutions for testing substances.
The reagents produce different reactions to different chemicals so you
can test for Ecstasy (MDMA), methamphetamine, 2C-B, DXM etc. It’s very
useful to have around for testing pills, although personally I’ve never
had any problems about this in Australia. MDMA pills are sold as MDMA
pills and ketamine/speed pills are sold as such. It is useful to verify
the contents of a pill though, so I usually use a Marquis reagent which
I get at Off Ya Tree, a local headshop.

Inside the package is the EZ Test container and a booklet

That ran out some time ago and I found out that EZ Test has a Australian distributor
[] which mails their substance testing kits cash on
delivery, so I ordered a set from them. This is the EZ Test Xtreme,
which has 4 different chemicals – the EZ Test (Marquis reagent),
Simon’s reagent, Robadope and the buffer solution. The Marquis reagent
is probably the most well known for testing Ecstasy pills, but the
other reagents compliment the Marquis solution to provide more
comprehensive results. Hmm…I feel like I’m writing this for a report! πŸ™‚

The EZ Test container – a closer look

Anyway, the Marquis reagent is able to detect MDxA type substances
(eg MDMA, MDA, MDEA), amphetamines (speed), 2C-B (also called Nexus,
pretty rare chemical), and DXM.

A peek inside the container

Simons’s reagent is used to test for a “secondary amine”, which to
my limited chemistry knowledge means the substances that have a longer
chemical name than usual. πŸ˜‰ These are things like methamphetamine (a
methyl group added to -amphetamine), MDMA and so on. This one is good
for testing meth, it won’t react with amphetamines (primary amine),
only with methamphetamines (secondary amine). Anyway, there isn’t a
burning need to have this around either, since most of the ‘speed’ sold
in Australia is methamphetamine, or so I’ve heard. It’s not that hard
to subjectively differentiate meth and speed (I use speed to refer to
amphetamine) when consumed anyway.

The 4 bottles of reagents

Robadope on the other hand does the opposite of what Simon’s reagent
does. Robadope is used to detect the presence of a primary amine (like
amphetamine). Unfortunately, this test requires quite a lot of the
substance to work. The instructions say at least 1/8th of a pill is
needed to produce a reaction. That’s quite wasteful, but it’s
interesting to have around, if only to test things at random. =D

EZ Test (Marquis reagent)

There is also the buffer solution, which I think (don’t quote me on
this) is used to speed up the reaction times. Either that, or it’s the
“missing link” that’s needed for Simon’s and Robadope to react, perhaps
the solutions are not that stable and won’t keep as long when combined.
Again, I don’t really know what the buffer is for, just that it’s used
with Simon’s and Robadope but not Marquis.

Simon’s reagent

The tests are done in sequence and by inference and extrapolation
(just love this phrase), you can detect whether a
pill/powder/capsule/whatever contains MDxA (MDMA, MDEA, MDA),
methamphetamine, amphetamine, PMA, 2C-B, DXM, combinations (primary
amine – secondary amine like a MDMA/amphetamine combo pill) and even
heroin. Each reagent changes color when it’s exposed to the
recreational substances that it’s able to detect.


I don’t know why I’m in a mood for writing something like this, but
anyway. πŸ™‚ Here’s an example, using the EZ Test kit on a dexamphetamine
tablet. I had 2 pills left, which isn’t enough to do anything, so I’ve
left it lying around…until today! Today, I’m going to strike the fear
of God into the little white pills. Or something. I’m tweaking again,
verbal diarrhea and mindless chatter ahoy! =D

Buffer solution

Anyway, if you’ve read my posts, you’ll know that I have a
dexamphetamine script for my…ah, narcolepsy. πŸ˜‰ I can’t stop with the
wink wink nudge nudge every time I mention this, my apologies, I’m
actually privately gloating about my script. Heh. Okay, enough
silliness, sorry about that.

5 mg dexamphetamine tablets

Back on topic, dexamphetamine is a primary amine, from what I’ve
read, amphetamine is a racemic mixture containing both the + and –
isomers. Those are dextro and laevo and Collin’s English Dictionary
defines it as such:

(Chem) of, concerned with, or being a mixture of dextrorotatory
and laevorotatory isomers in such proportions that the mixture has no
optical activity
[ETYMOLOGY: 19th Century: from RACEME (as in racemic acid) + -IC]

Anyway, the laevo (or levo) isomers of both amphetamine and
methamphetamine isn’t recreational compared to the dextro isomers. I
don’t know if this is true for all -amphetamines, but its true for
(meth)amphetamine. The stuff you get off the street is a racemic
mixture, so looking from a recreational perspective, it’s inferior to
dextro only isomers. In other words, pure dextro (meth)amphetamines
will get you higher than a racemic mixture. Personally, I like
dexamphetamine (dextroamphetamine sulfate) because it’s much more
stimulating that street speed (racemic amphetamine), but I’ll take
racemic methamphetamine over it any day! =D

Dextroamphetamine sulfate – our test subject

I digress. I suspect I’m boring half of you with the background
information and insulting half of you by elaborating on things that you
already know. Nevertheless, I shall continue. πŸ™‚ Oh, and you might have
noticed that I don’t use the word “drug” or “drugs”. I dislike that
term because of the negative connotations that’s associated with it. I
use the term “substances” and “chemicals” instead to refer to
recreational compounds. Okay, instead of digressing again and again and
being self indulgent, I’ll continue to the tests.

Substance: 5 mg dexamphetamine pill (dextroamphetamine sulfate)

Dexamphetamine pill, crushed into powder

The pill is crushed up with a dog tag as if to prepare for
insufflating (snorting). Half of the powder is used for the tests and
the other half was, er…insufflated. The first test is done using the
Marquis reagent. A small portion of the powder is isolated into a
corner of a CD jewel case and two drops of the Marquis reagent is
applied to it.

Test: Marquis Reagent

The pill’s content is already known, so this is just a test for fun
and to show how reagents work. The Marquis reagent will react by
changing color to orange/brown when it detects amphetamine (speed).
Let’s see how it goes in the test.

Yellow as soon as it came into contact with the powdered dexamphetamine pill.

The color started to look orange after a couple of seconds.

It’s noticeably orange now.

Yup, unmistakably orange. Indicates the presence of amphetamine (dexamphetamine = amphetamine).

The reaction settled to become a brown goo after a minute.

Marquis Reagent result: Orange, indicating either methamphetamine or amphetamine.

Test: Simon’s Reagent

Two drops of Simon’s reagent and 4 drops of the buffer solution is
applied to another portion of the powdered dexamphetamine pill. This
should turn blue if there is a secondary anime (methamphetamine) but it
won’t react if it’s amphetamine (primary amine).

No reaction. The red drops are the reagents, accidentally dropped it outside the sample.

Simon’s Reagent result: No reaction, ruling out
methamphetamine. This indicates that it’s amphetamine, from the
positive result from the previous Marquis test.

Test: Robadope

There’s actually no point in doing the Robadope, since the substance
is already known from the two tests. Robadope is mainly used for
testing for combinations eg MDMA/amphetamine combo pill. The Robadope
will proceed nevertheless. πŸ™‚ The reaction will be reddish/purple if it
detects a primary amine (like dexamphetamine).

I fudged up the first test by dropping too much Robadope on too little sample.

Slight salmon color.

The second attempt uses only a single drop of Robadope + 2 drops of buffer on quite a large sample.

Slight reddish tint. It is noticeable to the naked eye (if you squint
really hard), but the colors translated poorly to the digicam. It
wasn’t the shade of red I expected, but that’s probably because the
sample was mostly binders + fillers instead of dexamphetamine. There’s
heaps of binders in a dex pill, which is why snorting is such a chore
that I just eat them after heavy urinary alkalization.

Robadope result: Salmon red tint. This indicates a primary amine – dextroamphetamine.

This is how Ecstasy pill testers work – by cross-referencing reagent results. πŸ™‚

Incoming! 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets! =D

I just got my dexamphetamine (dextroamphetamine sulfate) refill
yesterday. I was actually late for the script…the last time I went was
28th of March. I get 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets for my
“narcolepsy” every 25 days. πŸ˜‰ My unfortunate condition (sorry about
the jokes, I can’t help myself. hehe!) requires me to take two tablets
twice a day, so that’s 20 mg per day. 500 mg / 20 mg = 25. Thus, each
bottle/script/refill (used interchangeably) is supposed to last me 25
days. I was late this time though, it’s been 33 days since my last
visit, so I’m 8 days late. Isn’t it wonderful how my normally dismal
arithmetic skills rally up and perform when it comes to substances? =D

29th of April – dexamphetamine refill. I had just done a single pass
at first and was startled to see that my name was visible (although
fuzzy) when the photo was resized. I had to heavily mosaic it again to
obscure my real name and the doctor’s name to protect our privacy.

Anyway, I was actually worried that I’ve been too late for my script
and it’s going to raise suspicions…like I don’t need it for my
“narcolepsy” anymore. I’ve always been worried about being asked to do
a urine drug test too, I hear most people have to go through that
before being prescribed dexamphetamine, but luckily I wasn’t one of
them. πŸ™‚ Everything went well yet again! It was quick, in and out, just
for the script. The doctor recognized me so it was scribble scribble
and I’m out. He said that he feels bad because I have to pay A$35 for
consultation each time I refill my script. Hah! I was thinking that
this is a great bargain – 500 mg, that’s Β½ gram of pure
dextroamphetamine (as opposed to racemic stuff you get from the
streets, the dextro isomer is the one that’s recreational) for just
A$35 consultation (refundable so it’s not included as ‘cost’ – this is
the only thing I put on my medical insurance) and A$30.35 for the
dexamphetamine tablets.

Gobble gobble!

Well, I was about to suggest that he can write dated scripts, ie
“100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets – 24th May 2003” so I can only cash
it on that date or later, but I didn’t know if they’re actually allowed
to do that in Australia. I don’t mind visiting the good doctor anyway.
πŸ™‚ Anyway, I picked up the lovely little pills at the pharmacy nearby
and got some Ural as well. Ural is marketed for Urinary Tract
Infections (UTI), but it’s also a urinary alkalinizer. πŸ˜‰ It’s cheap
and it’s better than drinking sodium bicarbonate (baking soda) mixed
into water.

Ural – It’s not just for UTI’s.

Ural also has sodium bicarbonate as the main component, plus some
other stuff as well. I always take two, just tear them up and empty
them into my mouth. Mmm…fizzy! It makes you gag if you don’t chase it
down with water though. Heh. Oh, and I’m not recommending the use of
[] because that makes it more neurotoxic as well. I always do
it though, because I’ve grown to love the constant body and head buzz,
especially when taking a piss. πŸ™‚

Anyway, taking too much alkaline stuff is bad as well…makes you feel
nauseous. Ural and other alkalinizers doesn’t last very long, so I take
it constantly. I find that two packs 15 minutes before dumping, two
packs straight after dosing and every half hour after is good for me.
It does noticeably potentiate the dexamphetamine. That might not be
good for you though, I’m just sharing my experience. I don’t know what
excessive consumption of GI alkalinizers would do to people with an
existing condition like a stomach ulcer.

Box of Ural – 28 x 4g sachets @ A$6.75

Well, I’m going through the script faster than I thought. I’ve
already taken 84 tablets (420 mg of dexamphetamine) over the night and
I’m sad that I’ve gobbled most of the script in less than a day! I
suspect that my five day methamphetamine run er…just two days back,
contributed to my tolerance. I did get wonderfully stimulated during
the initial 90 mg dose (oral – I’ll like to see you snort that many
dexamphetamine tablets! =D) early last night, but re-dosing is just
keeping me awake without much euphoria to speak of.

Anyway, I’m not dependant on (meth)amphetamines, I’m just trying to
finish up my assignments. Everyone is having assignments due this week.
πŸ™ Well, I don’t have to justify my use, but I just want to make it
clear that no dependency issues are forming here. I wouldn’t take 420
mg in a night if I had the choice! That kind of consumption is
wastefully excessive even in my eyes. The later doses were just
‘maintenance’ ones to stay awake coz I had to finish my stuff.
Re-dosing doesn’t do much at all, nothing beats the first dose, I’ll
much rather keep the rest until next week if I had the choice.

There’s something funny about gobbling a fistful of tiny white pills
but given the choice, I’ll rather have a superb high next weekend
(after my tolerance goes down) than eat more now and not get tweaked
much at all. πŸ™‚ What a waste…still, work needs to be done, and I don’t
like caffeine as a chemical assistant. It’s just too messy and there’s
not much grey matter turbo charging going on compared to its stronger
cousins. The pills are almost gone, and it’s just been slightly over 24
hours! Sigh…I’ve consumed my script in less than a day. Gloomy
indeed…irresponsible and wasteful. Oh well, I’m not the only one with
assignments, better get back to them. Oh, just one last note…I’ve
always found dexamphetamine nice…the comeup is pleasantly euphoric,
happy happy thoughts. It’s unlike the comeup from methamphetamine which
is more chargy and scattered.

Dextroamphetamine = nice body + head buzz, “happier”, and good to work with. Nice soft comedowns too.
Methamphetamine = longer lasting, superior mental euphoria,
better clarity and it’s great to work with too. Unfortunately, I tend
to go overboard with it and go for days without sleep and food and
there’s no comedown to speak of…only a horrible crash. πŸ˜‰

I love you both! πŸ™‚

but neither of you are any good for me…

Stop the press!

Note: This is a post by veritas.

OMG, I just found a cure for ‘speed dick’ aka “I can’t get it up
when I’m tweaking, dammit!”. I just saw several photos of a really hot
chick which provoked an instant response of mind blinding lust.
=D I’m not at liberty to share the photos (you don’t know what you’re
missing!) so unfortunately I can’t show you the tantalizing images that
provokes thoughts of pure desire and lust for the subject. I fear that
photographic media will never arouse me again after this. I’ll be
subconsciously comparing other photographs against the ones I was
privileged to see today and all will fall short. I had previously
thought I’ve gained a particular ‘tolerance’ towards photographic media
as a visual arousal cue, but I was wrong. I’ve can’t remember the last
time I’ve been so stimulated just by looking at a photo!

The first glance produced a nearly uncontrollable state of arousal
although my mind still hasn’t registered and processed the components
of the image yet. It was a Pavlov reaction in that sense, I was
terribly aroused, but I didn’t know why, because my neurons have yet to
translate the visual input into a cohesive image. These are truly
amazing photos of a really beautiful girl. It just did the trick for
me, and then it was “Houston, we have liftoff”. The fact that the
pictures alone overcame the seldom talked about side-effect of
amphetamines certainly was interesting and deserves mention.

Granted, the subject of the photos is very sexually
appealing, but the amphetamine induced er…contraction of that
particular organ isn’t very easy to overcome either and that makes this
a case where excessive use of hyperbolic adjectives is warranted. πŸ˜‰
I’m still looking at the photos now, and I’m feeling another rush of
blood to my loins as I visually devour her feminine features – the
alluring face, with eyes that seem to stare straight at me, the lovely
shade of wispy brown hair falling beautifully around her, and I’m
hypnotized by her soft, smooth skin and I long for just a taste of her
tender, perfect legs and in my fantasy, I am gently parting her supple,
yielding legs and indulging in her essence while she exhales softly and
reaches out for me…

Okay, now writing all that made me need a really cold shower again. πŸ˜‰ I think I’ll better crash the benzo tea party
[] and eat every single one of the guests now (except
dexamphetamine, of course – he wasn’t invited anyway). It’s getting
late and sleep is still far from my dopamine saturated brain. Now that
I think of it, I haven’t eaten anything in days. Oh well, I’ll just get
some food in me when I wake up. I’m still very much awake and charged
up, so do your magic, alprazolam, and lead me down the path where
reality is dreaming and the land is abundant with Zzz…

Trapped under ice


I can’t go back to sleep. Wanted to cook some breakfast but my
drumsticks were trapped! It’s been frozen into the freezer compartment
of the community fridge. The thing with the fridge is, it doesn’t close
properly anymore because the magnetic strip along the door has lost its
affinity for the ones along the frame of the fridge. Hah! I can still
think this early in the morning. I’ll be going to slops to grab
something to eat later.

Link of the Day: Shirley’s blog []

I forgot how I got here, was surfing around and stumbled upon this
page. She mentions she’s from Sarawak on the page and I clicked to the
photos page and found the first picture familiar…looks like the YMCA
camp (at least I think that’s what it’s called) back in Sibu, but then
it could be any river. I then scrolled down a bit and saw the class
photo. Uniforms are pretty generic so I couldn’t be sure, but the two
people at the back with the jerseys have the Methodist High School
colors. And that’s definitely the Methodist High School, Sibu
administration office in the background. πŸ™‚ AFAIK there’s not many Sibu
bloggers out there, so it’s a coincidence that I found another one.

Oh ya, I was doing some research for my essay and just for fun, did some Google searches:

[Edit: Deleted links. They were direct Google searches for variants of “dexamphetamine malaysia”]

Those search strings ranked as #2. Okay, let’s try the
other name, dextroamphetamine. Dexamphetamine and dextroamphetamine is
the same thing, both are d-amphetamine which has the dextro isomer as
opposed to l-amphetamine which is the levo isomer. The speed you buy
off the street is a racemic (meaning it has both +/- isomers) mixture
or dl-amphetamine. For what it’s worth, a piece on Erowid [] says that the d-amphetamine (dexamphetamine) is more recreational than l-amphetamine.

Anyway, that’s going off on a tangent. We’ll now use dextroamphetamine instead of dexamphetamine in the search string:

[Edit: Deleted links. They were direct Google searches for variants of “dextroamphetamine malaysia”]

That pushes the site down to #3 on the returned hits.

Replacing dextroamphetamine with dextro-amphetamine returned only a single result, which is a mass news link site.

What is this long winded business about? It seems to suggest that
dexamphetamine is not approved for use or prescribed in Malaysia. Just
for fun I did some more searches and it’s not on the Malaysia National Essential Drugs List (.pdf file) []. More importantly, it’s not on the Malaysia National Pharmaceutical Control Bureau (Biro Pengawalan Farmaseutikal Kebangsaan)
[] database of registered pharmaceuticals. Surprisingly,
Ritalin (methylphenidate hydrochloride) is approved though. veritas,
it’s a good thing the doctor didn’t check. Your story about being prescribed dexamphetamine in Malaysia [] wouldn’t have held up. Sing “Amazing Grace” or something. πŸ™‚

Hmm…the lower right hand corner of my monitor seems to constantly flickering for some reason.

[Edit (7th April 2003): Deleted direct Google search links. The site was getting penalized for it.]

Baking soda potentiates amphetamines!!! =D

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I’ve dumped a total of 45 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets over the
course of the night. I mean, fucking hell! That justifies a bit of
profanity…45 tablets is nearly half of my script! Gone, either digested
or absorbed through my sinuses. That’s unacceptable! 225 mgs over a 10
hour period…half of my script consumed in a night. πŸ™ Jesus wept.
Forgive the blasphemy (on the day of the Lord somemore) but I’m not due
to refill my script until 23 more days and half of it is already gone!
I did feel a very good rush during my initial dose of 80 mgs orally and
20 mg insufflated, but after that it was just maintenance doses to keep
me awake. I’m planning to stay up until late tonight.

I would weep for the amount of dexamphetamine that was wasted, but
there’s no use crying over spilt milk (or consumed dexies for that
matter). It’s just an issue of tolerance and that’s unavoidable, but I
was wondering if there’s any way to maximize the efficiency of the
dexamphetamine tablets. I still need more to be able to stay up until
late tonight. I did a bit of research for amphetamine potentiators
(things that causes a synergetic effect and makes the drug stronger or
last longer), but didn’t find anything noteworthy until I chanced upon
this tidbit of information on []:

Alkalinizing Agents

Gastrointestinal alkalinizing agents (sodium bicarbonate, etc.)
increase absorption of amphetamines. Urinary alkalinizing agents
(acetazolamide, some thiazides) increase the concentration of the
non-ionized species of the amphetamine molecule, thereby decreasing
urinary excretion. Both groups by agents increase blood levels and
therefore potentiate the action of amphetamines.

Increase absorption of amphetamines! Potentiate the action of
amphetamines! Those are magic words…music to my ears! =D Praise the
Lord! Sodium bicarbonate…that’s baking powder! I did some more reading
and found out that taking dexamphetamine an hour or so after
alkalinizing your GI tract will increase the effects. Why wasn’t I
aware of this earlier?!?! Curse you (I mean me), for not doing your

Today is a Sunday and I couldn’t be bothered going far to buy some
baking soda so I went to the local cafΓ© instead. This was how the
conversation went:

Me: Hello, this is going to sound like a strange request, but can I buy some baking powder off you? I have really bad gastric…
Girl at the counter: Baking powder? Okay, let me get some.
(takes a plastic cup and goes into a kitchen)
1 minute later…
(the cook comes out holding the cup with the girl at the counter)
Cook: Hello, are you the one with the stomach problem?
Me: Yeah, I need some baking powder for my gastric. Can I buy some off you?
Cook: I can give you some, but it’s not going to help your stomach.
Me: It has always worked before, it neutralizes the acids in my stomach.
Cook: Okay, give me a second
(goes back into the kitchen)
30 seconds later…
Cook: Here you go. No charge.
(hands me the cup full of baking powder)
Me: No, let me pay you for it.
Cook: Don’t worry about it, I’ll give it to you.
Me: Okay, thanks!


I felt bad about getting the baking soda for free, so I bought a
pear (which I read was also an alkaline food) for 70 cents. Yes, I’ve
done a lot of reading and contrary to popular belief, fruits are
alkaline while milk is acidic! Apparently, there’s a difference between
the chemical properties (we all learnt in chemistry that fruits are
acidic using the PH testing strips) while nutrition wise, it’s
alkaline! Milk, which one would assume is an alkaline is in fact acidic
in nutrition (after your body processes it). Well, you learn something
new everyday.

My stomach has been very acidic the whole night, I could feel it and
I was about to puke my stomach acids out, so I wasn’t really being
untruthful about my gastric. No wonder the pills didn’t work so well.
Here’s another related tidbit from the wonderful entry on

Acidifying Agents

Gastrointestinal acidifying agents (guanethidine, reserpine,
glutamic acid HCl, ascorbic acid, fruit juices, etc.) lower absorption
of amphetamines, Urinary acidifying agents (ammonium chloride, sodium
acid phosphate, etc.) increase the concentration of the ionized species
of the amphetamine molecule, thereby increasing urinary excretion. Both
groups of agents lower blood levels and efficacy of amphetamines.

No wonder! I wasn’t getting the full potential of the precious
little pills due to my acidic stomach. Lower absorption of
amphetamines! Lower blood levels and efficacy of amphetamines! Heresy!
Such dirty, disgusting, filthy, revolting, repulsive, sickening,
horribly blasphemous words! Get thee behind me Satan! No acidic foods
for me today! *makes a sign to ward off evil*

Anyway, the cook gave me a lot of baking soda even though I only
asked for two teaspoons. I dissolved 4 heaped teaspoons of baking soda
(or sodium bicarbonate if you want to be technical about it) into a mug
of water and drank it. 1 hour later, I dropped 6 pills and by God, I
was peaking again! That was 30 minutes ago, and I’m still feeling great
now! It wasn’t as good as the first dose, naturally, but I did feel
rushes this time. I don’t know how much is placebo and how much is
actual pharmacology but if says it’s true, that’s good
enough for me. πŸ™‚

Just passing the information on…amphetamines can not only be potentiated, but the effects prolonged
by a simple kitchen item! Good old baking soda! Amazing…you really do
learn something new everyday. How I wish I knew about this sooner. I’m
going to change the PH levels of my GI tract to lean towards the
alkaline side every time I take dexamphetamines! More value, more
effects, more more more! I love you! Praise the Lord!
Hallelujah! He works in mysterious ways indeed! πŸ™‚

500 mg dexamphetamine + 200 mg clonazepam = success!

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Today’s haul: Stimulants and tranquilizers in a single day. Hmm…both
of them are white tablets, I hope I don’t mix them up when I put them
back. Taking dexamphetamine when you’re expecting a benzodiazepine or
vice versa would be unfortunate indeed.

I had a successful run today. πŸ™‚ I got 100 x 2 mg Paxam (clonazepam)
and 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets. The first visit was to the Benzo Messiah
[], where I claimed that the “pills didn’t feel right and
I found out that I was actually taking 2 mg ones instead of 0.5 mg
ones”. Guess what the doctor said? He just said okay, and took out his
script pad! Amazing. You know what’s even more amazing? He said:

“So what was it you were taking again? Xanax?”

My mind went into overdrive. Here’s what my thought process was:

100 x 2 mg of Xanax!
200 mg of Xanax! Say Yes, for Christ’s sake, say Yes!
But wait…I need Klonopin to sleep after a dexamphetamine run…clonazepam makes me sleep but alprazolam doesn’t.
Stupid! Xanax is much more euphoric! Say YES!
Yeah, it’s more euphoric, but it doesn’t make me sleepy. How will I manage amphetamine comedowns?
It’s Xanax! The doctor is offering to script you 100 x 2 mg Xanax bars! Have you finally tweaked yourself stupid???
But 200 mg of Xanax…I’m not sure I’m responsible enough to handle that. Xanax withdrawal is hell.
Who cares? Euphoria buddy, fucking euphoria…couple of beers,
couple of Xanax bars, couple of bowls of weed…think man, think about
the fun times!

Say Yes

(all this happened in milliseconds)

“Nah, it was clonazepam”, I said


100 x 2 mg clonazepam tablets (Paxam)

It’s true that Xanax (alprazolam) is much more euphoric than
Klonopin (clonazepam) but I’ve learnt to respect Xanax after taking up
to 5 mg daily with alcohol during my last holiday. Benzodiazepine
withdrawals are bad, especially with Xanax since it has such a short
half life. Just one month of daily use fucked me up for days when I
stopped. I can’t even imagine how bad it is for people who’ve used it
at higher doses and longer periods of times. I have a good friend who’s
on it for years (legitimate prescription for anxiety and panic attacks)
and I can’t even imagine how bad the withdrawal would be for her when
she wants to taper off.

Well, those of you who’ve taken benzos regularly at high doses for
prolonged periods and then stop suddenly know what I’m taking about.
It’s hard to explain benzo withdrawals to the uninitiated. There’s the
ultra-heightened anxiety and recurring obsessive thoughts and panic
attacks. There’s also the possibility of seizures if you’ve been on it
long enough, but that usually take months or years of heavy use. It’s a
wonder that a legitimate pharmaceutical drug produces worse physical
and psychological withdrawals than most illegal drugs. I don’t trust
myself with 200 mg of Xanax, so that’s why I told the truth and said it
was clonazepam. πŸ™‚

The 2 mg clonazepam tablets are white, with “CN2” imprinted on the front, and a dual score at the back

“Okay”, went the good doctor and scripted me and I was out within 2
minutes. 200 mg of clonazepam can cause a lot of trouble too, but I’m
not going to take it daily, my new policy is for it to be a weekend
thing when drinking or for comedowns only.

All hail the Benzo Messiah!

The next trip was to Doctor Dexamphetamine. Very hassle free as
well. I haven’t told you the story behind this, so I’ll give you an
abbreviated version now about what happened last time. Basically, I
just went in and claimed I have been on Dexedrine (a brand name of
dexamphetamine) since I was 19. I didn’t say dexamphetamine because I
wanted to avoid using the word ‘amphetamine’. πŸ™‚

If you’re wondering what dexamphetamine is and why it’s so good,
it’s because it’s speed. Legally prescribed speed. πŸ™‚ This is the same
thing you get off the streets in the form of powder and pills (like
some of the feng tau yuen pills that makes you unable to sleep, though
that can contain either methamphetamine or amphetamine) and it’s pure
and clean because it’s made by a pharmaceutical company instead of a
dodgy chemist. πŸ˜‰

Made very locally by Sigma Pharmaceuticals at 1408, Center
Road, Clayton (!) I’ve seen their production facility before too. Won’t
I love to go on a tour of their labs.

Anyway, I’m digressing, this is what I told the doctor the first time I went there:

I said I was diagnosed with narcolepsy (it’s a condition where you
suddenly fall asleep, occasional temporary paralysis etc) and excessive
daytime sleepiness and I was prescribed dexamphetamine to manage that.
I told him I usually get my script filled in Malaysia and bring enough
for the whole semester, but unfortunately customs confisticated my
stash because I didn’t have an Australian doctor’s prescription.

The doctor considered my story and then decided I was telling the
truth. πŸ™‚ It really helped that I looked half asleep that day. I didn’t
get much sleep the night before in anticipation for that. I told him
that I thought I could do without it, but it’s really affecting my
studies and I’ve been sleeping 14 hour days and falling asleep in
lectures etc. He asked me what my symptoms were, which of course I knew
because I’ve been reading up on narcolepsy. I never forget the mantra: Always do your research! πŸ˜‰ He scripted me 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets and off I went.

That was about a month ago. I went back again today and the doctor
just wrote me a script without any hassles, though he did a bit of
calculation in his head to see if I was due for the script. πŸ™‚ He went,
“Yeah it’s been 25 days”. I tentatively asked if it was wise to
increase the dosage, which was a mistake, because I was hit with a
barrage of questions after that. πŸ™‚

He asked me a lot of questions about why I wanted do that. I said I
was still feeling sleepy at times and he re-asked me my symptoms on
narcolepsy which I thankfully managed to answer despite being partially
memory-incapacitated from my heavy benzo use these couple of days.
Anyway, he didn’t get suspicious, thank God for that! You hear me God?
Thanks for that, I owe you one buddy! πŸ™‚

How I wish both bottles were full instead of just one

Anyway, he wrote me a script and asked me how much it costs. It’s
A$30.35 for 100 tablets and the doctor said it’s expensive and asked me
how much it cost in Malaysia. I was caught by surprise by the
unexpected question, and made up a figure. Sheesh, I should be more
prepared next time. Well, after thanking the doctor profusely (I think
I thanked him a little too profusely) I made my way to the pharmacy to
get my dex script filled.

Tell you a funny thing that happened there. I got my script filled
by the pharmacist and went to the counter to pay for it. The girl at
the counter, who’s about my age, took one look at the bottle and gave
me a grin and asked me what it’s for. I said it’s for my narcolepsy.
She went “Oh, that’s terrible” and gave me a huge grin. I think she
somehow knew I was a scripter. Instinct from a fellow scripter?

She asked me some questions about my ‘condition’ and made small talk
and was really friendly, all the time looking at the bottle lovingly.
After I paid, she gave me a knowing wink and said “Have a nice day”. I
didn’t wink back because this is after all a pharmacy and even though
the cashier isn’t the pharmacist and is just working there, being
indiscreet might jeopardize my scripting activities. I just smiled and
said “You have a nice day too”. She knew what was going on though. For some reason, she just knew. Heh. πŸ™‚

Well there I go again with my verbal diarrhea. You know I’m tweaking
when I go on like that. πŸ™‚ It’s like dexamphetamine is my muse and I
use it to complete assignments and work too. I think some form of
psychological dependence is happening here. I’ll be careful though, so
don’t worry about me. πŸ™‚

Link of the Day: Iraq’s WMD: How Big a Threat? []

He added that Iraq’s exotic weapons programs also involved the use
of psycho-tropic agents similar to LSD. “They were not meant to kill,
just incapacitate, confuse,” says the inspector.

Book me a plane ticket to Iraq straight away! πŸ˜‰

Dexamphetamine thoughts (the ramblings of a tweaker)

What is the best way to avoid coming down? Why, more drugs of
course. πŸ™‚ Instead of popping a couple of clonazepam tablets and go to
sleep, I’ve stayed up and have been going on strong since then. 5 days
and 11 hours with only 4 hours of sleep in between. The first two days
were not drug assisted. I’m still feeling very energized although I
don’t want it to go longer than tonight, because I’m running low on
pills and I want to save up the rest for a rainy day. I’ve had 74 of
the 5 mg tablets in three days. Such fun!

I could work if I wanted to, although after several days without
sleep, it became very hard to do so. I felt very scattered in general.
I usually insufflate one tablet and eat one as a ‘maintenance dose’ to
keep awake. If I want a good buzz, I’ll eat 5 and snort two. That’s not
economical though since I only have 100 tablets and I can’t go back to
the doctor until about a month passes. I could have said a higher dose
last time but I didn’t want to blow it by sounding too ridiculous.

Insufflating tablets. The way I prepare it is to put the pill on a
piece of firm cardboard. This is a one of those scratchable lottery
tickets. I don’t gamble, I just got a couple last time for fun.

Anyway, when I was younger, I used to think that people who say they
can stay up for days or even weeks were bullshitting. It sounded
incredulous then but it’s actually very possible and easy if you want
to do it. With chemical assistance of course. I learnt it the hard way
when I had nearly Β½ gram of meth last year.

Well, I noticed several good and bad points about dexamphetamine.
They give a really good head buzz when you snort them. It’s a rush of
blood to your head and that’s quite pleasurable. However, the high is
harsh and I get easily agitated if I snort it. Eating them produces a
really even high that’s more euphoric and ‘happier’ than snorting which
is strange. Maybe, it’s just me.

Well, another good thing is the extreme weight loss that happens
while you’re tweaking. I talked about this with Huai Bin when we were
in college together. Not sure if I’m allowed to mention it, but he
calls it the Tricyclic Diet because it works in three powerful ways.
Amphetamines suppress appetite so you don’t feel hungry at all. It also
increases your metabolism because it’s a stimulant and that contributes
towards your weight loss. The third one is from the stimulating effects
when you can’t sit still and go out dancing the night away. Exercise.

I lost an unbelievable amount of weight in these few days. My
stomach shrunk noticeably and I think I’ve only eaten once while
tweaking. It saves money too eh? πŸ™‚ No need to pay for food. The
downside is you sometimes get tired if the drug wears off before you
redose. That’s bad, I nearly collapsed while walking yesterday. I
nearly fell asleep in the shower too and I kept on nodding off EVEN

I then fold it in half and use something durable like a dog tag to
crush it. This one was from when I lived at the halls last time while
in college. I find it easier if you press down hard on it first. You
don’t really need to apply that much pressure, most pills are not that
solid. Just press down and apply pressure until the pill crumbles. I
then run the edge of the dog tag several times over it until I can
‘feel’ the smooth consistency

It really was that bad. I kept on bumping into people and had
microsleeps and nearly fell down. I had to be economical coz I didn’t
have that many tablets and you do build up tolerance after a while. I
also had a totally flaccid and shrunken penis all the while. It always
happens when I take amphetamines. Also, taking a piss can really be a
chore on dex. It’s hard to start pissing so I had to tickle my backbone
a bit to get started. Sorry if that’s more information that you needed
to know. πŸ™‚

Another bad point is it raises your blood pressure that standing up
suddenly is likely to make you pass out if you’re not careful. I took a
little too much yesterday and got a bit paranoid. Also, you have to
remember that stimulants makes you violent so watch out for that.
Amphetamines are also neurotoxic so that should be taken into

Anyway, I’m rambling here. I just had my last dose of two tablets
eaten and one insufflated 30 minutes ago. I’m saving the other 26 pills
for another day. Oh, I also found out that taking a small dose, like a
single tablet works kinda like caffeine in that it makes you be able to
concentrate and think really well. It’s very nice for studying or doing
some work. Well, I still have a lot to talk to you all about but I’ve
written too much already. Does anyone ever enjoy reading my drug
related posts? It seems that most people are from the “Drugs are bad,
mmmkay…” contingent and doesn’t read it. I don’t mind, coz I like to
write when I’m on stimulants. πŸ™‚

However, I’m really annoyed by people who judges recreational drug
users and automatically think they’re “bad” people. It’s hypocritical
how some people think. When someone says “Oh, I got so drunk and I
picked up this hot chick and fucked her senseless last night at the
club”, their friends will probably laugh and cheer. But when you say
“Oh, I had a couple of ecstasy pills, had a great night dancing at a
rave. It was an awesome crowd, full of energy and love” you get
disapproving stares and people think “Junkie”.

Abracadabra! If you did it right, you should have a fine powder by
now. I use a straw to insufflate. Don’t do as the movies do and use a
dollar bill, that’s disgusting! Germs and all that. Yuck. At least use
clean cardboard. Some people snort by closing one nostril with a
finger, some people don’t. I don’t need to. Remember to breath out
first before you approach the powder or you’re going to scatter it!
After breathing out, I position the straw over the powder and snort
really hard. If you don’t breath in hard enough it won’t get into your
sinuses and some will stick to the inside of your nostril and fall out
later. Waste not, want not

Fucking hypocrisy, eh? Why don’t you stop being such a government
propaganda victim and start thinking for yourself? If you don’t take
drugs because you don’t want to, more power to you. But accept the fact
that some people enjoy responsible recreational experimentation and
they’re good people who can study hard, hold down jobs and are nice
honest people, not “bad” people. What a shocker, eh?

Anyway, I’ve rambled enough. If anyone read everything I wrote, I just want to thank you and let you know that I love you! πŸ™‚

Funny story: I keep all my good stuff in this drawer beside my desk.
My clonazepam (a benzodiazepine) and my dexamphetamine pill bottles
looks almost the same. I didn’t really look and took several pills out
and was about to pop it into my mouth before I realized. Heh, now that
would have been funny.

I haven’t written:

Project Doctor Shopping
Episode II – Project Divine Stimulation
Traveling at the Speed of Light

yet because currently there is only one story and that’s not very
interesting now is it? I’m going to try for Adderall (mixture of
amphetamines) or Ritalin (methylphenidate hydrochloride) next month. I
need it for my ‘narcolepsy’ you know. πŸ˜‰ On a serious note, I don’t
want to go doctor shopping for stimulants any sooner than that coz I
know myself and I love stimulants so much that if I get my mitts on any
amount, it just gets ugly…

Gotta do the drugs, and not let them do you and all that ya know? πŸ™‚

Man, I’ve got a huge sleep debt to pay off…

P/S – I feel bad after writing this, it sounds decidedly pro-drug and that’s not very responsible of me. My apologies.

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