I made a trip report not long ago about Kai Sing Guo (Fruit of Happiness)
[] but I did not know what it was then. I’ve since found
out that it is Nimetazepam, a benzodiazepine. I had suspected it was a
benzo then. Heh. The tablet I got is the brand name Erimin tablets,
otherwise known as Erimin-5 which contains 5 mg of Nimetazepam. How did
I find this out? I have been reading the news lately and saw a lot of
drug busts involving methamphetamines, ketamine and Erimin-5 tablets.
Puzzled as to what this Erimin-5 thingy was, I did a Google search and
found out that it is Nimetazepam. Put this URL:

thru the Bablefish [] to translate from Japanese -> English and you get this tidbit of information:

Characteristic condition
Color * medicine shape
Element lock of light orange
Diameter approximately 8mm
Identification code
@ 028/5
General name

If you look at my pictures, that is exactly the same imprint code
(028/5) and color. This is further supported by the fact that there has
been a lot of busts of these pills in the Singapore/Malaysia region
lately (indicating supply). What I’m puzzled about is why people would
want to pay RM 15 for one of these when you can get 5 mg of Xanax
(alprazolam) for the same price? However, Nimetazepam does seem to be
slightly more euphoric. I’m glad I took it though, coz Nimetazepam is
one of the rarer benzodiazepines. Okay, mystery solved. 🙂


More Erimin (nimetazepam) posts and pictures on

Another experience report on Erimin 5 []

Nimetazepam vs nitrazepam qualitative dosage equivalency []

The misguided beliefs surrounding Erimin, also contains photos of slabs (10 packs) of Erimin-5 []

Victor/Nicky Chung Concert @ KDU

I arrived at KDU for the Victor/Nicky Chung (both Malaysian artists)
concert at around 7:15 pm to find the car park full, cars circling
around and yet more cars streaming in. I saw a small space at one side
and pulled into the spot, wondering why no one had parked there. Upon
opening the door, I found the reason – alighting would be a problem
since both sides of the cars were surrounded by very deep water due to
the heavy rain.


Oh well, after circling some more, I finally squeezed into a spot
near the main gates. I went into the auditorium and sat near the front
waiting for the show to start. The auditorium was pretty full at the
time I arrived and there was a stand selling flowers meant to be given
to the artists. I found that strange and rather disturbing.


Well, there ware a couple of speeches and some ribbon cutting at the
beginning. This was a charity concert which was meant to raise money
for two churches. I think a total of RM 75,000 was raised. Anyway,
after the ribbon was cut, there was an explosion of graffiti. I was
sitting there thinking that this would be a very nice place for a rave
should there be a speaker farm like the ones at the front every 5



Anyway, the show started with a performance by some KDU students. It
was a choreographed dance, and it was pretty good actually. I moved
right to the front of the stage where the VIPs and press were, and
camped straight in front of the stage for the rest of the concert. Heh.
No one stopped me.


After the 3 minute performance, Nicky Chung was introduced and he
belted out a couple of songs with several costume change in between.
There was some audience participation after that, with three audience
members invited to come on stage for a bit of fun and games. That
involved getting the three to attempt to speak clearly while having
their mouths filled with mineral water. I know the first girl said
“Nicky Chung, ni hen suai”. Heh.


The crowd was then to judge which participant was the best by
cheering loudly. The first girl and the third guy all got good cheers
but the second one got a lot of boos for some reason. Nevertheless, all
of them left with the same prize.


In the middle of the third song, Nicky Chung got out a stack of
postcards and started giving them away. Now, this prompted a swarm of
cheering fans to the front of the stage in an effort to get one. I was
camped right in front of the stage so I got trampled a couple of times.


The RELA members (RELA = a local crowd control/bouncer group) was
slightly panicked by this apparent breach of security and immediately
started pulling people away from Nicky and herded them back to the
seats. I told them I was the KDU magazine photographer (you gotta do
what you gotta do) and no one asked me to go behind the barrier after
that. Heh.



Anyway, after Nicky Chung did his 3 (4?) songs, the KDU dance group
came out again and did another performance. This one was nicely
choreographed as well and the girls and guys all looked pretty good. I
had a *cough* good vantage point since I was still camped out in front
of the stage. I didn’t have a seat so I was kinda kneeling on the floor
and I had an…ah, pretty low vantage point. 😉 I actually enjoyed the
choreographed dances more than the two singers coz I don’t listen to
Nicky Chung or Victor.



Anyway, Victor came out after that to plenty of cheers and he sang a
couple of songs. I didn’t stay till the end of the set though. I left
early and went to watch LOTR: The Two Towers with a couple of my
buddies. Now that movie was amazing, I loved every part of it. The
scene where the elves came to help defend the keep was a personal
favorite. I’m a sucker for scenes like that. However, I found the
massive (epic!) battle at Helm’s Deep the highlight of the show. I
almost wetted my pants, it was that damn good.

Faster than a speeding bullet


I was driving to KDU’s campus to see the Victor/N Chung concert when
this fuckwit in a green Proton Iswara decided that I had superhuman
reflexes that allows me to go from 70 kmph to 0 kmph in 2 seconds flat
on a rainy day when the roads are slippery. Luckily, unbeknownst to me,
I really DID have that ability even though it was dusk at that time and
the rain made visibility really poor. Hurray for me.

This scene happened on a stretch of road with a gap in the road
divider for U turns, and the driver of the green Iswara was planning to
do just that, but he/she stopped suddenly instead of slowing down and
using the signal lights, which is what non-fuckwits do. Anyway, I
managed to avoid colliding into the car, so all is well right? On any
other day, that statement would hold true, but on a rainy day, these
things have a way of compounding and affecting other drivers on the

As I was liberally applying my horn to voice my displeasure at the driver’s fuckwitted-ness, I heard a very particular
screeching of tyres which could only mean a certain collision or a very
near miss. With some trepidation, I looked into my rear view mirror and
saw this Land Cruiser careening towards me at a speed which could not
possibly stop before it hit me. No fucking way in hell.

It was getting bigger and bigger in my rear view window and it still
wasn’t slowing down anywhere near enough to avoid a collision. I’m glad
I had another superpower – Thinking Really Fast. Okay, maybe that’s not
really a superpower but still… The fuckwit in the green Iswara has
still not made the U turn due to heavy traffic on the opposite side, so
I twisted my steering wheel to the left as far as it would go and
really stepped on the accelerator. I figured, if I hit the green
Iswara, it would just be on the side of the bumper, but if that Land
Cruiser hit me, it sure would not have been pretty.

Miraculously (there wasn’t enough space), I squeezed by the Iswara
without hitting its bumper and the Land Cruiser screeched to a halt wayyyyy past
the Iswara (the driver must have swerved as well). That meant the Land
Cruiser would have hit me (and not lightly at that) had I not made the
gamble to hit the gas and squeeze by at that crucial moment. Oh well,
disaster averted. I’ll write up the concert tomorrow, feeling really
blah now. Release serotonin please.

Annual Christmas Procession 2002

Did I die and go to heaven? 😉

Our town has a history of having a Christmas street parade every
year. This year’s had a praise and worship thing going on before the
actual parade and was held at the Sibu town square. I went there at
around 7 pm with Ting Chuan.

Silent night, holy night.

There weren’t many floats around this year though, there used to be
heaps and there was a competition to see which one was the best. I
don’t know if they still have that competition going on, but there
wasn’t a lot of floats around.

The drivers of the floats actually need guides to navigate.

The crowd watching the procession.

Anyway, after the church service was over, the procession started
with a float followed by several walking groups and then another float
and so on.

Cherubic mascots on a boat float.

A float mounted on a trishaw.

The back of a float.


A float with a nativity scene.

There were groups of various denominations and churches. There were
a lot of bands which are affiliated with church groups too like the
Boys Brigade and the Girls Brigade, to name a few.

A very satanic looking Santa Claus with huge heart shaped testicles giving everyone the finger.

I also stumbled upon my church’s (Wesley Methodist Church) group and
one of the lay leaders invited me to join their entourage. I didn’t
feel like walking though, just wanted to take a couple of photos, so I
declined. I also saw my ex-college’s group who was also part of the
procession. I saw Remy, someone I haven’t seen in several years. We
used to talk a lot in college and it’s good to see her again.

Remy and myself.

Anyway, going back to the floats, there was two in particular that
stood out. One had a giant TV screen showing Christmas carol movies
complete with karaoke style lyrics at the bottom. The other had several
girls dressed as angels standing on the float, which we all agreed were
aesthetically pleasing. Hmm…am I talking about the float or the angels?

A closer look at one of the angels.

There was also a massive police presence to provide crowd control
and several streets were closed off to traffic to make way for the
procession. There was this group with children carrying balloons. On a
whim, I stopped one cute little girl who didn’t look more than 6 years
old who had two balloons and asked her for one, and she gave one of
hers to me. hehehe Thanks dear!

Well, we were standing near the exit of the town square so we
managed to see the procession first. It wasn’t really long, perhaps the
whole parade took 25 minutes.



There was something nice that happened though. A pretty girl dressed
as an angel who was giving out sweets gave me one. I was pretty
surprised as they only gave those to children so I looked up and who
did I see but Alice Lim! She’s from my high school, I was in Form 5
when she was in Form 1, but I know her from seeing her pass by my
father’s office every day to get the record attendance book (she was
the class monitor). It’s good to see her again and I’m glad she still
recognizes me.

Alice in the parade.

Anyway, after the procession, we walked around Wisma Sanyan for a
while and came out the other side only to find the procession winding
up there. We joined and walked with the procession for a while and I
gave my balloon to a balloon-less little girl standing in the crowd.
She was shy and her mom told her to say “thank you”. Heh. That’s my
good deed for the day. My car was blocked by the procession, so we had
to wait for a while until all the groups have finished. I did see Alice
again though when the parade came back around and snapped a pic, and
she said Merry Christmas. 🙂

This is a clearer picture of Alice taken 6 months ago.

Setting the record straight

Okay, I’m so fucking pissed off right now it’s not even funny. I
happened to chat with someone in IRC (identity withheld for privacy
reasons) and she told me that she has heard a lot of bad things about
me. I seem to be a popular topic of discussion among the locals here
last time due to the fact that my father is the principal of one of the
biggest schools in town and God knows there was a lot of juicy gossip
going around when I came back from New Zealand during 1996/1997 to do
my Form 5. Happens a lot in small towns. I usually don’t mind, but this
particularly nasty rumor is so untrue and unlike my nature that I feel
compelled to write about it.

MPI = Methodist Pilley Institute (my ex-college)

Snippet of an edited (removed off topic stuff) IRC chat log with nick removed:

< > u study at mpi b4?

yeah i was in mpi before
you too?

<> mpi student complain about u

complain about wat?

< > u copy their assign
< > hehehehe
< > u realy nakal ho

i didn’t copy
that girl gave it to me willingly
its different

< > they say u smart in pc.. can hang in other pc.. then copy their assign..

okay now that is really not true
i never copied anyone’s assignment before
but a girl did give me her project

< > now i know the answer..
< > they lie..

but i know a lot of mpi ppl hate me
coz i easily pass the imis exam
but they had to take it a lot of times

< > luckily 2nite the god let us meet here… and u explain .. the true..

and i was quite arrogant, saying it was easy etc
so i know a lot of ppl dun like it

Here’s the thing that happened. (referring to the part where I said
the girl gave it to me willingly). There is an exam called IMIS which
has 6 modules and one of them is a project which is graded internally
(ie by MPI instead of the UK IMIS body). The project module only has 6
different types of questions. One of the 3rd year girls which I know
did the same one two years ago and she offered her past project. She
said it’s okay if I modified the code and passed me the diskette the
next day. I couldn’t make sense of the code and the girl spent a lot of
time helping me to modify it, including once on the day before it was
due where she had to drive to a cyber café in Wisma Sanyan to finish
everything for me. I feel really bad about never getting to thank her
properly (what an asshole I am) but I don’t consider this cheating. I
wanted to buy her dinner at least, but she won’t hear of it, saying
that she’ll accept only when I pass, but by the time the results were
out, she has graduated. If you happen to read this, you know who you
are. THANK YOU! I mean it.

Now moving on to the cheating issue, I have never cheated or “copied
anyone’s assignment”. I don’t need to. I don’t mean to be an arrogant
fuck but EVERYONE was worse that me in my batch. I would have failed my
sorry ass if I were to copy their assignment (which I wouldn’t do for
moral reasons). I didn’t even care about the internal exams, ask any
lecturer who had taught me. I didn’t care about failing the internal
exams and didn’t do any work besides disrupting the class because all I
needed was the IMIS external exam to apply to Monash University. A lot
of people resent me because I passed everything with only one try with
Credits and Distinctions. On the other hand, a lot of the people in my
batch had problems with English and while they could rote memorize the
textbook, they just couldn’t express themselves and couldn’t answer
questions that even slightly deviated from textbook examples. I admit I
went around swinging my dick and talking about how easy the IMIS exams
were and how I got good grades without even studying (I actually only
studied the day before the exams) and it’s easy to see how people can
resent that considering they had to put in a lot of work plus they have
the language barrier to overcome.

I know I shouldn’t let it get under my hair like that, but I can’t help it.

People can say that:

1. I used to take drugs (but I’m NOT saying that I still do).

2. I got kicked out of high school in New Zealand for truancy and disciplinary issues.

3. I hung out with “congregations” of people who wouldn’t be considered model citizens in NZ and Kuching.

because those are true

People can’t say that:

I cheat

I’ll never do that, I’ll rather take a fail than cheat. The two times I’ve cheated on exams in my life was:

1. Changing the spelling of Paleolitic to Paleolithic in my Form 1
history test which the teacher asked us to correct ourselves by
exchanging it with the person beside us. I asked my neighbour to give
it back discretely and rubbed off the wrong spelling and corrected it.
The guy behind me (forgot whether it was Raymond or Xavier) immediately
said “hor cikgu, Huai Bin tukar jawapan” which translates to “teacher,
Huai Bin is changing his answer”. The teacher didn’t make a big deal
out of it, but I was so scared she would tell my parents. That was the
first day of our prefect duty and we needed to stand in front of the
other students during assembly. I can still remember a guy commenting
that I looked scared and he thought I had stage fright but it was
really because of the exam answer thing. I just couldn’t get it out of
my mind (no kidding) for several years. I would think about it and get
depressed and go outside and make myself fall down to scrape my knee to
get my mind off it. Oh, and I used to stuff my whole fist into my mouth
when I got anxious about the teacher telling my parents. It hurts
because you need to really open up your jaw to do that, but it gets
your mind off things. There was one time when I was with my father to
get some groceres and I met my Form 1 history teacher and I soooooo
wanted to get away I nearly cried and made up an excuse that I had a
really bad stomachache. Thinking back, it was stupid to get so anxious
and depressed over something like this, but my parental upbringing
tells me this is a Very Serious Offence TM and I was afraid of what my
parents would do when they found out.

2. This was in Form 3 and we had another History test. I had a crush
on this girl called Winnie and she didn’t study the 4 chapters that
would be in the exam today. So she made up a plan where she would study
one chapter, Sing Ling would study another, Raymond would study another
and myself would study another so effectively the four hive minds would
know every answer to the questions. I didn’t want to do it, but I was
infatuated with her at that time so I agreed. How did we cheat? We were
sitting together and we used a mixture of hand signals and feet tapping
and outright lip synching to communicate. 🙂

I just got off the phone with a friend and she told me that being
angry about something like this is rather immature coz it’s not worth
getting your panties all in a twist over something you can’t control –
like what other people say. Perhaps that’s true. However I did spend a
lot of time typing this so I’m going to post it anyway. Thank you,
loyal reader, for reading this rant and have a nice day.

Oh, because of this rant, I haven’t finished the annual Sibu
Christmas parade write-up + pics that happened today. I’ll do that when
I when I wake up tomorrow. Damn those fuckwits for spreading those
rumors and taking up so much of my time to write this instead of the
parade write-up.

Scattered as fuck

Oh man I haven’t laughed this hard about something for ages. 🙂 I
was driving my car and got a cigarette out and opened my window. I
searched around my pockets for my lighter, lit the cigarette and threw the lighter out of the window
(!). It was sooooooooooo funny I had a laughing fit for 2 full minutes,
complete with tears and real belly laughs. hahaha! My friend, who
didn’t see the incident, was puzzled by my apparently unprovoked mirth.
It might not be funny to everyone, but it cracked me up to no end coz
it reminded me of the last time a similar thing happened. That was a
couple of years back, I had bought a new pack of Marlboros, got one out
and offered the pack to my companion. She took one, and threw the nearly full pack out of the window!
hahaha! That was so funny, and we had laughed so hard I nearly crashed
into a lamp post. She didn’t know what possessed her to do that, but
thought it was because her mind suddenly thought that the pack was
already empty. I didn’t know what I thought when I threw the lighter
out today, but I’m glad it happened coz I haven’t laughed so hard while
not on cannabis for a long time. It sure feels good to REALLY laugh. 🙂

BTW, I’ve noticed myself making silly mistakes like typing “I’m”
instead of “I’ve” and “anyway” instead of “anyone”. Possible brain
damage or just scattered as fuck? I wasn’t like that before.

The Bell Curve Cocktail

OMG I did a very, very stupid thing this morning. I went to my usual
pharmacy to get some diazepam (Valium) and alprazolam (Xanax) and
incidentally asked if they happen to have Phensedyl, GHB or worst of
all, ketamine (!!!). Oh, the stupidity. The pharmacist really
looked at me ONE KIND when I asked about ketamine. I felt like kicking
myself for asking about ketamine. I hope this doesn’t change our
relationship. It would be too bad if I lost my only benzo source.

Anyway 50 mg of diazepam (Valium) + 600 mg of caffeine + 2.5 mg
alprazolam (Xanax) seems pretty fun. It was taken in that order
(diazepam, caffeine, alprazolam). Perhaps it could be a cheap
alternative for a bit of fun if funds happen to run low.

Veritas’s el-cheapo recipe for getting high:

Recipe name: The Bell Curve cocktail (TM)

50 mg diazepam (Valium)
600 mg caffeine
2.5 mg alprazolam (Xanax)

Diazepam (Valium) @ 50 cents for every 5 mg tablet = RM 5
Caffeine pills (No-Doz) comes to about 25 cents each 100 mg = RM 1.50
Alprazolam (Xanax) @ RM 7.50 for a 2.5 mg blister pack = RM 7.50

Total cost: RM 14 or A$ 7

Modify dosage according to personal tolerance.

It’s pretty fun if you have nothing better lying around. It’s like
feeling mellow at the beginning, stimulated and pumped up at the
middle, and nice and nodding off towards the end. The best aspects the
benzo and caffeine shines through. It starts out really mellow and
after the caffeine kicks in it feels very stimulating and the euphoria
comes in waves and yet there is no “caffeine fatigue” and there is no
anxiety which can happen with larger doses of caffeine. After a while,
you start popping a 0.25 mg Xanax pills every 10 minutes or so after
you’ve enjoyed the stimulating caffeine. I think it feels better that
way instead of eating all the Xanax all at once. I’m eating them like
candy. Mmm…very funny feeling. Started out relaxed and anxiety free
and chilled out, then peaked on a caffeine high and then slowly
progressed to a pleasant nodding off stage. I had a feeling of being
slightly drunk, felt heavy and uncoordinated (stumbling), but in a
pleasant euphoric sense, during the trip. Highly recommended (and won’t
damage your wallet too much) if you don’t have any alternatives.

Ramly Burger


I love the Ramly Burger stalls that makes those homemade burgers.
Well, the patties are obviously not homemade, the burgers just tastes
that way. After eating the usual McDonalds/Burger King in Melbourne,
it’s good to have one of these again. Mmm…it just tastes so homely.
Burger ayam special satu!

China Seas and China Candy

I woke up really early today and got some breakfast and went to
Bukit Aup with my girlfriend to walk around before she took the
afternoon flight to KL.

This is a picture of us making sad faces at the digicam.

Anyway, she’s currently on a plane flying over the South China Sea
(if I got my geography right). I love you dear and take care in KL. Me?
I’m sitting in my room, eating candy my parents got from their trip to
China that looks like it has been wrapped in intricate colored
wrappings but is actually peanut candy coated with a shiny sugar layer
which makes it look like a wrapper, but is actually not.


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