My hair is shagging in my eyes

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Dragging my feet to hit the streets tonight, to drive along this shit town
lights…

I need a haircut badly. I feel like I’m wearing a furry hat on my head. It
really is that thick and heavy, but unfortunately I don’t have time to get
a haircut until the weekend. The thing is, I need to take a bath after a
haircut coz I cannot stand those short hair bits trying to crawl down my
neck and have their way with my chest and back. Thus, I have to put aside
about 2 hours if I want to get a haircut, and I’ll rather sleep than wake
up early to get a haircut. So, I’ve decided to wait until the weekends
before I get my much needed haircut. I hate the way it pokes into my eyes
and feels all heavy on my head. Hmph.

Link of the day:
The
Quaoar FAQ [caltech.edu] (maintained by one of the co-discoverers)

Rock on…

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I just came back from

Rock Kung [eateries.com.au] in Glen Waverley. Had supper with Adrian
and Jun Wei. I saw two other halls ressies there too. It’s the only
Chinese restaurant nearby which is still open in the early morning.
Perfect for supper, except I probably shouldn’t eat so much before going
to sleep. I had spicy pork chop with fried rice. Eating Chinese food
before going to sleep presents another problem – the MSG gives you two
choices:

1. Drink heaps of water and therefore have to get up every 5 minutes to
take a piss or 

2. Don’t drink enough water and wake up with a headache and sore throat.

Decisions, decisions…

They’re starting younger and younger…

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Schoolgirl, 12, suspended over amphetamines [theage.com.au]

Notice that the girl was considered a “model student”. I guess staying up
for days on end does give you an edge in classes. Not having an appetite
will do wonders for your figure as well. Heh. In another semi-related news
bit:


Star couple’s toddler swallows ecstasy tablet [theage.com.au]

This is not as improbable as it sounds. Ecstasy tablets have been found on
the floors of drug friendly raves before. It could be dropped (haha) by a
someone who’s rolling too hard to realize or dropped on purpose on some
MDMA-fuelled charitable act. Not that I know, of course.

Church on Sunday

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Church of Christ Fellowship, Clayton

I’m feeling rather lethargic now after dinner. I had 5 hours of sleep last
night coz I wanted to finish the second Artemis Fowl book before I went to
bed. Finishing a book always makes me feel strangely empty though. I’ve
been known to read through a series of books and then start with the first
one right after finishing the last one. Heh. Anyway, I remembered why I
loved Artemis Fowl so much when I read the first book. It’s very witty and
a good “cheer me up” book. The funniest line in the book goes to the part
where Artemis Fowl goes “I suspect I’ll view Captain Holly Short in a
different way once puberty hits in 8 months”. Heh. Well, I did to go
church this morning. Had to pull myself out of bed to catch the 9:30 am
bus. The church in question is of the Church of Christ denomination, which
is quite similar to Methodist. I’m sure there are differing doctrines but
it’s pretty much the same to me. It’s located behind the Coles in Clayton
and about 50% of the congregation is composed of younger people.
Interesting. They have a really rousing hymn too…goes something like
“I’m full of fire for Christ or something”. Fun. Anyway, they have “church
lunches” as well, where people stay for lunch. It’s free for visitors
(A$2.50 otherwise) and it was rice with 3 drumsticks, a fried egg, some
cabbage, 2 pieces of buttered bread and lots of sauce. Pretty good, and
their pastors were really full-on too. Reminded me of my church back in
Sibu. Oh, there was a really big spider on the wall of my stairway when I
got home today. It was absolutely huge and it’s not those thin spiders
too. This one had a large abdomen and long sturdy legs. Nasty. I had to
give it a wide berth every time I passed by. 🙁

Size comparison: Look at the automatic door shutter. Damn, that’s a
huge spider.

I want to believe

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Isn’t it interesting that Lucifer translates to Bearer of Light and
the apple in Genesis is known as the fruit of wisdom? Is too much
intelligence an impediment to child-like trust? Let’s go to the most
basic dogma of Christianity – the resurrection of Christ. I want to
believe, but there’s this small nagging voice in my head that goes “It
won’t be too hard to sneak the body out of the tomb – more impossible
heists have been pulled off before”. Or the miracles in the bible, can
they not be group hallucinations from some drug slipped into their food
and drink during their feasts? Can the small pieces of fish and bread
feed 5,000 because they were eaten together with Khat or a similar
stimulant/appetite suppressant plant? It’s common knowledge that the
Bible was compiled from a long list of written material, with only the
non-contradictory material included. Heresy, you say? Sacrilege? I want
to believe, but the skeptical part of my brain keeps on providing
counter-points. Help me believe, Lord. I’m going to church tomorrow.

Reign of Fire, Artemis Fowl, Passionfruit Yogurt, oh my…

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Listening to the Sound of Music soundtrack always cheers me up for some
reason. 🙂 Anyway, I went with a couple of my friends today to catch
Reign of Fire [reignoffire.com]
at the Hoyts in Chadstone. It’s a pretty good movie, but not one you
should question too much. There are things in the movie that requires some
suspension of belief. We had a long list of implausible things by the time
the movie ended. Heh. The best scene of the movie is the one where Van Zan
jumps off a building to engage the dragon with an axe. That was the money
shot. I expected more from the plot outline of the movie, but generally,
it was a pretty good film. Anyway, I also bought
The Artic Incident
[artemisfowl.com] in Borders while waiting for the movie to start. It’s
the second Artemis Fowl book, and I didn’t even know it was already out. I
bought the first book and finished it in a few hours while sipping double
shot ice blended lattes after having to fly to Kuching for a day (long
story) and found it was rather good. I heard a lot of hype about the first
book coz people were comparing it with Harry Potter. I’ll say Harry Potter
is better, but Artemis Fowl is a close second. However, the best books
I’ve ever read are the ones in
The
Uplift Saga [davidbrin.com] by David Brin. Those are divine if you’re
into science fiction. Oh, and there were people distributing free yogurt
when we were walking out so I grabbed a bag. Contents of the bag: 1 x
Vaalia Low Fat Passionfruit Yogurt, 1 x plastic spoon, 1 x A$5 gift
voucher redeemable at Coles, BI-LO, Safeway etc. Interesting.

Valium

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Hmm…I’ll make this short coz talking about this is depressing in itself.
Well, I’ve been suffering from bouts of depression every few months.
Usually, it’s tolerable, but sometimes, it comes with anxiety attacks,
which makes it somewhat hard to shake off. I had one of those two days ago
and went to see a doctor. I was diagnosed with clinical depression (low
serotonin levels) and prescribed some Diazepam (Valium). It comes in
yellow 5 mg tablets and I was told to take two while talking to the
doctor. It did help heaps with the anxiety, and I found that if I think
happy thoughts, it helps with the depression too. However, I was hit by
some wild ass mood swings when it started to wear off, so I’m not going to
take it again. Also, I admit I have an addictive personality so I’ll
rather stay off benzodiazepines. I haven’t taken it since then, I’ll
rather tough out my depressive episodes instead of relying on
pharmaceuticals. Oh well, look on the bright side. At least I have the
option of not taking anything and still not kill myself. Some people do
not have that luxury and need to take benzos or else they’ll become
suicidal. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts myself though, and in one
major depressive episode, I nearly did it. But I found out that running as
fast and as hard as you can until you collapse from exhaustion is a good
way to get your mind off things. That and praying. If you still feel
suicidal after that, sing (scream) as loud as you can to drown out those
thoughts and go somewhere where there are people around. I know that the
sheer desperation that occurs during depressive episodes is pretty
bad, but I’ve survived so far. =D Anyway, regarding yesterday’s post, I
was wondering whether moving to another halls will help. Change of
surroundings, you know. We’ll see. Hmm…now I’ll have to put a happier
post on top of this so I don’t have to see it when I load my page.

P/S – If you know me in real life, I don’t want to talk about this because
it makes me depressed. Thanks.