Brain Tofu

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Tofu brain.

The picture above shows what my brain has become. Rows of rows of
smooth tofu. Taufu lembut replacing my grey matter. I need at least 40
hours of solid, uninterrupted sleep to recover, but there’s not enough
time. My mental faculties did not escape this week totally unscathed
and I’m about to fall asleep right now. It feels like there’s a void
inside my skull where my brain once was. It’s Saturday morning and I
haven’t had felt this bad in a very long time. πŸ™‚

There’s stuff to do tomorrow…I mean, later today. Ah fuck, I don’t
even know what to write. I tried writing a review and tried doing a bit
of work that I took home to do over the weekend but I can’t think.
Paleolitik 35,000 Mesolitik 25,000 Besi dan Gangsa 2,500. That’s what I
mentally recite during certain periods when my mind doesn’t want to
play nice. I don’t know if the times or spelling is correct it’s just
something I repeat in my brain. It’s from Form 1 Sejarah (History).

I want to eat but I can’t move. I can sleep (with help) but it won’t
be enough. Excuse this post. I will update tomorrow with the really
long due chicken rice post, which would be much less depressing, I
promise. πŸ™‚ I will go to sleep now.

Paleolitik 35,000. Mesolitik 25,000. Besi dan Gangsa 2,500.

I still have this at least.

My apologies for not being able to reply the comments today. Thanks
for putting up with my sporadic updates and lack of feedback. I will
sort things out after sleeping. Meh, I’ve had worse. Everything is
fine. πŸ™‚

Black Kingdom: Chapter 2 – A Brave New World

a brave new world

I didn’t know what lead to it, but the four of us started to walk
together and talk like old friends, joking around and everything. The
events during the school sports day started to bore us, so Ah Boon
suggested that we head off to smoke. Smoking! It was unheard of in my
limited social circle, which consisted mostly of “good” people, when I
was back home. I was apprehensive but attracted as well so I went along
even though I haven’t started smoking then. I was interested to try
though, but parental conditioning made me turn down the offer of
cigarettes by Ah Boon.

I was only 15 at that time as my birthday had not passed yet. I
still remember what I asked when Ah Boon, Tom, Aaron and Chen lighted
up. I said, aren’t you worried about lung cancer? Boon had a strange
answer – he didn’t mind dying early as long as it’s an enjoyable life
and smoking is one of life’s greater pleasures. I even remember what
everyone smokes – Ah Boon favors Dunhills but would go with Mild
Sevens. Tom would only smoke Dunhills or this Japanese brand of
cigarette that has one word – “kaze” for wind in the front. Aaron on
the other hand doesn’t care for anything except Davidoffs.

We walked around Church Corner, where my house and the high school
is located. There is dairy shop right there that has this dodgy looking
but nice guy who sells cigarettes and adult magazines to anyone, even
if you’re in school uniform. πŸ™‚ It’s not your run of the mill Playboy
and Penthouse magazines, he carries the hardcore mags too, and always
wraps it in a black bag when selling to minors. Heh. The legal age to
purchase cigarettes was 16 at that time in New Zealand, but 1996 also
saw a legislation change that made the age limit 18 instead of 16.

I remember a funny incident that happened during the day of the
legislation change. I had started smoking later, and there was a very
strict but nearer dairy opposite my shop. I was unable to purchase
cigarettes till the day I turned 16, and I proudly displayed my Student
ID as prove of age and bought a pack of cigarettes…and the law
changed a scant week later, to which the strict but near dairy owner
went “Hah! I know you can’t be 18 coz you just turned 16 a week ago! No
cigarettes to minors.”.

That forced me to walk to the further but lenient dairy at church
corner. The four of us hung out once in a while, mostly in school, but
I was still going out more frequently with Sam and the others then.
Besides the drama production practice, we sometimes go to this youth
group, which is an interesting mix of half innocent kids and half not
so innocent teenagers. Cannabis was a common drug then, one tinny
(foil) goes for NZ$ 20 and it has about 1 gram or so of weed.

However, I have still not smoked nor taken any drugs at that point.
A lot of my friends are users (on Sam’s side), but I had read that
drugs are bad mmmkay, so I just passed the joint along whenever someone
has weed, which is quite frequent. The availability of cannabis and LSD
was to high school students was surprising. I was interested in
chemical and plant substances due to reading a lot about it and wanting
personal experience, but I was still not comfortable about even smoking
weed then.

My first cigarette was at this all nighter youth group function
where several vans full of people went Go Kart racing, then adjourned
to an indoor water park, before going to a laser tag game and then a
ball at some far away horticulture place before ending the night with
two back to back movies. I remember one of the movies I watched was
Mars Attacks! It was an all day till the next morning event, and it was
during the ball that I first started smoking.

There was this girl chain smoking the whole night, even making the
driver make stops to buy more cigarettes. Everyone calls her Kitty.
She’s from my school as well, but one year younger than me and I
remember Abba’s Dancing Queen playing during the ball and I was
standing beside her and she asked me if I wanted a smoke. I thought
about it and reckoned that since I was interested to try, now is a good
time as any.

We shared a cigarette and she laughed at my inability to inhale. πŸ™‚
She taught me how to properly smoke a cigarette, not just holding the
smoke in the mouth and exhaling, but chasing the smoke down with
another intake of breath so it gets into your lungs. I wouldn’t say
that I liked the taste of tobacco, but it was a memorable experience
and the song that played during that time still reminds me of that day.

End of Black Kingdom: Chapter 2 – A Brave New World

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Next: Black Kingdom: Chapter 3 – Bonding [sixthseal.com].

View from my workplace on the 16th floor in KL CBD

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Allow me to present to you…the view of KL city from the (only)
window in XM Malaysia’s Technical Department. To the left, you’ll find
Hotel Equatorial. The pleasing structure you see in front is reportedly
Hong Leong Bank HQ (don’t know for sure, what one of my coworkers told
me). Okay, I just took this photo a minute ago coz I forgot to bring
the nasi ayam photos so that’ll have to wait. Sorry! πŸ™‚

It’s back to work for me coz I’m an amazingly productive employee
who doesn’t need food or sleep and I have a lot of stuff to do.
Well…I try to be one anyway. πŸ˜‰ And yes, I can forgo sleep and food
for days, just like IDNEX can. BTW, you haven’t beaten my record,
IDNEX. Tujuh hari tanpa makan tanpa tidur, ya. Go further or bow down
before me and concede to my superior sk1llz! Muahahahaha! Okay, enough
sillyness.

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Word of the day:
Automagical.
Versatile expression that is used to describe a piece of code that does what it’s supposed to do.
(Read: A function that does what you want it to do, but you know fuck all about the actual mechanics behind it. ;))
Also see TE (Trail and Error) debugging.

Anyway, for those of you with credit cards in Malaysia, which would you think is better:

Citibank Clear Visa Classic
Citibank Silver Visa Classic
Mayban Finance Visa Classic

Supplementary cards and bonus features not necessary. APR can be
disregarded, payment would be made within 20 days. It would be used for
Internet purchases (hosting and other stuff) only and I noticed some
doesn’t cover fraud until you report it (!?!?). I was under the
impression Visa covers all credit card fraud and you need to pay RM 60
maximum.

…and then we’ll go to sleep

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I am so sedated from judicious use of GABA-A binding agents (hey,
legally prescribed ;)) with alcohol that I could barely force myself to
post. πŸ™‚ Okay, sorry for not being daily, that 7 hours of sleep in 5
days (two sessions of 6 hours and an hour two days apart) took a toll
on me. I was very tired today from finishing that project at work and
with the positive flow of chloride ions (which strangely seems to be
decreasing, which means I’ll have to regulate it again =D) that’s going
on, I will have a nice long (er…6 hours anyway) sleep! Well deserved,
IMHO, and hey, I can even type proper and all. πŸ™‚

I will make a point to update daily from now on, just like how I
dragged myself out of bed with sleep deprivation and a mere hours sleep
tday, starting from best chicken rice in KL tomorrow. Comments will be
replied one by one tomorrow and yeah, some mails needs replying as
well, I will reply at least the “nice fluffy something” one tomorrow,
you know who you are. πŸ˜‰

9 am deadline!

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My apologies, I don’t have time to post the review of the best nasi
ayam I’ve eaten in KL now, but the picture above was taken there. It’s
a small sidelane beside Genting Plaza. I’ll write a full review chock
full of photos tonight ok? I have to rush off to work now, I’ve gotta 9
am deadline to meet, I arrived home at around midnight last night and I
didn’t sleep but fear not, my l33t *cough* programming sk1llz have not
suffered due to that. I know it’s early to be heading to work, I don’t
know if there’s anyone in right now, but I have the key anyway, since I
was the last one to leave last night.

Oh yeah, if anyone knows about a reliable (99.5% MIMIMUM uptime)
host which has been in the business for at least 2 years please leave a
comment. I need 1 GB of space minimum, 30 GB data transfer minimum, and
no restriction on content (willing to host castitas.com). VPS/VDS
solutions would be great, but not necessary. Multiple domain support is
essential. No hosts which has quotas on “multimedia files” since I have
a lot of images. My budget is US$ 20 per month maximum. No hidden fees,
preferably allows hosting on a monthly/quarterly basis to test speed
and reliability.

Does anyone have any suggestions? A lot of hosts has really strict
T&C’s, is there anyone who’s hosted with a good host which fits the
above criteria? Also, a host which has no restriction of filetypes
would be good ie allows MP3, MPEG, AVI files. I know this is asking a
lot for US$ 20 but if there’s anyone who’s aware of any hosts which
goes slightly above that price with all the features above, please
leave a message. I’m tired of browsing the WHT forums and I’m very
interested in ultraunix.net, they’ve great solutions and feedback, but
I would preferably go with a company that’s not in Malaysia (no
offence) due to the possibility of Malaysian authorities exerting
pressure on Malaysian hosts to access server logs and such, which would
violate the privacy of veritas.

I need a reliable host quick, visitors increase each month and so
does bandwidth usage. 40k visitors a month with my large front page
size = killer bandwidth fees. Oh right, the hosting company must not
have daily caps on visitors since I get over 1.3k a day. I have no use
for multiple email accounts and mailing lists but a catch-all address
is mandatory. I have my own domains, so free domain offers are not
necessary, though it’s a plus. Oh yeah, PHP, CGI, PERL, custom error
pages, access to raw visitor logs and MySQL databases (not looking for
“unlimited” but a reasonably sufficient number) is a must. I also don’t
need extras like scripts, FrontPage extensions, eCommerce stuff etc,
I’m basically just looking for a UNIX/Linux/FreeBSD host with cPanel
and I need phpMyAdmin too. Reasonable rates (US$ 3 or lower per GB) for
excess bandwidth would be good. NO SHUTTING DOWN THE SITE FOR EXCEEDING
BANDWIDTH! I would not go with a host who does that. SSH access is a
big bonus. Where are you all hosted? Thanks in advance!

A stack of postcards from graceshu

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I got a stack of postcards from Grace
[pixelphobia.net] today. πŸ™‚ It was all bundled up when I got home and
consisted of a total of 5 postcards rubber banded together. The first
four are McDonald’s postcards, each one having a single letter – FOR,
WHAT, ITS, WORTH. They actually double as a coupon for a free something
with a purchase. The back of the postcards actually fit side by side to
make a large banner with “i’m lovin’ it”!

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Don’t worry about it if this all sounds puzzling. “McDonald’s
vouchers” and “i’m lovin’ it” is an insider thing between us. Something
like our private joke, except only the first one is funny and the
second one isn’t. :p Anyway, the 5th postcard is mailed from Cameron
Highlands during her camp:

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Front of the postcard.

It reads:

Hi,
Camerons was freaking cold
as it rained all day & night.
Had some freezing & sleepless
nights during the camp. Other
than that, all was fine. They
had pretty good strawberry farms & shortcakes
there too! As usual, ate a lot.
Will write again when am in Ipoh!
Take care!

Grace
24/10/2003

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Back of the postcard.

Thanks Grace! πŸ™‚ She’s the greatest, taking time out to mail postcards.

On another note, I have been notified by The People From Above
(otherwise known as TPFA) that updating my weblog during work hours is
unacceptable, even during lunch hour, and while I’m known for being
subversive, I shall accede to this. I can understand how management can
interprete this as a loss of productivity so I will not be updating the
site, replying the comments or even visiting my own blog(s) during
office hours.

However, I will update daily as usual, when I get back from work.
The first person who accuses me of giving in to The Man gets a hefty
kick to the balls (or to the general region for females). πŸ˜‰

My MC

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MC (20th October 2003)

This is my Medical Certificate. I was not able to make it to work
today. Yeah, I’m aware that this is the not first time it happened. :p
I was not faking it, I was not feeling well. I wouldn’t spend half my
daily salary just to get an MC anyway, would rather go to work. Anyway,
I woke up feeling nauseous and throwing up (I seem to have a generosity
that compels me to make offerings to the porcelain god) and with a
migraine.

I went to see the same doctor I saw last time – Poliklinik & Surgeri Dr A. Hadi Abdullah & Rakan Rakan
[sixthseal.com] at Pusat Bandar Damansara this afternoon. I mean
yesterday afternoon, it’s past 12 am so technically this happened
yesterday. It’s the closest clinic. The doctor was not in – I was told
he went off to have a drink. I waited for a while and then got to see
the doctor and told him about my symptoms.

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Ya, saya tahu saya sakit.

I also mentioned that I usually take DF118 (30 mg dihydrocodeine
only tablets) for migraines and he said that he doesn’t carry that
because it’s a restricted drug. Funny, I get it over the counter in
Sibu. πŸ˜‰ Anyway, the doctor said he’ll give me something stronger and
my ears perked up, hoping to hear Oxycontin or something like that.

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When you said stronger, I was expecting something else…

He said he’ll give me…..Voltaren. That’s diclofenac, a NSAID
(Non-Steroidal Anti-Inflammatory Drug). I don’t know how his logic
goes…stronger than dihydrocodeine indeed. This is not “something
stronger”. NSAIDs does nothing for me, real migraine medications has to
have opiate agonists in it. πŸ˜‰ I’m kidding, btw, let us move on, this
was supposed to be a short post coz I’ll have to sleep early tonight.

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I did not take the photo through the plastic bag last time, I just
noticed that, there was a revelationary moment for a moment, but it’s
gone now, I forgot what it was.

Anyway, this time the doctor filled in the MC himself at least, gave
him my IC and he asked “Any pen kah?” to his wife cum receptionist and
out I went with an MC, a pack of diclofenac, a bill for only RM 20 as
opposed to RM 25 last time, and my IC (he took it to write the MC
remember?) inside a plastic bag.

My apologies for not being able to reply the comments today, I have
to sleep now to go to work tomorrow and I’ll reply every single one
tomorrow. Hmm…I think I’ll have a mug of milo with biscuits and then
sleep. Night people, see ya tomorrow.

I’m perfectly sober, why do you ask?

Midnight at the office

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XM Malaysia midnight club (bound by a common project) – Ivan, Wai
Hing, Shirley, Suzanne, Huai Bin (me). Kelvin and Ganesh were also
around but not working on the same project.

It’s past 12 am in the morning and I’m still at the
office…together with about 6 other people, working on the Sony
Malaysia’s 30th Anniversary project. I just realized that I am an utter
hack today, I took ages to finish the main page and that’s not even
going into coding for dynamic responses on certain triggers. The main
page was just HTML and tables (I fucking hate tables…) and CSS and
yet I was slaving over it for most of the day. Granted, I was having a
borderline paracetamol (APAP) poisoning (don’t ask) and was throwing
up, having abdominal cramps etc but that’s no excuse…

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Dinner was provided though…

The point is…I took ages to do something simple, and that is
really depressing…the images from creative were like jigsaw puzzles,
I can’t write a good table to save my life and I even had to send
Yahoo! messages to Grace [pixelphobia.net] (who claims to eat HTML tables and CSS for breakfast) to ask her how to float text on top of static images…

I am still at the office and if there’s a single word that could sum up today it’s omgwtfbbq.

I really need to update my skill sets but that will have to wait, forgive me for not replying the comments today, work awaits…

Crazy Taxi (KL Edition)

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Never be late again! Pictured above is KL’s finest taxi driver, the best of the best – he’ll get you where you want, when
you want. This is the second time he’s actually saved me from being
late…I knew it was him from the way he was still accelerating while
pulling up to me and from the tyres screeching to a halt just in front
of me. You want fast? You’ve got fast.

I need to wake up at 6:30 am in order to take the LRT/bus combo
(plus a 25 minute walk), so anytime after that requires me to enlist
the services of a taxi to arrive on time. I woke up at nearly 8 am
today (curses) and the taxi arrived at 8:07 am and got to Jalan Sultan
Ismail at 8:21 am. I shit you not, it’s a time lap that’s worth of
entry into the Guinness Book of World Records. Well, maybe not that,
the Malaysian Book of Records then.

He sure needs to be commended anyway. The way he weaves through the
tightest spots and liberally applies his horn and glares at cars who
even dares to inch a little bit closer to the lane that he wants to
change into. The way he bores down on errant pedestrians who did not
know better and got into his way, even going so far as to make one girl
go “Arrggghhh” and jump out of the way. The way he ignores the traffic
police directing traffic and rushes through anyway.

I got to the office and punched in. 8:26 am. I didn’t think it was possible. Thanks, crazy taxi!

Radio silence

Sorry everyone, I’ve been really busy selling myself lately. Selling
myself to the HR people that is. πŸ˜‰ My quest for employment is still
ongoing and so is the search for a good post graduate Masters program.
I will update tomorrow, with a collaborative photo story – “A sliver of
liver”. πŸ™‚ Until then, see ya. I will reply all the comments and mails
tomorrow, my apologies, I didn’t get any sleep last night and I’m so
ready to hit the bed right now.

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