Shooting in the rain


I went to the city this morning to update my plane ticket. Just
three more days till I leave Melbourne for good. I went on a photo
shoot around the CBD area and got most of the landmarks. Memories.
Unfortunately, today’s weather was bad for photography. It was cloudy
and drizzling constantly. I had to keep on wiping the lens to avoid
droplets of water getting into the frame but the foggy weather still
made photos blurry at the horizon. Surprisingly, I saw another person
taking photos at Federation Square (the relatively new weird looking
building opposite Flinders Street Station). She saw me before I saw her
though, and grinned. It is funny, quite coincidental to have two people
taking photos while it’s drizzling at Federation Square. Dedication. πŸ˜‰


Script shenanigans (Dexamphetamine Reloaded)

*wipes tear away from eye* I thought I’ll never see you again.

Would it be possible to cash in a dated dexamphetamine (Schedule 8)
script several weeks EARLY? I was wondering the same question myself,
and I decided to try after reading a caveat in the pharmaceutical
dispensing guidelines regarding Schedule 8 substances. It was in a
pharmacy site, but I forgot the link. I remembered getting there from
the “australia schedule 8 prescription” search string though. Anyway,
if you’ve been reading about my “narcolepsy” and the legal speed I was
prescribed to manage the symptoms, you’ll have read my final farewell to dextroamphetamine sulfate []. That farewell seems to be premature though. Don’t you just hate that? πŸ˜‰

32 days have passed since the last time I refilled my script
(including today). I had thought that was the last time I’m going to
see my little white friends, because the good doctor upgraded
(supersized?) my dexamphetamine prescription by trusting me with the
responsibility of 200 x 5 mg dexamphetamine (Dexedrine in the US)
tablets upfront with a refill in 50 days instead of the usual 100 x 5
mg every 25 days. The nice doctor did not increase my dose, but he
allowed me to get 200 tablets at once, which is not standard
prescribing procedure for a Schedule 8 drug.

I have 2 repeats left on the script (time based, only valid if 50
days have passed since the last refill) and I’m not due for a refill
until 10th of July, which is next month. I would be back in Malaysia by
then so I thought it was the last time I’ll be having pharmaceutical
quality amphetamines. However, I decided to use one of the methods in
my Tome of Doctor Shopping (available for the low, low price of
A$0, I’ve documented everything on this site) to see if I could just
eek out one last refill before I go back. It just might be possible,
and I won’t have to lie to get it. I just have to be economical with
the truth. πŸ˜‰


I’ll be going back soon for my holidays and my tablets would run out before I come back, so can I please have an early refill?

There is no untruth in this statement, everything is TRUE. Isn’t
that great? =D I just didn’t mention that I’ll be going back for good,
as that would invalidate the script (it still has a repeat) which is
supposed to be inherited by CT. I also neglected to elaborate
that I won’t be heading home that early. My tongue slipped and that
made me erroneously emphasize the word “soon” with a particular tone
which might be misleading to chemists, leading them to think that it
was a date like tomorrow. Sorry! πŸ˜‰

I haven’t been to any of the pharmacies I went to today. I didn’t
want to use the regular dexamphetamine one, since the pharmacist
clearly told me about the 50 day refill timeframe. I can’t use any of
the pharmacies near my place because I have either filled
benzodiazepines or bought fit kits and other injecting paraphernalia
there, and I didn’t want to risk my script. I decided to trawl the
pharmacies further away from my usual haunts. We’ll see how it goes:

Pharmacy #1

This medicine may increase mental alertness and/or co-ordination. If
affected. Do not bite lower lip or smoke too many cigarettes.

I walked in and gave the pharmacist on duty (a nice looking old man)
a big ass smile and said “Hello” cheerily. πŸ™‚ “Could you possibly help
me with this? It’s not due for a while, but I’ll be going home for the
holidays soon and my prescription will run out before I come back, so would it be possible to get this filled today?”

“That shouldn’t be a problem, I’ll get to it right away. It would take a couple of minutes, do you use prescription assistance programs?”

“Sure, take your time. I appreciate your help.”

I tried to be nonchalant and pretended to read a book while in
actually fact I was watching the pharmacist out of the corner of my
eye. I saw him make a phone call, no problem, he’s probably just
validating the script, 200 is an extraordinary amount for
dexamphetamine. He came up to me after that and said: “I’m sorry sir,
but I only have 100 tablets in stock now. However, if you come back at
4:30 pm, the prescription would be all ready for you.”

It was slightly before 9 am in the morning then. Hmm…this is a
definite go, I thought, I’ll be happy to come back at 4:30 pm if that
means I would get the refill. However, it bothered me that such a large
pharmacy did not carefully maintain the stock levels to avoid
situations such as these. Maybe I’m just paranoid, but it doesn’t hurt
to be careful, and I’ve learnt something important in my years of
recreational drug use: When in doubt – bail.

I did not plan to be untruthful, but circumstances dictate that
moral issues should be shelved and contingency plans initiated. “Oh,
that would be great, but unfortunately I have an exam later so I
wouldn’t be able to come back at that time”. Pharmacist: “That wouldn’t
be a problem, we close at 6 pm, so if you just come back anytime before
that, the prescription will be ready for you.” He was still holding on
to my script. I wanted it back. “Well, my exams are in Caulfield so I
wouldn’t be heading down again, since it would be out of the way.
Thanks for your help anyway.”

“That wouldn’t be a problem, you can just come back tomorrow or another day, and it’ll be all ready for you.” He was still
holding my script. Subtlety will not work here. “Thanks, but that won’t
be necessary. I’ll just get it another day. I’m sorry for bothering
you.” I hold my hand out for the script. He handed it back rather
unwillingly. “Have a nice day” I say as I walk out. I walked to the
traffic lights about 25 meters from the pharmacy and stood there while
the pedestrian lights were red. I happened to glance beside me and saw
two police officers smiling at me in a manner I thought was predatory.

Paranoia? Or did the pharmacist call the police? He wouldn’t would
he? Even though prescription fraud is punishable by a 1 year jail
sentence, I didn’t do anything wrong by asking for an early refill (at
least I don’t think that’s breaking any laws). It’s such a minor
infringement anyway, but why are the police looking at me like that? I
am dressed well and conservatively, like I always do when doctor
shopping or filling scripts. I nodded at the police and said “Hello
officers.” I looked back at the pedestrian lights. It turned green. I

It’s probably just a coincidence but it was disconcerting.

Pharmacy #2

Keep a supply – …

Okay, it seems that refilling scripts before the due date is
possible under certain circumstances, like the one I’m experiencing. I
just need to tweak (no pun intended) the statement a little bit to
optimize it. I walk into the second pharmacy and said “Good morning, I
was wondering if you could help me out with this. It’s not due yet, but
my exams are over and I’m flying back home tomorrow. The tablets would
run out before I get back, so would it be possible to get this refill
earlier so I don’t miss my medication?”

“Okay, just a minute, let me ask the pharmacist.”

The pharmacist (who happens to be another old man, but not as kindly
looking as the first one) looked at the script, looked at me and walked
over. “I’m sorry, but we don’t stock these. Why don’t you go back to
the original pharmacy and get it from there?” “Okay, thanks for your
help.” No go. I don’t believe for a second that this large chain does
not carry dexamphetamine. The pharmacist probably just though the
script was a bit odd, considering the amount and the fact that I’m
filling it at a place which is really quite far from the one who issued
the repeat authorization and didn’t want to fill it.

Oh well, since I’m bending the truth a little (okay, more than a
little), I have no right to comment, but does the pharmacist think I
look stupid? That’s such a lame excuse coming from this well known and
large pharmacy chain, but he’s probably thinking the same thing too. πŸ™‚
“Does this guy think I’m stupid?” Heh. No harm, no foul, I’ll just move

Pharmacy #3

…don’t cease…

I optimized the statement again. I decided I wasn’t going to draw
attention to the due date unless the pharmacist asks about it. Hey,
maybe I’ll get lucky and he’ll miss the fact that the due date is next
month. “Hello, can I have this filled please?” I say while smiling my
“I’m just an innocent student, a nice guy” smile. Cheery and polite,
what a hoot I am. πŸ™‚ Unfortunately, this pharmacy does not carry
dexamphetamine. I did believe him, because it was a small, hole in the
wall chemist, with a tiny prescriptions section. The pharmacist was
kind enough to point me in the right direction too. “Hmm…let me think
of the pharmacists in (deleted) who stocks these. There are two at
(deleted) Street that would most likely have them in stock. You could
pop over and see.”

“Thanks for your help!”

Pharmacy #4

…without Dr’s advice

I modified the statement again. I implemented the lessons learnt
from the first three pharmacies and decided to experiment with an
additional sentence to add authority to my statement. I put on my best
shit eating grin and applied my friendliest tone with overtures of “Oh,
I feel sorry for all the hard work you do that goes unnoticed. I really
appreciate your self-sacrificing service to the community.” The
pharmacist was a man in his early 30s, he looks young and I somehow
feel that this would be the one.

Me: Good morning! Rainy day huh?
Pharmacist: Yeah, it’s been raining the whole morning. It’s quite cold eh?
Me: Indeed. The weather has been rather dismal these days. It’s
going to be good for the alpine though, I hear there’s some nice
snowfall up there. Too bad I’m going to miss snowboarding this year.
Pharmacist: Oh, that’s too bad. Where are you going?
Me: I’m heading back for the holidays. Just finished my exams,
oh this reminds me, this script is not due yet, but unfortunately, I’ll
be going home for a month and half so the tablets would run out before
I come back. I called the doctor and he suggested that I get a refill
before I go back. The doctor’s details is here.
I flip the repeat authorization over confidently and pointed out the
original doctor’s script, while taking care not to overextend myself
and expose tattoos. It doesn’t hurt to be careful, even a shave to look
clean cut helps.

Pharmacist: 200? Oh, wow.
Me: Yeah, I’ve been prescribed this for narcolepsy. The doctor gave me a larger amount so I won’t have to get it filled so often.
Pharmacist: I see. Sure, this is no problem at all. It’ll just take 10 minutes for me to get this filled.
Me: Thanks! I appreciate your help.

I pray that he won’t call the doctor, because the part about me consulting the doctor for advice didn’t exactly happen.

I pretended to browse around the store and decided that a display of
hair coloring is very interesting and stared at that with a half smile,
all the while keeping my ears cocked for phone conversations. This is
dangerous territory…if he calls the doctor, all would be lost. The
doctor is under the impression that dexamphetamine is cheaper in
Malaysia so it wouldn’t make sense for me to collect the script here,
and he’ll certainly remember if we had a conversation about early
refills, and we didn’t. Malaysia didn’t even approve dextroamphetamine
for anything! It’s not available for prescribing in Malaysia. I
shouldn’t have said that. Lady luck, show me some love!

5 minutes later… (it felt like 50 minutes)

Pharmacist: Hey!

I pretended that he didn’t made me jump. I was on methcathinone
(I’ll write about it some other time) and it doesn’t take much to make
me jump when I’m tweaking. Thankfully, a column of hygiene products
obscured me, so my startled response didn’t get noticed.

Me: Yes?
Pharmacist: It’s (deleted) right? Is that how your pronounce it?
Me: You’ve got it spot on, that’s my name alright.
Actually he didn’t pronounce it right, but going into semantics would just slow the process down, so on with the show!
Pharmacist: Are you still taking it twice daily?
Me: Yeah, that’s my dose.
Pharmacist: Okay, thanks!


There was sounds of fast typing, and my paranoia imagined the
pharmacist talking to the doctor online. He was just typing the new
repeat authorization. πŸ™‚

Pharmacist: Here you go buddy. Do you want a receipt?
I hide my grin.
Me: Yes please, that would be great.
Pharmacist: Here’s everything. I also put in a leaflet about
generic medicines, it’s a good read. This is your repeat authorization,
there’s one repeat left, 50 days from now. And this is the 200 tablets
of dexamphetamine, two tablets to be taken twice daily.
Me: Thank you, I appreciate your help.
Pharmacist: Have a nice trip!
Huh? What is he insinuating? Is he trying to tell me that he knows
I’m scripting and he filled it anyway? What would be the appropriate
reply then? Oh wait, he’s talking about the trip back home. Duh!

Me: Thanks, have a nice day mate.

/me walks out with 1 gram of dextroamphetamine sulfate in the form
of two bottles of dexamphetamine containing 100 tablets of 5 mg each.

Remember: Keep a supply – don’t cease without Dr’s advice!

That’s doctor’s orders. πŸ˜‰

Photo Friday – Critters


Photo Friday – Critters []

Critters. This is a fairly broad interpretation of the theme. I just
came back from dinner with my friends today at Wah Kee in Clayton
(Melbourne, Australia). This is probably the last time I’ll be eating
there as I’m having my final exam paper next week and then I’ll be
flying back to Malaysia. This is Combination Mun Fun, a rice dish which
includes prawns, squid, cuttlefish, BBQ pork, fish, mushrooms, chicken,
chestnuts, and vegetables in a bland egg sauce. It tastes good with a
(very) liberal sprinkling of vinegar, soy sauce, salt and pepper.

The shooting data:

Focal Length: 8mm
Exposure Mode: Programmed Auto
Metering Mode: Multi-Pattern 1/3.5 sec – f/2.8
Exposure Compensation: 0 EV
Sensitivity: Auto
White Balance: Auto
AF Mode: AF-C
Saturation Compensation: 0

The post-production work was done in Photoshop 7.0 and involves:

Image Size: Size reduced from 2048×1536 to 500×375

Interested in joining Project Petaling Street?

Calling BETA testers!!!

This is an open call for BETA testers for Project Petaling Street [] version 1.5.

Project Petaling Street (PPS) is a blog-tal that seeks to aggregate
Malaysian content into a single space. Learn more about PPS by visiting
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Malaysian bloggers; we started with the core team submitting their
content and that is what you see on PPS today.

This will change very soon. In line with the vision and objectives
of PPS, it will begin accepting content from across the Malaysian
blogosphere. The development team has been working hard to make this
happen since the launch on 12 June 2003, and now we are ready to test
the system. For the test to proceed, we will need a team of 20-30 BETA
testers who will be willing to devote some time and effort into making
it happen. All BETA testers will receive public credit for their
contribution when the next version is launched sometime in mid-July.

We are looking for a cross-section of Malaysian bloggers (or
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CSE3151 Postmortem

CSE3151 @ Caulfield Racecourse Level 2

I did not have enough time to complete the paper. I could not
remember a lot of things (damn *mumble*, always messing with my memory)
too. Here’s hoping that:

Expected Grade: Pass

Candidates may now leave the room QUIETLY.

It has a nice view of the racecourse. Too bad we weren’t facing that
direction. Ground Floor exams face that direction, but not Level 2, for
reasons unknown. just got re-reviewed by The Weblog Review []. Thanks obz!
[] I was given 4.5/5 this time. I got a 2.5 in the first
review. I was still using the old layout then. It looks like this:


Here’s the review:

This is a re-review of

It started with:
“And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a
great earthquake; and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and
the moon became as blood; And the stars of heaven fell unto the earth,
even as a fig tree casteth her untimely figs, when she is shaken of a
mighty wind.
Revelation 6:12-17″ …I knew it was going to be a trip. And oh what a trip Sixth Seal is.

What a crazy read Sixth Seal is. The writers complete candor makes
for a engrossing yet disturbing read. The blog consists of entries from
hbpoh and veritas (a.k.a. Mr. Foaf) and the content from both is VERY
different. All of veritas’ entries reveal his strong drug
experimentation, of which he gives great detail. He talks about
various drugs in his ‘trip reports’. They are very disconcerting but it
does make for great reading. It was like reading ‘trainspotting’.
Unbelievable stuff!

Hbpoh is a more typical blogger. With entries about: restaurants,
wrestling, trips, vacations, depression, Monash University Clayton
Campus, Melbourne, school , SexPo, bills, urinal photos, tennis
anyone?, Explosive Diarrhea, Magnum Ice Cream bars and of course his
girlfriend. I really enjoyed his writing. He documents his events well
with photos, some are rewarding, some disgusting, some artsy…photos say
so much. A Funny entry was entitled “Proof that candy bananas are
evil”. Want to know why? Read the blog. πŸ˜›

My favourite quote:
“Unix is the only thing I know of that can reduce a grown man to tears. Manly tears, that is…”

The author also experiments with substances:
“I was in the mood for some weed so I decided to sample some
Australian hydroponically grown cannabis sativa to determine the THC
concentrations present in a typical gram bag. All for the furtherment
of science of course. I’m selfless that way. *preens*”

Veritas on Heroin:
“its the feeling of picnics and reading books and eating cheese cake
and nice weather and mom taking care of you when you’re sick and i’ve
got it! its the feeling of being a kid, where there are no real
problems, only little ones, and you don’t need to do anything, you just
hang around and feel comfortable and they’re parents there to take care
of you. damn, thats what it feels like. return to childhood. its the
feeling of waking up on a saturday morning to the smell of french toast
and you just lie around in bed waiting for your mom to call you down to
eat breakfast and you’ve had a great nites sleep and the only thing you
want to do is read a good book, a safe book where there are no great
problems and everything turns out to be okay in the end. jesus, you
just don’t get this feeling anymore after you grow up. no wonder people
get addicted to this shit. it’s really comfortable” .

This blog is an experience. Never before have I felt such a deep
impact from reading a blog. If a blog is meant to share an experience
then Sixth Seal delivers.
This site was reviewed on 2003-06-19 by obz.
They felt this site belonged in the Personal category.
obz felt that deserved a rating of 4.5.

Meth IV Part II – Hitting the vein, synergies and the comedown

veritas in the process of IV methamphetamine, taken by trip sitter (doesn’t want to be named). Liberal use of smudge to well, smudge details.

IV seems to make meth more like a “fun drug” than a “work drug”.
That’s my thoughts anyway, as always, YMMV. YMMV = Your Mileage May
Vary. Having to type that out defeats the purpose of acronyms, but oh
well, just in case anyone doesn’t know that. Well, back on topic, I did
get supervision this time, since I wanted to IV 70 mg (crystal meth). I
wouldn’t have blinked at insufflating twice that amount, but this is IV
so I wanted someone to look out for me since I already had quite a bit
and I fear the dose-response curve would be different for IV meth.

Hitting the vein:

These two are probably my last experiments with IV meth, unless
there is a reason to continue. I appreciate everyone’s concern, but I
do have a “safety net” – I’ll be going back to Malaysia (for good –
graduating) soon, and my access to recreational substances there is
very limited, due to family obligations, legislation that strikes fear
into the hearts of man and other factors.

IV meth #2

I got another fit pack and this time it only had 2 cotton filters!
Wtf??? Why doesn’t it match the number of syringes? It can’t be all
that expensive, so it would make more sense to have 5 filters inside
instead of a measly 2. I didn’t know that only a small bit of filter is
required, no wonder I lost some meth solution to the filter (which I
always ate after the shot anyway, so it doesn’t matter :p). The real
problem to the fit kits is this – the sterile water isn’t resealable.
There’s 10 ml of water, and each syringe will fit only 1 ml (but no one
in their right mind uses that much anyway) so the leftovers
become…unsterile. The top is a twist off plastic seal and once it’s
open, it’s open. I didn’t want to risk using “sterile water” that has
been sitting opened for many hours coz bacteria and other stuff might
have started a family in there. Being aware of this, I asked for
sterile water in smaller single packs and got this:

Astra Water for Injections BP

These comes in a much more sensible 2 ml and it’s in glass ampoules.
Very nice. These are the snap top vials, you open it by “bending” the
glass ampoule at the thinnest point (the yellow line) with one hand on
the top and one on the container. It makes a satisfying snap too, and
it’s a fun thing to do – this belongs in the same category as popping
bubble wrap and pressing the round things that your McDonalds drink
cover has. I mean the ones that say “Diet”, “Regular” and “Other”. I
can never resist pressing those things, they’re just begging for it! πŸ™‚

Astra Water for Injections BP back

Well, I don’t know how much I did, it was 8 shards but that doesn’t
mean anything at all, considering the wide range of different sizes
crystal meth comes in. I gave the spoon a wash with detergent and left
it under running hot water for a minute. That’s about as close to
sterile as I can get, but I think using disposable sterile spoons (do
they have these things?) would be better in the long run. I made things
more sterile this time. Anyway, I have to be quick so here’s the

Opened everything that needs opening without touching the inside:
Pealed syringe wrapper back so I could take it out with my clean hands without touching the wrapper.
Snapped top off the glass ampoule.
Opened box containing meth so I could get them by just touching the crystals.
Went to wash my hands with soap and hot water.
Checked that the spoon has no traces of water (I washed it with hot water and I didn’t want drops of that in the spoon)
Used left hand to pick up meth shards and drop into spoon.
Used left hand to pick up glass ampoule and pour an appropriately small amount into spoon.
Used left hand to agitate spoon to make meth dissolve faster.
Used right hand to pick up filter and drop into solution.
Picked up syringe and loaded it through the filter.
Held syringe with left hand (pointing upwards) while alcohol swab pack is opened.
Used right hand to take the alcohol swab and swipe intended injection
area. I know my hand is not sterile at this point, but I used the
“other” surface of the swab ie not the one I was touching, so that
should be okay.
Used left hand to inject solution into right inner elbow.

It’s practically begging to be snapped. Go snap it! πŸ™‚

By the way, the reason I didn’t use a tourniquet is because I can
see my veins, so there isn’t a need for one. It does help though, so I
used one in third IV experience, for reasons I will explain later
because I have a feeling I’m going to digress again so I’m going to
focus. I think I got the medial cubital vein this time, I was aiming
for that and there’s only two veins I could see in my extreme inner
elbow (the part closest to me) so I went for the second one as the
picture in Getting Off Right shows. I still have shaky fingers though,
and I found that what really helped is taking a couple of deep breaths
and then resolutely position the syringe while steadying your hand with
the little finger against the arm you’re injecting into. Personally, it
was much easier to inject with my left hand into my right arm, even
though I’m right handed.

I also found that it’s better to IV into the veins that are closer
to your body, not only because they’re easy to spot, but because it
makes solo injection easier, due to the way you can steady your fingers
against the arm. My trip sitter is only there just in case something
bad happens. I do not feel comfortable at the thought of having someone
inject me, unless it’s a medical doctor or a nurse. :p I’ll much rather
do it myself, coz I have more control and can modify settings based on
sense cues and just for paranoid hypochondriac reasons, I don’t want
someone sticking a syringe into me, even though I prepared everything

You asked for it…

Anyway, this time I only needed two tries and although my trip
sitter isn’t going to be awarded Photographer of the Year anytime soon
(just kidding hehe!) he managed to get some decent photos out, but most
of those would not be posted and the ones that are will need liberal
use of the “Smudge” tool in Photoshop. I meant for them to be personal
memorabilia only anyway, so the unmodified form are staying in my photo
archives. I have photos of myself in the act of
consuming/insufflating/injecting most substances, and while they are
for my own viewing only, I do sometimes wonder if keeping that is a
wise idea. While I don’t think anyone would bother to hack my box (my
net connection is always on), the possibility of that happening (remote
as it can be) exists and the ramifications could be unpleasant.

I would not like my offspring seeing those photos and think that I’m
either condoning drug use or lose their respect for me. Do as I say,
not as I do. πŸ˜‰ Shh…but I also harbor grand thoughts for my future, so
I would not appreciate those photos coming back to haunt me when say,
I’m running in an election. Of course, I don’t think I’ll go into
politics, but the same applies to corporate culture, it would be
damaging photos, unless society’s views on drug use becomes more
tolerant, like the way alcohol is viewed now. πŸ™‚

See what I meant about digressing? I even bore myself sometimes.
Anyway, I found it easier this time, the first time I thought I got a
vein (it was visible and I stuck right into it) but the plunger test
did not produce blood, so I withdrew and stuck it in again on the same
vein, but higher up. I pulled the plunger back and *swoosh* (that what
I imagine the sound is like :)) blood entered the syringe body in a
beautiful way – coming up through the left side and hitting the top of
the liquid and swirling back down. Nice! I pushed the plunger and felt
the rush almost instantly. It’s going to sound clichΓ©, but I’ll have to
use the word “orgasm” as a point of reference since everyone knows how
an orgasm feels like so they can relate to it better. I pushed the
plunger and the meth went into my veins and I immediately felt a
“building up rush”, it actually feels like an orgasm building up, to
the “point of no return”, and I was so excited, that before the syringe
could be emptied, my hand jerked and yep, part of it was shot outside
the vein.

IV #2: Swelling when some of the solution was accidentally injected outside the vein towards the end.

I didn’t think much of it though, since the rush was much better
this time, more “tangible” if that makes sense. However, after that
subsided, I noticed that there was a bump forming at the needle entry
point. I put a warm (hot at first – ouch!) compress on it, but it the
swelling did not subside. I thought that it was going to form an
abscess, but it didn’t. The swelling went down after a few hours and
the only thing left was two very small red marks, which is barely
visible now, definitely much more successful than the first try’s
mutilation, which isn’t healing well. The marks are still here today
with not much difference in visibility. There seems to be a large
bruise around that area too, but I wouldn’t worry about it unless I get
any other signs that something is up.

IV meth #3

IV drugs is bloody business.

This one involved 70 mg and a minimal amount of water. It seems that
the least amount of water necessary should be used because that makes
the rush stronger. I did notice a stronger rush when I used less water,
but whether that is because more crystals were used or because the
solution was less diluted is not known. I’ll just quickly go through
this one…I prepared the shot as above but the saturated cotton rolled
onto the left side of my table which is the dirtiest part of the
room!!! This was right before I could draw the solution into the
syringe and it should be noted that my trip sitter protested (thank you
for your concern) but I put the meth saturated cotton back into the
spoon and drew the solution up again.

In hindsight I should have just drunk the solution. I had no filters
left except cigarette filters (Marlboro reds) and I’ve heard
contradictory reports on the safety of cigarette filters so, I
disregarded the fact that the filter just rolled into the dirtiest part
of the room and decided to bang it anyway. Yes, I am Responsible Use
personified. πŸ™ That was very unwise indeed and it is worrying me.
Anyway, I got the vein with just one try this time, using a tourniquet
really does help even if you can see the vein, because restricting the
blood flow makes the veins bulge so you can gauge how far to inject in.
Just remember to UNDO the tourniquet BEFORE injecting.

I didn’t tie myself up, but I used a quasi-tourniquet. I think this
is pretty handy, basically it works with any T-shirt (and maybe long
sleeved shirts too, but why would you be wearing that when you’re
injecting stuff?). I just bunched up one side of the sleeve (I find the
bottom is the best place), “collecting” all the cloth into the side and
grabbing it really tightly and then pull while continuing to “grab”
more material. When you’ve grabbed all you can (obviously, don’t grab
so hard that you rip your shirt unless that’s part of your plan), PULL
the bit down and keep on pulling. This works like a tourniquet too, it
constricts the blood at that point and makes the veins all bulge up.
Very nice. I got my trip sitter to hold the cloth till I registered a
vein, but you could probably do this solo if you wanted to.

I didn’t use that much water. My methods of removing the water (spirited agitating) just got it everywhere except the spoon.

Anyway, I inserted the needle and drew back, and yup, *swoosh*. πŸ˜‰ I
depressed the plunger and whoa, this was really too intense! The rush
was bordering on uncomfortable, but the stimulation was so intense that
I couldn’t find the right word to describe it. I looked at my trip
sitter and said (shouted) “Yee fucking ha, motherfuckers!!!”. =D No, I
wasn’t swearing at him, the tense isn’t right if that were the case.
Inappropriate as that sounds, that phrase suddenly came into my brain
(for reasons unknown since I have never said that for many, many years)
and I just HAD to say it. Guess what my trip sitter said? “You have a
wild look in your eyes.” Heh. I kid you not! Great guy. I proceeded to
listen to music REALLY loud and singing along (another substance
involved – see Synergies below) until the rush faded and some semblance
of decency returned to me. πŸ™‚

Anyway, I’m now more confident with IV drug administration and have
learnt quite a few things from the experience. 70 mg of crystal meth
was too much though, I saw a white/dark light soon after I injected it,
it feels like taking a really long blink in bright light. The dose was
very “fun” but I don’t like the idea of using meth just for goofing
off, I prefer to think of it as a “study/work drug”, and that IV dose
was just unnecessarily high for studying. I do need more than 70 mg
when insufflating though, but that doesn’t make it less cost effective,
since it lasts longer. Regarding injecting techniques I found that that
I have to stick the needle in quite far (about 3-5 cm) but this is done
at a very low angle. I did it at about 15 degrees, that’s a very wide
ballpark figure, since I basically eyeballed it. I just inserted the
needle at an angle which is produced by steadying my hand with the
smallest finger on the arm and slightly rising it to an angle that
“looks right”. The figures could be totally wrong as I forgot how much
a centimeter looks like, and it’s different for anyone anyway. I have
found my personal insertion values though, it gets easier with practice.

IV #3: Practice makes perfect. Neat and clean needle entry wounds.

Back to the Bad Stuff, I was worried about this shot because it
seems to be sore even after a long time. I noticed that my heart hurts
as well, but that’s pretty common for me on meth. I have hypertension
so these shenanigans should probably be avoided. That’s not what I’m
worried about though – it’s endocarditis [] (requires an operation to change the heart valve!) and septicemia
[] (bye). I have thought that IV drugs is pretty forgiving
since my first try involved needles and cotton that is not sterile and
yet nothing bad happened. However, it seems that some symptoms only
manifest itself after days or weeks. Now that third shot is definitely
dirty (dust, cigarette ash, food remnants etc), should I be worried?
The more I read the more symptoms I see in myself. I would love input from experienced IV users.


N2O + meth = INTENSE!


Still inhaling…

I inhaled a cartridge and half of nitrous (approximate – filled
balloon with two cartridges and managed to inhale 3/4 before my meth
assisted increased perceived lung prowess quit) while still feeling the
rush of meth. Wow! Jesus Christ, that really is something! The nitrous
sound distortions are much intensified, hey sounds like “HEY HEY HEY
HEY HEY” from the wrong direction. It was bizarre and slightly
disturbing. It lasts much longer and intensifies the body high too. You
know that buzz your whole body gets on meth? Nangs make it much more
noticeable that even sitting felt too intense! The contact of my ass
with the chair was buzzing, the sensors were triggering! Nitrous oxide
goes so well with the meth rush (and even after the rush) that I feared
the two is contraindicated and thought I would stay in nangland forever
from brain damage! No, I didn’t check beforehand, I seem to be getting
irresponsible and impulsive as of late – definitely something I need to
reflect on. Lose respect for drugs, and they tend to fuck you up.

The comedown:

Anyway, that is something that I need to think about personally,
here’s what I typed during the comedown later that night when I had
cannabis, salvia (finally got something out of it! :)), nitrous,
benzodiazepines and alcohol. The file was found on the desktop today
and was entitled (of all things) “very intportant .txt”:

on the 5 ccombo coming off meth, actually just tweaked 4 hrs ago, ad
ten took 2 g clona plus a benzos i can’t tell. not allowed to say. but
i haven’t had food for 3 days. eveyrthing hit me, nearly forgot the
neighrbour is making scart clanging clanging noise lik about to make a
complaint. my bong PACKED FULL OF SALVIA tipped over, fuck!!! that was
the last bit i wantewd a huge one evern thoguh i’m farly fucked up
reite now already! heheheheheheh!
oh ya i keep om forgetting stuff, i wanted to tell yo usth but i forgot
i doulbt i can act sober rite npw too and damn ineed to reheat my food.
oh i suddden;ly remembered watned to tell you salvia5x extract is
sticky. πŸ™‚
hmm i can’t find my balloong for n2o and found it hiding under cannabis
sherrederm the cardi keep all my shredded weed on, i suually shread
enough for anite only though, i keep on forgetting thins so no point to
correct spelling . oh ya scrolled back and found that i was supped to
tell you the missing balllong for n2s was hiding under the card i shred
mj on, the card is nifty greeting card, i usually shred enough for a
day or two max


i burned my thumb quite badly (blisters) while smoking salvia coz i
wanted to take a huge fucking ass hit and didn’t realize until 30 sec
later that the flame is flickering into my head. i saw a dead woman
(but not scart’s face and head seleeping on my pillow i burt my hand
just now coz the lighter was under it and all my reactions s lowed so i
dunno until my brain says “says ouch” our brian controls us instead of
the other way round. show them burnt hand pic
pics will not be good quality coz bvery blur now and can’t be bothered taking pics
ohj i know why it buned me now its coz when i dun inhale the flame is
directly burning my hand, duh so stupid and didn’t realize it and now i
will have blisters on my thumb, wanted to smoke everything out of that
bowl. alll the salvia i mean, coz you can predict was i’m going to say
and suggest it to me
ie just burn the flamer, i amd so out of it now
not seconds later i just had this convo with my friend:

Friend (11:18 PM) :
wanna go 2 maccas at 12 later?
veritas (11:21 PM) :
ah sorry i am terrible so much out of it that i cannot evyerhting is a blur and filled with red spots now bizzare
veritas (11:21 PM) :
would love to eat though
but cna’t present myself to the public with all this red spots, very consistant, covers whole viewfield i’m seeing
veritas (11:21 PM) :
sorry dude
Friend (11:22 PM) :
hahaha alrite dude!
veritas (11:22 PM) :
see ya later buddy
hafve a nice good eat for me at maccas
Friend (11:22 PM) :
haha have a nice time too
veritas (11:22 PM) :
yeah lasst break b4 serious study have to be dome
Friend (11:23 PM) :
beter get some studying done
veritas (11:25 PM) :
gohgta study too
good luckl mate!
Friend (11:25 PM) :
good luck too!
veritas (11:25 PM) :
thanks buddy

bizzare as man and one of the catridges are duds
damn now i only have one left
i thought this was icq coz got ppl talking to me right now and i press
controk plus s to send and thought hmm how come nothing happen and dudh
reakuzed i amm= in notepate
bye see ya


very biaaaro conversation i felt quite a lot of things now and oh
the bulk was alright after all, i think it just needs to be pierced
harder i am so sleepy now oh got a depression at the n20 catrg head and
it wasn’t broken, just “pressed into and the someone msg me and
confused me yes just pressed ito it but not breakng it and the
bulburater confused me so hard i dunno how to work it out yet typing is
like second nater. was planning t osleep now aftre days of no sleep. πŸ™‚
man i lost the fcraker top and found it in all places a pizza box


i am seriously tihinking wat the neo whao this is the fucking best
fmost fucking barrae!!!! fcikiung seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!! ui am like
numb all ove and everttguing is red and i feel like i am center of
universe of a place with no people , so i fly in solitute sadly over a
city of no peaople
luckily i saw this last post, i mean i was seriously thinking wat the
neighbour must think of the strange noises coming from my room. first
the bong sound of partkating in mj , and that sound is quite
distinctinve wit ha bong, and then sounds for forced inhaling and
holging it in for a long time for the nos, reli gave a twist on
everything, remind me to tell you that n20 is fucking awesoe on
meth!!!! like you’re having an orgasasm but even better coz this
includet the ENTIRE body!!!
shit i think i lsot hte plot, i mean i wonder wat the neigh will think
of the strange noise, mhj smoking with a bong, a very distrinctive
sound, and the forced inhaling from balllons and breathing back for
recycling really loud and it must sound like someone is needing medical
attn and the doors did shut and close hmm oh ya one final post, the
“dud” catrdige is not dud after all, just need to apply harder than
usual pressure. okay -end-
n i forgot typiny w 1 ha nd now forgot about, oops myt ballooniis
leaking gas i meab wat da neigh will think at the disctinctive sounds
of nitrous relasing from a cracker, the fillng of ballong and me
inhaling it but oh well ,reli hungry now and gonna heat up my meal
mmm…this is the first solid food in 3 days and i prep multivite
already (it is in front of me at the kb) so i’ll eat now bye everyone!

Everything is left intact and unedited, except for the chat log
(only names have been replaced) and the three photos are not part of
the original file. I think it was the nitrous oxide and salvia
divinorum that made me incoherent since I’ve had the other 3 together
plenty of times before during meth comedowns and they never made me
sprout such retarded stuff. πŸ™‚ I just lost the plot over there.

Related: Meth IV Part I []

“How to make a cracker” by CT


This is written by CT:

OK Guys,
This Is Easy Peasy, follow me:

1. Get one bulb, take it to Bunnings. Go to the plumbing section and find the copper fitings the look like those in the photos.
2. Find a Cap like the bit that unscrews (make sure its just the right size for the bulb to fit in)
3. Find the “middle bit” from the photos here (male to male adapter)
make sure its the same size as the cap so they screw into one another.
(also check the bulb fits into this snug (not so snug that it doesnt
have a little clearance on the sides).
4.Finde a “Male to Male” reducer (the bit on the end in the photo) this
should fit the bulb in it at one side but reduce to a smaller size at
the other end.
5. Now buy some nice sturdy screws with wide bottoms (the bit you stick a skrew driver into) make sure they are not to long
5. Buy some epoxy glue (you know it looks like a double syringe) Also some plumbers tape (the white stuff in the photos.
6.Put a screw in the base of the cap, put a bulb in the tube (male to
male addapter) like the screw up so that it consides with the part of
the bulb that you need to pierce. NOW DO NOT MOVE IT (blue tac helps
here) Now get your epoxy and fill the cap about half up with it. BE
VERY CAREFULL not to get the glue on the thread of the upper half of
the cap or you will reck the cap and need to get another.
7. Let this dry.
8. Get some wire (reasonable thick) and twist into a circle. Cut half
this so you have a half circle of wire (maybe even just cut a quarter
of the wire.
9. Force this down the male to male reducer (it allows the gas to pass
the end of the bulb. (i realy need pictures here, will talk to veritas)
10. Once dry you have a working cracer. “The Nanganator 3000” heheheh

Thanks for all the comments regarding my first time IV use. I’ll
reply everyone when I get back, I need to do something now. I’ll also
write Part II (of course there’s a sequel ;)) later – stay tuned! πŸ™‚

The Weblog Review – minishorts@urban-flirt

Original review for The Weblog Review here: minishorts@urban-flirt [].



Before I begin this review, I have to state that minishorts is a blog I have been reading
regularly for quite a while, and the owner is on my ICQ contact list. That being said,
I’ll try to offer a review that’s as unbiased as possible, and one that may offer
additional insight into the site which is afforded by knowing the author. Minishorts
has been online since September 2002 and the first post involves three pieces of
poetry which the author wrote. I particularly enjoyed the one entitled “Dearest
Mother” which manages to be touching without being clichΓ©d.

The weblog is a mix of the author’s thoughts about everything and also her
personal issues, with occasional posts which provides a very intimate view into the
author’s life. An example of this is the January 14th 2003 post which has pictures of
her bedroom, complete with photos of the bed, her wardrobe (with clothes) and the
author herself. Minishorts is a 23 year old Chinese Malaysian doing her Masters in
Linguistics and the blog is representative of what personal weblogs in Malaysia are
all about. The author aspires to be a writer and she occasionally posts bits of
ongoing stories in the blog.

The entries are updated consistently, and the author manages to post even while
on vacation in Hong Kong, using the hotel’s business center’s net connection. The
posts have a nice smattering of photos at appropriate intervals and this manages to
prevent the monotony in reading an all-text blog and provides a window into the
author’s world. There are plenty of pictures of the author’s and her friends and one
can’t help but feel like they’re with the author as she goes through her life. There are
photos of her trips, her convocation and so forth and reading the blog feels like
watching one of those time delayed footage of a plant going through the growth
process of a bud to a flower. This and the always entertaining posts is what keeps me
going back for more.

The design of the site has recently been changed into one featuring a Matrix
layout, with a non-standard horizontal scroll bar. The content of the blog is featured
in a window of the left side, followed by a large Neo, and leading into the tagboard.
The tagboard is dynamically replaced by things like minishort’s bio, links, credits
and so forth when one of the navigation buttons is clicked. However, the links are
images which doesn’t provide anything to suggest where it leads to, except when the
hover text comes up. This “mystery meat” navigation does not seem to be a good
design strategy.

Someone pointed out in an email that there are essentially two kinds of weblogs
– the personal ones and the ones that provide social commentary on current issues
and news. This blog belongs to the first group and if you like those, you’ll love
minishorts. If you don’t, well I guess you won’t, but click on the link anyway and
see if the site will change your mind. I’m giving it a 4.5 because I honestly think it’s
a very interesting site. This would be interesting for you too if you’ll like a voyeuristic
look into the life of a 23 year old in Malaysia.

This site was reviewed on 2003-06-14 by sixthseal.
They felt this site belonged in the Personal category.
sixthseal felt that minishorts@urban-flirt deserved a rating of 4.5

Link to site: minishorts@urban-flirt [].

The link is on the sidebar too.

Intravenous injection (IV) methamphetamine

veritas Meth IV – mainlining

This is my first time injecting a drug. I once said that I would try
everything once – except needles. Syringes and IV drug users seem to
have a bad reputation even amongst recreational drug users. It would be
funny if it didn’t sound slightly hypocritical. However, I have
absolutely no right to pass judgment as I previously subscribed to the
“everything except injecting” school of thought too. What happened? I
can honestly say that it’s the pursuit of knowledge and experience in
my favorite past time that lead me to experimentation with IV
administration of recreational substances.

Remember, possession of an illicit substance remains illegal

I have been thinking about this for a while and the catalyst was S
(not her real name) – talking to her finally got me determined to IV
something before I head home. Cross out one of the “Things To Do Before
I Leave Melbourne List” items, there’s only 5 left now (the last one is
the mega mega super duper ultra drug binge to end all drug binges –
stay tuned!) . πŸ˜‰ It’s easy to get syringes and other paraphernalia
here – they’re all sold over the counter at pharmacies. Most pharmacies
also stock “fit kits”, a pack containing everything that is necessary
for safer IV drug user – syringes, filters, sterile water, antiseptic
wipes and a disposal container for used syringes. It’s harm reduction,
a good practice to avoid the unnecessary and totally avoidable health
issues that tends to manifest itself when clean, cheap injecting
equipment is not available.


Unfortunately, Malaysia seems to have adopted the opposite stance –
syringes are not freely available, leading to drug users reusing dirty
syringes and causing the transmission of disease through this vector.
Sharing used syringes leads to the transmission of blood borne diseases
and this can easily be avoided by providing new syringes to everyone,
but no…the current legislation keeps those things out of the hands of
drug users, leading to a stigma associated with IV use. The parliament
seems intent to concatenate a H to IV drug use by barring the users
from access to clean equipment. It’s really sad that the government
back home does not think this is a good preventive measure in the
interests of public health. Anyway, ever since the chat with S,
I’ve been reading up and researching about intravenous drug use and
finally decided on two substances – IV meth and IM ketamine.

The high grade methamphetamine crystals

I have since decided not to IM (intramuscular injection) ketamine,
after receiving advice that doing that with street ketamine powder will
likely result in abscesses. I have access to pharmaceutical grade
ketamine in vials, but the price is prohibiting, so that leaves IV
(intravenous injection) methamphetamine. I was looking into syringe
driven micron filters
[] (also called wheel filters, pill filters) – these are
devices that filter out the impurities and bacteria that tends to call
recreational substances home. However, these things aren’t cheap and
they’re single use only, plus I have to travel quite a distance to the
nearest place that stocks them (normal pharmacies do not carry
specialty injecting equipment) so I didn’t obtain the filters –
justifying that the crystal meth I get is about as pure as it gets.


Anyway, I went to the local chemist today and bought a “sharps kit”
for A$5 in preparation for my IV adventures. The kit contains:


5 x 1 ml Terumo U-100 single use insulin syringes (29G)


29 gauge – all the better to prick you with. πŸ˜‰ A larger gauge
number means the needle diameter is smaller, so a 19G needle is thicker
than a 29G needle, which is in turn thicker than a 30G needle.

5 x antiseptic wipes



These are alcohol swabs – contains isopropyl alcohol

10 ml “Water for Injections BP” in a nice plastic bottle


Pharmacia & Upjohn branded sterile water. I feel so spoilt. πŸ˜‰

3 x cotton filters


What is the logic behind this??? 5 syringes and 3 filters? Reusing filters is not a good practice!

1 x mini sharps container

Biohazard – Sharps Bin


This is a container you put used needles in for disposal. Do not
reuse syringes! Do not share syringes or equipment! That holds true
even with yourself ie don’t reuse your own syringe too. Anyway, this
container is very nifty. I thought the design was odd at the beginning
since I had to push hard to get the syringe’s “wings” into the disposal
container. After a while, it just hit me (yes, I’m slow) that the
design is intentional, it’s to avoid syringes from falling out from the
disposal container, that isn’t possible because the “wings” are too big
to come through without some pushing from the other end, and the other
end is sealed! Thoughtful design, makes it less of a safety concern.

Used syringes can’t fall out

This is a great pack for just A$5 – it has everything you need
(except for micron filters, but that’s nitpicking) for safer injecting
of drugs and I think it’s something all countries need to have. A lot
of the serious health issues surrounding IV use can be totally
prevented if users have access to these equipment. Personally, I don’t
understand how some IV users can bear to share and use dirty equipment
– the same way I can’t understand how some people can go to brothels
and have sex with prostitutes. I’ll tell you the truth, I’m
hypochondriac and I would never risk contracting a disease, so the
patterns of thought these people seem to have is foreign and
interesting (in a morbid way) to me.

Classic 90 degree spoon for preparing the shot. I just bent the handle.

But then again, some people would think the same way about me and my
recreational drug use, which may seem self-destructive and risky to
them. This is an interesting issue if you think about it, everyone has
different ideas about what constitutes risky behavior and nothing would
change their minds. I realize the futility in getting an anti-drug
person to look at the issue from my point of view – the same way that
no one can ever convince me to go to a brothel because the risk is
unacceptable to me. Punters can sprout all the logic and statistics
they want about the relative safety of condoms, but would I ever take
the risk? No, and nothing can change my mind. This is probably true for
the anti-drug people too. Will they ever see it from our point of view?
Probably not.

Meth crystals dissolving in sterile water – squint and you’ll see it

I’m sorry about digressing so far, but in my defense I have consumed
350 mg of meth in two days so I may be slightly talkative here.
Slightly. πŸ™‚ Anyway, back on topic, I see now that there’s no point in
trying to get anti-drug people to relax their hard stance…it just isn’t
possible. I used to think that this is because they are ignorant about
the facts concerning drug use, and that might be true in some cases,
but not all. Back to the analogy, am I aware of the safety data
regarding condoms? Yes. Would I take the risk? Never. I see that the
issue is not always one of ignorance, but of what we’re raised to fear.
I fear the diseases that can be transmitted through high risk sexual
intercourse, because I was born in the year HIV came into public
consciousness, so I will never take the risk nor will I ever see it
from their point of view. They fear the dangers (whatever that may be –
brain damage? overdose? who knows?) which comes with recreational drug
use, so they will never take the risk nor will they ever see it from my
point of view.

Cotton filter dropped in to absorb the solution

Okay, I’m done being Plato, I’m going back to the main post now.
Stop me if I digress again. πŸ™‚ Anyway, I decided to inject myself with
some crystal meth today. I have done much research before making the
jump and I suggest you do the same if you are considering this method
of administration, as the risks are greater than other routes of
consumption. I found that the best resource out there is this guide by
the Harm Reduction Coalition:

Getting Off Right – A Safety Manual for Injection Drug Users []

I suggest that you read everything in there since it is a very good
manual with balanced and unbiased facts about the risks of injecting
drugs. It has a whole chapter devoted to this, and I’ll be lying if I
said it didn’t give me pause when I first read it. Septicemia,
endocarditis, necrotizing fasciitis, wound botulism etc etc. This
manual really does give you all the facts straight out, no bullshit or
propaganda to color their agenda, and that gives it a lot of
credibility. Invaluable.

Drawing up the solution through the cotton filter into the syringe

Anyway, after reading through the manual several times, I compiled a
list of techniques which would provide the safest way for me to
administer crystal meth intravenously. Here’s the information I


Disclaimer: This is a FIRST TIME INJECTING user’s account of
his experience. I am NOT experienced at all in this route of
administration and the methods I use might be totally wrong and
dangerous. I’m only documenting my experience and I’m NOT experienced
enough to give advise. This is just a compilation of techniques I’ve
researched about and used myself. It is NOT ADVICE so don’t treat it as
such. I say again that the methods I’m using could be WRONG and
DANGEROUS. Please don’t inject anything until you’ve sufficiently
researched the subject and analyzed the risks involved.

Use the alcohol swab to swipe ONCE and ONCE ONLY. The reason behind
this is that if you keep swabbing around in circles (like I planned to
do) is you’ll be moving any bacteria around and around so it’ll still
be on the point of penetration. Swiping ONCE is what I’ve read to be
the best way.

Use alcohol to sterilize your fingers before you touch anything!
That includes the spoon, the filters (don’t roll the cotton
beforehand), the syringe etc.

Get “sterile, medical grade” cotton. Make sure that the first filter
(cotton filter) is rolled up in a tight ball. I read that this makes it
more efficient in filtering.

Methamphetamine dissolves easily in water. I’ve read that heating
the substance increases the chance that the cuts will be dissolved, so
don’t heat it, just wait for it to dissolve or use the “cold shake”

Sterile water ampoules only! This can be bought at most pharmacies,
they will sell it to you no questions asked. The same goes for
syringes, so there’s no excuse for not using a new syringe each time,
even with yourself!

PRACTISE FIRST! I stuck myself with the syringe several times and
practiced drawing back to check if I’ve hit a vein. You can also
experiment with injecting sterile water to get the technique right. DO
NOT reuse the syringe even though you’re just practicing on yourself.
You can introduce bacteria and other things if you reuse syringes.
Syringes are designed for single use only. Needless to say it’s FUCKING
STUPID to share syringes. If you can afford the drugs, you can afford
the syringes!

Vein = blood when you draw slightly back.
Artery = gush of blood when you insert the syringe. DO NOT PROCEED!

Check the barrel of the syringe to see if there are any visible
particles. Do not proceed if you see anything visible to the naked eye,
either re-filter or drink the shot. :p

Inject in arms only (safest site) and direct the needle TOWARDS your
heart (not away from it, like in the movies). The needle should have
the bevel opening facing up, inject at the correct angle and site –
refer to GOR.

Try to remove all air bubbles from the barrel of the syringe before injecting.


I thought I was prepared. I didn’t realize that IV is much harder
than it seems! It’s not as easy as sticking the syringe into your arm
and depressing the plunger. You can see the visible track marks of my
unsuccessful attempts in the photos below. I was at a loss regarding
the injection site since every single vein seems to have been punctured
and I harbor a superstitious thought that injecting in that one will
result in the solution squirting out again at the previous puncture
wound. Heh. I know, I know, it sounds silly, and experienced IV users
will be tempted to laugh at my superstitions, but everyone was new
once. πŸ˜‰


Anyway, my first time was riddled with mishaps and other
entertaining (to you, but unfortunately not to me) shenanigans and I
ended up disregarding the safety framework that I had planned. Please,
do not do what I did, I’m just documenting my first experience with IV
drug use, which involved a lot of unwise decisions. The first one is
the lack of a trip sitter. I had arranged for CT to trip sit
me, but that will have to take place at my room, where there would
inevitably be incriminating conversation going on, which might be
overhead by the neighbors (damn those thin walls) and could result in
unwanted consequences.


Thus, I decided to go on this quest alone, which in hindsight was a
very stupid thing to do, but at least there were some safeguards in
place ie I was going to meet him in an hour so it wasn’t totally stupid
of me. I guess this is what tends to happen with illegal substances –
sometimes the fear of being legally prosecuted is greater than the
thought of any possible threat to self due to unsupervised first time
IV use. The thing I was worried about was not an overdose or unexpected
reaction, but the possibility of a neighbor overhearing our
conversation and possibly reporting it, resulting in a conviction just
2 weeks before I’m due to leave Melbourne for good. That would be
terrible indeed! I have been lucky so far, and I hope it doesn’t run
out before I leave.


That said, the second unwise thing I did was to disregard all
sanitary precautions after the first few unsuccessful attempts. I’m not
afraid of needles, so I feel comfortable sticking it into my flesh, but
that doesn’t mean I’m not nervous since it’s my first time. My hands
were shaking, and that resulted in a lot of aborted injections eg
sticking the needle in and then withdrawing it accidentally again due
to trembling hands. The first time I attempted to inject, I realized
that I had totally forgotten about the alcohol swabs! The needle was
already in my skin, so there’s nothing much that could be done by then.


I had a bit of trouble even before that due to my inexperience with
syringes. I had a lot of trouble drawing up liquid into the syringe and
was puzzled by this lack of pressure despite the insistent plunger
manipulation I was doing. Well guess what? I stuck the needle through
the cotton instead of into it. I didn’t even realize this and kept
puzzling over the plunger until I thought it was broken and opened up a
new syringe to try again, with the same results. Duh! I only realized
the mistake when I touched the cotton (wet so it’s not the source of
the problem) and saw the needle sticking THROUGH the cotton. I overshot
the mark, no wonder I wasn’t getting any liquid into the syringe body.


I find that the cotton does steal quite a bit of meth solution too.
The amount I drew into the syringe is inconsistent with the amount I
put into the spoon. The first time I put 4 largeish crystal meth shards
into the spoon and dropped a small amount of sterile water onto it. I
did not heat up the solution, since meth dissolves readily in water. I
only had to shake the spoon around a bit to make it dissolve faster
since I did not crush up the crystals (didn’t want to introduce
impurities) beforehand. Meth = very water soluble though, and the
crystals dissolve readily. However, the solution I drew up into the
syringe isn’t as much as I put in and I had to keep adding drops of
water to the cotton to make the syringe draw more liquid. There seems
to be a certain saturation point though, where the syringe will only
get more air and the remaining moisture of the cotton could not be
recovered this way so I, ah…ate it. It’s not poisonous (I hope) and it
would be a waste to throw away a still moist cotton so, yeah I just
chased it down with some Ural and water. :p


Anyway, the first few attempts to locate a vein were not easy. I
could see the veins, and I could insert the needle into it, but the
needle always came out when I pulled the plunger back due to my
unsteady hands. I have to pull the plunger to confirm that I’m in a
vein, there would be blood flowing into the barrel if I was and I
needed that visual confirmation. Every single time I pulled back the
plunger, the needle came out as well. I changed the syringe every time
that happened to avoid blunt needles, but I was down to the last two
and I couldn’t be bothered anymore. I just wanted to hit a vein, bang
it and get it over with!

Increasing number of puncture wounds

It was easier said than done though, due to my shaky hands (nerves,
nerves). By the end of the session, I had 8 large puncture wounds and 6
smaller ones. It wasn’t the pain that bothered me, I don’t feel much
pain at all since I think I have a fairly high pain threshold. It was
the damned frustration at consistently fucking up every shot. I had
thought IV was a simple matter of finding a vein, sticking the syringe
in and pushing the plunger. It wasn’t so. I spent half and hour
changing syringes at first, draining the solution back into the spoon
and loading another syringe up for a new try, taking care to use the
alcohol swabs, but by the end of it, I was ready to give up and just
wanted to HIT A VEIN, WHY IS IT SO HARD?!?!?


I missed a shot too, due to my impatience. I was terribly frustrated
at this tediousness and decided to push the plunger anyway, no need for
confirmation. I picked a vein, stuck the syringe in and pushed. Ouch!
No rush, but the skin surrounding the area swelled up. Fuck, I missed
the vein and wasted the shot. I was very pissed off at this point since
I was angry at my inaptitude at doing something that seems to be easy
in theory. I rubbed the swelling site as S recommended, but
that did not reduce the swelling. I didn’t want to touch the open wound
with my fingers too, since by this time, all precautions to maintain
sterility has been abandoned and my hands were bound to be dirty since
I was handling other things as well (like the digicam). Being an Eczema patient myself and getting nummular eczema treatment for past few years, I was too scary on this but I controlled my emotions on that moment.


I was getting very frustrated and regretted not having CT
come over and trip sit me, because that would leave both my hands free
and clean since I won’t have to touch the digicam in my attempts to
document my first experience. However, the missed shot made me all the
more determined to hit a vein and I prepared another solution for
injecting. It should be noted that even though I missed the vein, I did
feel the meth from the missed shot. There isn’t a “rush” but I was
noticeably getting tweaked after a while, it seems that meth is active
when administered via injection by “skin popping” too.


The tweaked condition didn’t help with the shaky hands, if anything
it made it worse, but it did make me more focused and resolute in
getting an IV shot into me. I will tell you some of the hygienic
precautions that were discarded at this point. I won’t even pretend
that the syringe is sterile anymore, and neither is it sharp, since
several failed penetrations have been made and I accidentally hit the
bottom of the spoon with the tip when I drew the solution into the
barrel. The shot was definitely not sterile because:

The needle went through my shirt (!) by accident
I wish I was kidding. I only had one syringe left at this point so I
had to pretend I didn’t notice this happened. The incident occurred
when I reached for the sterile water to add to the cotton. I somehow
managed to stick the needle through the right hand side of my shirt
while fumbling with the water. It didn’t pierce my body, but just went
through the front of the shirt and penetrated out the back. Okay…I’ll
just forget that happened, ho hum. *cough* Yeah, I did proceed with the
injection with the very same needle. Please don’t do this.

The needle dragged on a chair (…)
Yes, this is the same needle that got the shirt treatment. I’ll give
away a spoiler here, the needle is also the same one I managed to
successfully hit a vein and bang that shit. πŸ˜‰ Whatever ramifications
this will produce, I will find out tomorrow, but currently, the
puncture wounds are swollen and they seem to be painful when touched.
Anyway, the needle dragged over my chair while fumbling with a spoon.
It made a screeching sound too, so even though I could pretend I didn’t
see that happen, I couldn’t pretend I didn’t hear it. But I was very
frustrated at this point and thought “Fuck it, no one sits in this
chair except me anyway”. Welcome E.coli.

The cotton fell off the spoon and rolled onto the chair
Despite my articulate attempts to bend the spoon so that it can remain
erect on a surface without any aid, the laws of gravity got the better
of me and the spoon tipped to the side and the cotton rolled onto the
chair surface. Luckily, the solution has been absorbed by the cotton so
no spillage occurred, but the wet cotton was certainly not sterile
anymore. I did not really care at this point since the needle wasn’t
sterile anyway, so I just noted that it rolled onto the surface of the
chair, nonchalantly put it back and drew up the solution like nothing
out of the ordinary happened. :p

Not very pretty, that’s for sure

However, this syringe was the lucky one. 10 units (0.1 ml) of
solution was inside the chamber, with a very large air bubble, which I
could not manage to dislodge despite my best attempts. I shook it, I
tapped it, I turned the syringe upside down, I even squirted some
solution out and refilled the chamber, but nope, the air bubble insists
on being there. Oh well, the “air bubble causes pulmonary
embolism/stroke” is a myth anyway, so on with the show, I said. Please
don’t quote me on this, it’s just something I remembered reading on
bluelight, and I don’t know if it’s a fact or it really is a myth, but
I’m still very much alive if that tells you anything. I think it’s an
unsafe practice though, so read up on it before you decide whether or
not this poses a significant risk.

Preparing the shot

Hmm…is anyone still with me? This is getting very long. I appreciate
you reading so far, thanks for sharing my experience. πŸ™‚ Anyway, this
one is the lucky syringe, I finally managed to enter a vein and pulled
the plunger back without the needle falling out. I think it was either
the Medial Cubital Vein or the Basilic Vein. I pulled the plunger back
and I was elated to see a flush of blood entering the chamber! This is
it! I’ve hit the vein and the needle is still firmly in, the bevel
opening is facing upwards and I’m injecting towards my heart. The stars

The shot that finally hit a vein! The angle is wrong, I injected the
syringe towards me, but it shifted to the side when I finished
injecting and moved my hand away to take a photo before drawing the
needle out. Look at the bottom of the syringe barrel – there’s some
blood clotted there. That’s my visual confirmation – I pulled the
plunger back, blood flooded in. We have a vein! πŸ™‚

I took a deep breath and pushed the plunger slowly but smoothly,
emptying it in about 3 seconds. What does IV meth feel like? It felt
like a slap in the face. πŸ™‚ I have been tweaking for two days and had
consumed 1/4 gram of meth the night before, and this shot couldn’t have
been more than 50 mg maximum (crystal meth) but it hit me alright. I
was desensitized (as one tends to get) after the previous night’s
tweaking, but fuiyoh, the rush! The rush from IV meth! I felt
like I was being reanimated! I would say that the amount is too much,
because I think my brain nearly exploded. πŸ™‚

My blood clotting on the needle bevel

It feels like…a slap in the face in the middle of an orgasm. ClichΓ©d as it sounds, the rush is a real rush.
It felt like the first time I had insufflated a really big line of
meth, it hit me like a ton of bricks and I was dizzy for a while. It
was worth every puncture wound I made throughout the night, this
experience is something that needs to be experienced to appreciate. Did
I just make a personal demon (I love meth) even stronger? Would I end
up in poverty and die all alone in the cold, cold streets of Melbourne?

Well, no. I loved the rush, it’s fucking amazing and this is one of
the rare times when profanity is justified and even required to enlist
as a potentiating adjective. πŸ™‚ What I did not like was the
duration…what a waste! I would say I was tweaked (my scale might differ
from yours) for 3 hours. Insufflating usually lasts 6 hours for me and
oral meth with alkalanizers can provide me with the mental stimulation
I crave for 10 hours (albeit a lot is required for oral use). The
disappointing duration (but the rush exceeds my expectations :))
together with the fact that my left arm is a fucking mess would not
make this method a favorite with me. The swelling has since gone down
after a warm compress was applied but the puncture wounds are still
very much visible and probably would not heal until a couple of days
has passed. I was afraid that the sterility issues would produce an
abscess which would require medical attention, but it seems that the
worries are unjustified. I checked again and it seems that the healing
process is proceeding nicely, though a bit too slow for my liking.
Hmm…does anyone notice that I have fits of “old skool” type sentences
once in a while? I blame that on H.P. Lovecraft, it’s all I’ve been
reading on my commute lately.


Anyway, I have put two Band-Aids over the puncture wounds, which I got from CT, many thanks for that. CT
has never failed to be helpful and he’s a great friend indeed and at
the risk of sounding not completely hetero (not that there’s anything
wrong with that), I would miss him when I go back because it’s not easy
to find someone that shares the same interests and is a nice guy to
boot. I sure have learnt a lot from him and we’re currently working on
probably the last collaborative project (Codename: Project M.C.) before
I go back. Project M.C. is top secret, off the record, on the QT and
very hush hush so I will not be blogging about it. I will be writing it
for a personal archive, and I will post that once the “statute of
limitations” pass. That has been agreed to be 3 years, so if you really
want to know, remind me to post about Project M.C. today in 2006. I
assure you it will be an interesting read. πŸ˜‰

Well, back on topic, I would try IV meth again when my wounds heal,
maybe once or twice max. It’s not that I’m scared of the potentially
all too lovable rush that IV meth provides, the rush is good, hell,
it’s fucking great, but the hassle involved in preparing the shot and
the short duration (dammit) would not make this method appealing for
me. Two minutes of feeling like God and 3 hours of feeling like a
Saint. That is my experience with IV meth. Insufflation gives me 5
minutes of Demi-God status and 6 hours of Sainthood. I would go choose
the latter over the former.

Besides, I’ll have a lot of explaining to do if the track marks from
my amateur jabbings do not heal as quickly as I hope it will. πŸ˜‰

P/S – Part II of methamphetamine IV here [].

Lies, damn lies and drug vilification

Erimin (nimetazepam) packaging – front

This ill researched, sensationalist tabloid story here is another
example of how the media is contributing to the bad image recreational
drug users have to put up with. I will not link it – not because we’re
competing for SERPs on “Erimin” (I don’t compete for keywords, I just
try to get mine out there), but because it’s pure, steaming bullshit.
The article is about Erimin-5 pills, but it is written more to
sensationalize than to provide concise facts. What do you expect from a
tabloid? I mean for fucks sake, do you really need to put caps in the
title? Does that really sensationalize the thrashy “article” all that

Erimin (nimetazepam) packaging – back

Just so you can check it out, here’s the link (start from http and paste every other line, including the numbers until html), you have to do a bit of cut and pasting coz I do not link to poorly researched anti-drug propaganda:
Hello, I’m Joycelyn Wong.
I do not know much about benzodiazepines.
but I’ll like to write an article about it anyway.
because you know, I have a Phd. in Sensationalist Writing (Applied Tabloids)
and my research was on How to Sample a Population 101
It’s not that hard really, just pick (or invent) some random guys
called Nicky and Ryan and get them to make sweeping statements and pass
on personal experiences as fact.

No, there is no room for words such as “may”, “seems”, “feel”. Those
words leave room for alternative views! They are bad! My doctorate
taught me that it’s much more effective to pass off opinions as facts.
Fuck the truth, no room for that here, people want to hear about third
hand “experiences” (the more sensationalist the better!) like “addicts
stealing from a shop” coz we all know that drug users are fucking scum,
they are liars, they are thieves and they are no better than dogs. No,
we won’t be touching any of that stuff. Now, let us have promiscuous
unprotected sex and pass HIV around because sex is good and drugs are
bad, mmmkay? Mmmkay.

Flunitrazepam = bad

Dangerous substances like flunitrazepam should be avoided, okay!
They have been found in the fake Erimin-5 pills and they can make you
unconscious, and I must bring up the date rape issue, because we all
know that drug users do that! Evil corrupt fucks! Stay away from the
dirty junkies, hang out with the frat boys and the pretentious clubbers
because they won’t do that to you. No, not them, they’re the Good Guys.

Be careful of benzos okay! They cause convulsions!!! What?
Benzodiazepines have anticonvulsant activity? They are marketed as
anti-epileptics? I see…so it’s withdrawal after long term benzo
therapy that may cause convulsions, oops I got it the other way round.
My bad. I don’t know anything about that, I didn’t do any research
actually…shh! I don’t even know that Upjohn is a pharmaceuticals
company, I thought it was a drug name. What’s that? Upjohn merged with
Pharmacia and the merged company got acquired by Pfizer? I don’t really
care about all that, it’s just history. But hmm…isn’t Pfizer the one
that made Viagra? Now that I know, that’s good stuff indeed. Benzo =
bad, sildenafil = good. You know…I thought the imprint is the drug
name! Hmm…there are many benzos out there with the Upjohn imprint you
say? You’re confusing me, please stop, I only know that drugs are bad,
mmmkay??? Mmmkay!

The Famous Five (by Enid Blyton)

Benzodiazepines cause hallucinations too!!! Yes, full blown
opened eye visuals, I’m not fucking kidding you, they are bad ok! Ricky
told me so. Er…I mean Nicky. That’s what I wrote in the tabloid article
right? *double checks* Yeah, Brian told me so, oh sorry, I mean Ryan.
Note to self: Keep the names consistent. Okay, now I’m going to write
about Death! Dr Brian Yeo, who is a well respected general
practitioner, says that nimetazepam causes DEATH (!!!) when taken in
large amounts. He’s a doctor so he’s always right.

What? The Merck Index says nimetazepam has an oral LD50 of 750mg/kg
for mice and 970mg/kg for rats? Who the fuck is Merck? Come to think of
it, what is the highest dose per tablet for Erimin-5? 5 mg of
nimetazepam is the strongest preparation you say? Humans seem to have a higher LD50 than mice/rats on benzodiazepines
[], but just for statistical purposes, let us assume the LD50
for mice is the LD50 for humans. Now then…that hypothetical human (as
unfortunately benzodiazepines are very safe when taken alone even at
high doses) would have to take 150 tablets at once to have a 50% chance
of dying.

[Edit: Curse my poor math…why didn’t a more gifted
person pick this up? :p A human would need much more than that, since
it’s 750 mg per kg, so following the mice LD50, a 60 kg person would need 9000 mg or 1,800 pills!
(I have mastered the art of selective use of bold for text too) If you
really have that much, please consider suicide using an alternative
method, since it would be quite painful to consume that many tablets at

That is assuming that the nimetazepam is all absorbed at once. Brian, did you skip one too many med school classes?

That is the Sumitomo Pharmaceuticals logo and their internal code – 028

Erimin is made by Sumitomo Pharmaceuticals []

This took a damn long time to search for, so please thank me. :p
I’ve always wondered who made Erimin, and information is scarce and
unreadable (Japanese) on the net. I’ve heard it attributed to Landsen
etc., I know it’s made in Japan, but I don’t exactly know who made
it…until today. Sumitomo don’t actually have nimetazepam or Erimin
listed in their products catalogue, but look at the Sumitomo logo and
look at the Erimin-5 pill. Mystery solved, feels good to get to the end
of this at last!

Anyway, the tabloid article isn’t without merit, as I did learn two
things today. That is assuming that this source can be trusted (and
that’s a very big assumption, when presented with the current data):
1. Flunitrazepam was taken off the market in Singapore in 1998.
2. My poor secluded state (or maybe it’s just me :p) is getting shafted with Erimin-5 prices.

The end of the article states that 55,000 Erimin 5 pills were seized
fairly recently, and the street value was quoted at S$440,000. That
means each pill is going for S$8, and we all know how the media and the
law enforcement elements like to inflate the “estimated street value”
of drugs, so let’s half that price to S$4. That’s RM 8 per pill and the
street price in my town is RM 15. I mean, I just heard and all, not
that I’ve been partaking in anything I don’t want do. <-Loaded
statement. Thankfully, diazepam is still RM 0.50/5 mg tablet and
alprazolam goes for RM 7.50/2.5 mg. Prices are from veritas and they
are OTC prices, unregulated pharmacies ;). Read veritas’s post on
Erimin-5 here:

Erimin 5 []

S$ = Singapore dollars = slightly higher than A$ but for easier conversion:
S$1 = A$1 (1 Singapore dollar = 1 Australian dollar)
RM = Ringgit Malaysia = 1/2 for A$ so:
RM1 = A$0.50 (1 Malaysian dollar = 50 cents Australian)

In other news, the recent Google Dance obliterated my PR (down to 3 from 4) but I’m getting amazing SERPs. [Update:
I am back to PR4 now.] How is that possible? Oh well, that “persistant
sidebar” does make my pages look like spam so I’m not surprised at the
drop in PR. Design for the users or for Google? I’ll go with you, dear
readers. πŸ˜‰

[Update: Back to PR3 again…stabilize dammit. :p]

[Last Update: Oh wait, I’m PR4 again. Google flux, thou tease me so…]

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