Benzo bliss

I had visited the friendly neighborhood pharmacy again in search for
some flunitrazepam (Rohypnol). Unfortunately, that pharmacy only has
diazepam (Valium) and alprazolam (Xanax). I have never taken diazepam
recreationally before, so I decided to go for this instead. On a
related note, only one pharmacy is willing to sell me this stuff.
Others claim they don’t carry it or didn’t want to sell it without a
prescription. The guy operating this particular pharmacy is a really
nice dude, I chatted with him for 20 minutes coz I sincerely liked the
guy. It also goes to show that being friendly never hurt anyone.

He recognized me from my alprazolam adventures
[sixthseal.com] and mentioned that he noticed I liked a lot of strange
(that’s the word he used) pharmaceuticals. Heh. We had a good chat
regarding oxycodone (apparently its availability is very limited in
Malaysia) and we did a bit of poking around in the cabinets to see if
there are any other meds with recreational value as well. The diazepam
came from a container about the size of a fist, it has a blue lettered
font with “diazepam” on it.

The pharmacy has 2 mg and 5 mg pills in the fridge and 10 mg pills
at the stock room, but I opted not to wait and just got 5 x 5 mg for a
total of 25 mg which will be a good recreational dose. The 5 mg
diazepam pills cost me 50 cents each (25 cents Australian). I also got
another blister pack of alprazolam (Xanax) for good measure (RM 7).

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Substance: Diazepam (Valium) (also alcohol and alprazolam later – read the trip report)
Dosage: 25 mg (5 x 5 mg tablets)
Pills: The tablets has a stylized “SP” and “D5” on one side. The
“SP” looks like the Slayer band logo. There is a single score on the
back. The pill has beveled edges. They are yellow.
Ingestion method: Taken orally, chewed up and then swallowed with a bit of water
Taste: Musty and only slightly bitter
Time: 12:03 am

12:10 am
starting to feel a little not-sober. πŸ™‚ mild numbness of the face and a feeling of blood rushing to the head. nice.
12:15 am
proceeding to feel slightly drunk, like i’ve downed a couple of beers
really fast on an empty stomach. i’ll say this is a 3 beers on an empty
stomach feeling.
12:17 am
yeah i’m definately feeling more spaced out than on my xanax adventures.
12:20 am
ahhh…the effects of benzodiazepines might not be for everyone, but
for those of us who has a lot of anxiety and stress in our daily lives,
its a bit of a welcome vacation from all that. it’s good to not have to
worry about anything for a while, agreed? πŸ™‚
12:25 am
i’m feeling the same sort of intoxication as several beers – the
disinhibition and the pleasent mellowness. however, my higher level
thought processes are not effected as on alcohol though. not feeling
particularly clumsy althought i haven’t moved from my chair so i can’t
really telll i’m going to walk around a bit now.
12:28 am
yup, walking feels particularly heavy like there is a lot of gravity
drag, but i’m not feeling clumsy at all. other than that, the feeling
is somewhat similar to being drunk, but still being able to think well.
12:30 am
i’m tempted to eat the 2.5 mg of xanax i also got today, but i’m going
to refrain. it’s not that i’m worried about overdosing (its almost
impossible to overdose on benzos alone), but i want to save that for
another occation.
12:35 am
feeling super chill. πŸ™‚ gonna have a beer now. i better hide the xanax
just in case i get the bright idea to down all of them. hah! there you
go. i get that a lot while drunk as well. being drunk makes my already
impulsive nature magnified by 10
12:40 am
okay, i’m just gonna take 2 xanax. only 2 for a total of 0.5 mg of
alprazolam. they are 0.25 mg each/ just two, gotta have some self
control here. πŸ˜‰
12:41 am
ingested two xanax tablets (0.25 mg each)
12:42 am
i’m gonna hide the rest of the xanax tablets and watch a movie. idle
hands are the devil’s work. πŸ˜‰ this raises the question of how i’m
going to HIDE something from MYSELF, but i’ll leave this debate to
someone else. btw, i’m expereiceing some nice euphoria now. not very
euphoric, but a nice chilled out euphoria. nice.
12:44 am
i am in danger of ingesting the rest of the xanax tablets. someone stop me. =D
12:45 am
okay, i talked myself out of it. really going to watch a movie now so i dun get any more funny ideas.
12:48 am
okay, i’m just going to take two more for a total of 1 mg but THATS IT. listen to me my impulsive brain. hmph.
12:49 am
ingested an additional 0.5 mg of alprazolam (0.25 x 2).
12:50 am
i’m a menace to myself. i should have hidden that stuff away. i’m going to do that now.
12:51 am
okay i hid the rest of the xanax. lets hope i forget where i put it when the “memory blackouts” from the xanax happens. πŸ™‚
12:53 am
ALRIGHT@!!! here’s what i’m going to do. i’m going to take the rest of
the xanax and then never touch benzos again for a long time.
12:55 am

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ingested the rest of the xanax – 1.5 mg (6×0.25)
12:57 am
total substances ingested today:
25 mg diazepam
2.5 mg alprazolam
two beers (alcohol)
12.58 am
i would hate myself for my lack of self control, but the benzos won’t
let me. i’m still feeling mellow. note to self: don’t buy more stuff
that you’re planning to take in a night, dumbass. you know your lack of
self control.
1:00 am
the worst thing is i’ve been crawling about under my desk to look for
bits of alprazolam i dropped. the tablets were crumbly and even though
i broke the blister pack over my mouth, a few pieces dropped down. i
think i’ve picked all of them up and ate them though. :/ man thats so
ghetto i’ll hate myself if it weren’t for the benzos. they won’t let
me. πŸ™‚
1:05 am
hey, i don’t even have to think if i don’t want to. i can just sit here
and totally zone out, not having to think about anything. pretty good
euphoria here too. nice.
1:12 am
feeling very chilled out now, bordering on slight drunkenness. benzos
do potentiate alchodol quite nicely. i have a feelig i’m gonna regret
it tomorrow though. benzo comedowns are harsh for me coz i’m already
experiencing a lot of anxiety and stress in my life. but who cares when
you’re feeling this good now. πŸ™‚ heh
1:16 am
note to self: quit yawning, its not time for bed yet.
1:26 am
i know i’m feeeling eveyrting now. πŸ™‚ major clumsiness and slight
disorentatiom. hehehe. but it’s all good. i feel great and happy. happy
happy happy chinese new year.
1:31 am
clumsiness, but in a pleasent way. significant muscle relaxation. i’m
typing this rite now with my head slanted 90 degrees to the left and it
still felt good. hahhaa! man thats so funny
1:33 am
wow, even though i’ve only had two beers, i felt like i’ve drunk a 6
pack. i have a pretty high alocohol tolerance so this is strange for
me. HAIL ALMIGHLTY BENZODIAZEPINES THE GREAT POTENTIATEOR!!! if only
this stuff has less harsh come downs, that would be great. the other
substabce i have a love hate relationship with is ecstasy (MDMA). i
love to roll, but the comedown gives me a helluva depression and
occational anxeity attacks. I find myself debating more and more
whetehr rolling is worth is, so it’s something i prefer to do on
special occations.
1:39 am
balance and coordination is off. had a bit of a scare when i nearly
fell off the railing. πŸ™‚ being scared while on benzos is something like
thinking hmm…that was rather close and leaving it at that without any
anxiety or fear or even anyt further thought. like i said it,s a nice
holiday from everyday stress _ anxiety.
1:44 am
wanted to turn off the lights and i was standing there for a full
minute trying to think of what i was supposed to do. was it to turn
down the air conditioning? i took the air con remote and though they,
that wasn’t right and then remembered i intendedto switch of the light.
heh.
1:49 am
i’ll open up my web browser with the full intention of doing something ad i promptly forgot what i wanted to do.
1:58 am
i’m feeling rather sedated now. it’s a nice feeling but not something
that should be done frequently. i’m feeling rather drunk too, but my
higher level reasoning is stll very much intant. i’m going to cook some
instant noodles now.
2:00 am
that might not be a good idea coz i nearly fell flat on my face when i
attempted to stand up. πŸ™‚ but i dun care coz i feel like fried eggs
now. strange thing is, i can still type properly. the clumsiness is
apparently only isolated to movement.
2:04 am
interestng observation: my body feels drunk, stumbling a bit and all that, but my mind is functioanlling normally
2:52 am
I’VE BEEN expereicnging significant decrease in motor control. found
myself stumbling around and generally had to latch on to something
solid to avoid falling. πŸ™‚ the food did me good though.
3:00 am
whoa i caught myseklf nodding off on a music video and realiase d that
i zoned out for no good results, perheps ins time for bed. i’ll sruf
around a bit till then
3:01 am
okay i’m just nodding out so badly now i’m going to sleep or i’m just going to crash face down into the keyboard

Aftermath:
I’m feeling slightly scattered the next day but still slightly sedated.
I didn’t have the “valium hangover” some people have, and still felt
most of the positive effects (decrease in anxiety, sedation) slightly
today. I had really weird dreams last night too, all of them about
things falling on me – like the ceiling falling on me, ladders falling
on me, grates falling on me when I’m in the sewers stuff like that.
Overall, it was a positive experience. Benzodiazepines and alcohol go
well together. I would not take as much benzos next time, because of
the extreme drowsiness that happened when the last batch of Xanax hit
me. That was too much for me. I would moderate my consumption next time
so that I’ll actually be awake to enjoy it. πŸ™‚

MAN – The Powerstation Concert

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Powerstation

The Powerstation concert was good. I arrived there at around 7:10 pm
and there were still heaps of parking spaces left. The center wasn’t
really full either, there were about a hundred people already in there,
but they were spread out so I got within 3 meters of the stage.

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Powerstation with the MC

Anyway, Powerstation only came on stage at 7:30 pm and they did 6
tracks and 1 encore. I don’t know the track names because I’ve only
heard two of their albums (Legend and UPS). There was an SMS
competition thing at the beginning, the MC gave out a phrase – “psman”
and a cell phone number and the first two people to send an SMS with
that phrase to that particular number got a plane ticket to “I don’t
know where”. I must have zoned out or something coz I really didn’t
catch where the plane ticket was to. I did have a go, but the others
were inhuman, they already sent the SMS before I finished typing. πŸ™‚

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One half of Powerstation (I don’t know their names)

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Another half of Powerstation (I don’t know their names)

Anyway, the MC introduced Powerstation after that and they did 3
songs followed by an intermission. There was a yellow shirted girl in
front of me who was VERY enthusiastic. Nice, she added much needed
ambience to the dreary crowd. Well, at the intermission, they asked six
people to come onstage to sing any Powerstation song and the best
person will get a ticket to “I don’t know where” too. I don’t remember
much, but there were two who got the most applause (a guy and a girl).
The girl finally got the ticket from a game of rock-paper-scissors to
break the tie because both of them got equally enthusiastic applause.

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The six audience members who rendered Powerstation songs for a plane ticket

After that, there was another 3 songs and Powerstation left the
stage. They actually have a pretty good stage presence, really game and
the MC got them to speak several phrases in Bahasa Malaysia which I
can’t remember. Hmm…my memory is failing me. Moving on, they came out
for an encore and that was the end of the show. There was an autograph
signing session after that, but I didn’t stay on. Overall, it was a
good show and well worth the RM 10 (A$ 5) I spent. Highlights were the
enthusiastic yellow shirted girl and the 6 audience members who
rendered Powerstation songs.

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Last song

Valentine’s Cafe Review

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This is the Valentine’s Cafe Pan Fried Prawn Noodles from
Valentine’s Cafe in Paramount Hotel. I had dinner there with my buddies
Christopher and Ting Chuan. Christopher is also studying in Melbourne
and lives near me (both in Melbourne and in Sibu). He just came back
yesterday but he’s going to stay until the end of February. On the
other hand, I have to head back to Melbourne soon to finish my
Industrial Experience. πŸ™ I love Sibu, there are people who prefer it
over in Melbourne, but for me my hometown is the best place.

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Anyway, back to Valentine’s Cafe, it’s a pretty good place to eat.
It’s at the Paramount Hotel opposite Taman Selera. If you’re from Sibu
you should know where it is, it’s the newly opened hotel. Nice ambience
and the service is pretty good too. You don’t feel pressured to leave
as soon as you finish your meal, unlike other hotel attached
restaurants. We stayed there for a while to catch up on stuff after
finishing our meal. The prawn noodles is pretty good at RM 9.50 (A$
4.75) and there were 5 (!) king prawns in the plate. The portion is not
very large, but it’s quite delicious and I love seafood so it’s pretty
good value for money.

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Kinetic power doesn’t deplete natural resources

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I’m going to Powerstation’s concert/autographing session tonight at
the Sibu Civic Center. See Hua (a local Chinese newspaper) had an
advertisement running the whole week on their front page, where you can
cut out the ad and pay another RM10 (A$5) to redeem a ticket at their
headquarters. Powerstation is a Hong Kong band which mostly plays cover
songs with a twist but I like their sound. They’re actually called Dong
Li Huo Cher (direct translation: kinetic powered train) but their
official English moniker is Powerstation. Go figure.

Behold! I draw

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I just came back from watching a 10:45 pm movie at Star Cineplex.
Before that I had pork liver noodles. Mmm… I neglected to bring along
my digicam so here’s a sketch I drew in Microsoft Paint depicting the
pork liver noodle scene. Items in the sketch are: table, chopsticks,
bowl of pork liver soup, plate of noodles, me, and a drink (kopi peng)
with straw. Please say that the sketch is nice or I’ll be sad and cry.
πŸ˜‰

My kingdom for a thigh

I went to the KFC in Wisma Sanyan today to get some chicken for
dinner. I wanted a 3-piece set with ALL THIGHS, but apparently, that
would be a problem:

Me: Hello, I’ll like the 3-piece set, all thighs please
Cashier: I’m sorry sir, we’re not allowed to give the customers
so many thighs during peak hours. You can have drums, breast meat or
wings though.
Me: Hmm…then I’ll take 2 thighs and a drumstick
Cashier: Er…actually we’re only supposed to give out one thigh per order
Me: Oh alright, I’ll just have a thigh, a drumstick and a wing

I didn’t even have any problems getting all thighs from that
particular branch before. They must be having a backlog of breast meat
today to do that. I’ll rate my preference as thigh, drums, wings in
that order. I don’t even like breast meat. It’s just too dry and tough.

Anyway, the road running parallel to the 4-storey SMC car park is so
hard to navigate now. Who had the bright idea to put so many barriers
to streamline the traffic? It’s just 4 lanes and 3 of them turn right,
so there is no need for so many of those things. It was implemented
recently too, and I drove over one of them inadvertently while driving
to Wisma Sanyan. Sheesh…luckily I swerved in time to avoid hitting
the “Turn Left” sign.

The game of snooker

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I went to 1 cue (a local snooker center) with a friend
tonight to play a couple of games. I haven’t touched a cue in 2 years,
so it’s good to play again. This was the snooker center we used to
frequent back in the days, the tables are relatively good and the air
conditioning is cold so it was a favourite haunt of ours back in the
days. Unfortunately, my snooker skillz have atrophied during my two
years of non-practise. I managed to hold my own, but lost both games.
πŸ™‚ I really liked this placing though:

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Dangerous.

Why is this man naked?

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Spotted @ Jalan Bako, Sibu

Hmm…that’s a good question. I was out having lunch with a friend
when this old man sauntered up and peered at our food. I could see his
patch of pubic hair (it was grey if you want to know), which couldn’t
be covered by that miniscule piece of cloth he wound around himself. I
looked at him questioningly, and he turned away and walked to another
table. The view of his back showed that the piece of cloth was not
sufficient to cover his anus as well. In fact, it left it wide open (it
was black-ish, if you’re interested in the color). πŸ™‚ Very strange guy,
he’s harmless but yet he disrupted the rest of the customers due to his
near nudity. Two families promptly got up and left the moment he came
by them. He was indifferent though, he just stood there and TOOK OFF
HIS CLOTH. I won’t go into details regarding his anatomy, but I could
see everything. He then wound the cloth around himself again and sat
down and ordered some food to eat. He was around 70 by the looks of
it…poor guy, I think he’s trying to make a fashion statement. That,
or he’s mentally deranged.

:)? :(? :| (Exam results)

I’m in a state of limbo here. I don’t know whether I should be happy
or sad so I’ll just be emotionally neutral for the time being. πŸ™‚ I got
my exam results today:

CSE2203
IT PROJECT MANAGEMENT

Pass (56)

Hmm…at least I passed since I didn’t do well in the first unit test and the final exam. This is the same mark I expected [sixthseal.com] after I finished the exam. I wish I got a Credit though. Anyway, score one for my prediction.

Prediction: Credit
Actual: Credit

CSE3002
DISTRIBUTED COMPUTING SYSTEMS

Distinction (75)

Ah…just 5 more marks to a High Distinction. What a waste. πŸ™‚ I expected to get only a Credit [sixthseal.com] after I did my exam, but I got a Distinction instead. Good.

Prediction: Credit
Actual: Distinction

CSE3153
NETWORK ADMINISTRATION

Withheld (WH)

WTF? Why did my results get withheld? I tried calling the lecturer
but the receptionist said that he’s away until Monday. Bummer…now I
don’t know whether I passed or failed this subject. I’m pretty sure I
did pass, I had expected a Credit [sixthseal.com], but this Withheld business has got me all worried and shit.

Prediction: Credit
Actual: Withheld

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