Mini Binge Draft: v.beta

<p>This is a post by <a href=”mailto:veritas@sixthseal.com”>veritas</a>.</p>

<p>I wote this while still very under the influence and try as I want
to, I cannot simply provide resoanably understandable phrases while in
this mindstate. Plus, I took a heavy dose of benzodiazepines and theire
siren calls are irresistible, try as hard as I could. That was
originally the plan – I hae tweaked for a few days so today ios the
time to stop…except I ended up having classic ideas like taking LSD
(acid) at 5am the morning. Hehe! If I knoew I wasn’t gonnabe this
tired, I’ll have been out. So here’s the very dubious draft, read at
your own risk, sinlight just looks so beautiful on a low 1 blotter dose
of acid. I amazed that that all the insufflated meth couldn’t keep me
from sleeping. The acid too, visuals look great in the daytime , it’s a
small dose, but its great. I’ll tell you more tomorrow, Too sleepy not
to saything except food. And fractals. Anyway, I’m stopping here and
I’ll post a photo up so it isn’t all tes.t I can’t think coherently
now, but check back tomorrow and I’ll have posted a nether post with
all the pirctures and when I’m sober enough to write. Bye nite…and you
can have a read at the really rough draft starting here:</p>

<p><img alt=”msysleep.jpg” src=”http://www.sixthseal.com/archive/June2003/msysleep.jpg” border=”0″ height=”263″ width=”350″><br>
Intrigues by this picture? Have you been subject to sleepless nights
because you wonder what that picture is. Well , check ack tomorrow and
all will be clear! I did take a lot of pics of substances b ut nah
can’t postm them today toooosleepy. I had something to say but I forgot
it again like usual. Fuck.</p>

<h3>Idiot warning: Please refrain from reading because there’s an idiot writubg (though not intentionally.</h3>
<h2>Final warning: Drug retard’s journal. Not recommended for reasing</h2>
Oh man, even typing that out made me have to think for a long to to get
that thought out. I should probably put a caution here: This post will
endoubtadly lead in an appropriate degress of respect, but in my
defence, some stuff have been sitting in the drawer for AGES and I
never had an urge to touch them (except for dex/meth). I don’t know why
I’m at the first paragraph again, will go down and find the one I
posted in last and I’m going to put an idiot waitning on top.
<p><b>Substances: </b><br>
Day 1 – Day 6<br>
Methamphetamine <br>
Dextroamphetamine (Dexamphetamine, Dexedrine)<br>
Day 3 or 4 or 5  <br>
Ketamine</p>

<p>Ketamine = early this morning (or was it last night?) time just loses it’s meaning when you stay up a while.<br>
Bendodiazepines (clonazepam, diazepam)<br>
Salvia Divinorum (Diviner’s Sage)<br>
Cannabis (marijuana)<br>
95% alcohol…I think that’s what made me so drowsy wit the benzo doses I just look. I’m having a bizzzare feeling now./<br>
Mushrooms! =D</p>

<p><b>Caution: </b> This post might be offensive to three different people<br>1.
Who have been brainwashed by government propaganda into thinking “Drugs
are bad mmmkay?” The scond group that might be displeased is the harm
reduction organizations, who’s work and time towards the cause have
always been appreciated! To them I say, my apologies for contributing
to the image of irresponsible use. To the first group I say, get your
fucking ass out of your head because eat food – shit comes out – eat
shit ad nauseum is not a healthy way to life. I’ll also like to mention
that I’m not the most responsible drug user out there, so please do not
take my comments as representative of a larger group. If you do, I
suggest that a refresher course in university might do you a world of
good to keep things in perspective.<br>
<b>Background:</b> Taking methamphetamine/dextroamphetamine for 6 days
straight. Today is the sixth day. I wanted to comedown yesterday but
thatfunny ketamine kept me awake and so here I an,I would love tell you
about the..tius is like a really bad movie but I seriously forgot again.<br>
<b>Substances: </b></p>

<p>It’s the end of the semester some more!!!!! I felt so tired after my
5 day run without food and sleep (got some on the sixth night, yum
drowisnes alernt, oh and I’m going to pass out right now I’m so sleepy!</p>

<p><b>Anyway substances taken:</b> methamphetamine (meth) <b>I’LL STOP
HERE, SORRY ABOUT THAT, MY SEDATION IS BORDERING ON COMA AND . no,
that’s giving up, I will resist the URGE to sleep and I promise I’ll
get this done pictures and all (although shoddiness is garunteed) </b>now iE TONIET., dextroamphetamine (Dexidrine instant release), diazepam (Valium),</p>

<p><br>
Note: er…somehow this post didn’t survive the server move, but the final post did</p>

Photo Friday – Packaging

This is a post by veritas.

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Photo Friday – Packaging [photofriday.com]

Packaging. Hello, I’m doing the Photo Friday this week. πŸ™‚ I’ll try
to use the same format just for consistency’s sake. Pictured above is a
point of powdered ketamine hydrochloride packaged in foil. It was taken
with just the monitor’s ambient glare, and that tinted everything blue.
I found the shade of blue very pleasant. The use of the word point as a measurement unit seems to be isolated to Australia. 1 point = 100 mg/0.1 gram.

Infected Mushroom – None Of This Is Real [sixthseal.com]
(right click, save target as)
[6:25 minutes 128 KBPS STEREO 44.1KHZ 5.87 MB .mp3]

[Edit: MP3 deleted]

This isn’t real…none of this is real…

The shooting data:

Focal Length: 8 mm
Exposure Mode: Programmed Auto
Metering Mode: 1/3.7sec – f/2.8
Sensitivity: Auto
White Balance: FV-1 (Optimized for florescent light, which was probably why it came out so blue)

The post-production work was done in Photoshop 7.0 and involves:

Image Size: Size reduced to 500×375.

[Edit: Uploaded MP3]

Situation normal, all fucked up…

Tomorrow is the last day of the semester. It would be my final
semester here too, if I don’t fail anything. *crosses fingers* Anyway,
just some updates since I haven’t been posting much – the final exam of
GCS2714 Alcohol and Drug Use went okay, some bits were easy, some were
hard. The last few days (weeks?) have been crazy, my organs took quite
a pummeling…I know my kidneys are not happy with the amount of
processing they had to do. Oh, I had a really interesting sleep
deprivation hallucination today too. I was coding, when those squiggly
RGB protoplasm started to fill my vision (like I was looking through
swirling red green blue “organic eyeshades”). I blinked, and in that
split second (it felt like minutes), I was transported to a bizarre
world with lots of horrible screaming and an ultra bright strobe light
that made everything blinding white and flickering. The strange thing
is, it couldn’t have been more than a second, but it felt like minutes!
It gave me a start, that’s for sure. πŸ™‚ Classic! It’s worthy of a
“hallucination” label instead of visual distortion because of the
auditory hallucinations and sensory (spatial) confusion. Anyway, I’m
too tired now, but here’s some pictures of food I got over the last few
days but didn’t get around to eating yet…will eat them all tonight, and
a nice big meal as well (all the better for a lacerating GI tract to
absorb of course). It would be good to have an alternative energy
source, ketone bodies just doesn’t measure up. πŸ˜‰ I will post again
tomorrow if all that doesn’t give me reactive hypoglycemia like the
doctor said it would.

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Cadbury’s Picnic Rocky Road, Snickers Hazelnut, Snickers Cruncher and
Twix (King Size). Twix rocks. Stoner’s choice. πŸ˜‰ “Tune out big time!”

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It comes in a white chocolate version too.

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I only saw this today…third in the series of Smith’s Great Australian
Tastes. This one is Bega’s Strong & Bitey Aged Vintage cheese. It
would go well with my meal later. πŸ™‚ The first two are here: Heinz Big Red Tomato Sauce & Meat Pie and Ham and Keen’s Mustard [sixthseal.com].

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No, there isn’t.

Public service announcement: Grain alcohol/pure spirit (95% alcohol or 190 proof) + lacerating stomach = fiery, terrible retribution from the pits of hell.

Methamphetamine Diaries Part I: The rush

This is a post by veritas.

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Exhibit #1:

I just started my 3500 word due in 9 hours now

but its helluva easy…took an easy sub this semester coz i already
have enough units. hah! anyway i know you’re working nite shift lar, i
read all the entries in your blog already. yeah, i like breakfast, it’s
good, the best, dinner and lunch is terrible though. a group of us used
(snip) every thursday (coz most ppl have fridays free, the smart
one who allocates timetables well do anwyay :p) till morning and then
go for breakfat together, that was crazy and funny, usually 12 of us
will (cut) eat and then hit the bed after that. those were the days…but the scene died down though, a lot of the (blah blah), that was last year but it was fun. don’t anymore though, coz (what’s that again?).
i like vietnamese pho too, i’m with the popular majority who says
mekong has the best. oh ya what hours do you work? i know its nite
shift, i mean from when to when? interested to know, sorry if it’s too
personal. and while we’re on the topic of personal stuff, is that your
full name? (privacy)? I’ve seen those around, not very common though, usually it’s three words, one family and two (revealing personal details, big chunk deleted)
they must be damn disappointed that name didn’t translate into actual
results. πŸ˜‰ i’m not known for having a good acedemic track record,
although i scrape thru. :p there i go talking about myself again,
apologies, blaming it on the meth. =D would like to know your full name
if that’s okay.

anyway, i have to get back to my assignment, heh i wrote a bit
already, do i sound like a spammer or what! too many exclaimation marks
and excessive use of hyperbole. man, i’m having so much fun writing
this…i usually write write write and then go hit amazon.com to pull a
couple of books as my references. πŸ™‚ i find it much easier to write
whatever i want and insert random references into the nonsense i write
(no references = treated as plagarism) and then put up a fake
bibliography with the books from amazon.com. it has always worked and
its so much faster thatn doing research! i’ve already read about all
this stuff beforehand anyway, so i guess that is research, since i
didn’t forget it, it’s right and blah blah. i am so having fun now, had
heaps of meth to override the damn benzo fog. stand well back
people!!!! here’s comes meth!

meth: i eat mental fogginess for breakfast!!!

clonazepam: oh, we’re so fucked…

(sounds of flesh being ripped apart and disturbing slurping noises)

meth: i live here now! what’s that you’re working on dude? feh,
easy, let me help, we’ll be done in no time! no time i say! you hear
me???? no time!!!

me: *swoons* you never have let me down. kiss me!

meth: technically i am in your bloodstream, so i’m running through your lips as well

me: oh you taste so good

meth: why thank you

me: bitter actually, but i’ve come to associate that with the rush

meth: yes, bitter is good eh?

me: very good! clonazepam, you in there?

(silence)

meth: i er…took the liberty of taking care of those assignment killers

me: i see, yeah you’ve told me before

meth: yes i did

me: ok

meth: yeah

me: don’t use conversation fillers

meth: ok

me: that’s another one. just shut up and help me with this.

meth: will do! (silently thinking: you just wait…i’ll show you for
talking to me like this…i’ll oxidise this, and this and this. haha!
there goes your dopamine receptors)

me: hey wats that you’re mumbling about?

meth: er…nothing! (thinking: can he really hear me?)

me: yes, duh!

meth: sorry

me: i know about the dopamine thing, prepared to take that one anyway

meth: okay

me: fillers

meth: sorry

me: its okay, just work harder

meth: will do!

me: enough jibba jabba

meth: cunt

me: i heard that

meth: i know

me: you want me to take a megadose of benzos?

meth: you wouldn’t do that, the assignment is due tomorrow

me: hmph…but after that…

meth: i’m just shaking in my boots

me: you won’t be so cocky when that 6 mg clonazepam gang comes after you

meth: pffft, i’ll send them back in a hellbasket (thinking: oh boy)

me: i heard that too. such is the life of meth eh?

meth: yeah, we don’t live very long…thanks for the urinary alkalinizers dude, that’s like a drink from the fountain of youth

me: no problem, we take care of each other round here

meth: appreciate that. i got you back too

me: like hell you do

meth: apart from the dopamine thing that is, erm…thats nothing, you’ll be fine

me: no i won’t, but that’s cool, just don’t give me a stroke, a
heart attack, a brain aneurysm, or anything like that and everything is
sweet

meth: no promises, but i’ll try my very best. you have my word.

me: thats wat you said last time too

meth: hey, give a dog a bad name and hang it and all that…

me: okay, enough of this, lets get to work

Here’s what i’m up to so far if you’re interested (which you’re probably not):

(my assignment bits was here)

that’s it! πŸ™‚ Take care (name) and have an absolutely wonderful day! <- another example of my excessive hyperbole use

veritas

That’s an email I wrote during the end of last month, while
tweaked…verbose and full of irrelevant details. Yeah, I’ve resorted
to posting old emails because I don’t have time to write, although
there’s heaps of things I want to update you all about. Indiscriminate
and heavy editing has been applied to the original email to remove
identifying portions. The recipient is someone on the blogs link, play
“Guess the Blogger” if you want. It’s not really that hard, but please
don’t give me away. πŸ™‚

Clue: None. There’s too many in the email as it is.

Photo gallery is up

I’ve finally put up the photos section
[sixthseal.com]. It’s a bit sparse at the moment, but everything in
there is new. Well, not new as in recent…it’s just the first time it
has appeared on the site. πŸ™‚ The pictures are a mix of (personal)
digital photos and scans of film photos. The quality of the scans are
somewhat dismal – I’ve either messed up the scanner’s settings (it
looks like perpetual twilight) or I’m having visual disturbances from
sleep deprivation. The photos are currently categorized in reverse
chronological order under “Monash College 2000”, “Girlfriend, Sibu
2001”, “CPL Pacific 2001”, “Photos 2002” and just so there’s something
representing this year, “Recent”. Two of the recent photos are really
recent too – one taken yesterday (curry) and the other taken within the
week (campus).

I’ll post more photos in a couple of days. I have assignments due later and an exam tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Like, speed kills man…

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It gives you lung cancer. I hate running out of cigarettes while
tweaking, that is like totally uncool, man…seriously though, I’ve been
without smokes for two days and it’s killing me. Not literally of
course, it’s doing my lungs a whole lotta good in fact. Anyway, I’m too
lazy to go out in the cold weather and go “I’ll have a pack of Marlboro
reds 25’s please”. Needless to say, I’m living quite far from
civilization. The nicotine monster running through my veins is
(unwillingly) satiated by my large stock of nicotine gum…but nothing
beats inhaling a nice lungful of smoke! I’ve caught myself putting on
my sweater and ready to walk out the door, but nah, I’m not going to
take a long walk just to buffer the war chest of Philip Morris Limited.
I have been resorting to some stuff that probably every smoker out
there has done though. I’ve subjected half-smoked cigarette butts in my
ashtray to a second combustion process. Don’t look at me like that…in
times of need, we make do, don’t we? I’ve also upturned by room to find
old boxes of cigarettes to extract the wealth that is loose tobacco
leaves. It’s surprising how much brown toasted tobacco one can yield
from cigarette boxes, especially if you pack them before opening. I’ve
managed to harvest a nice pile, which I smoked with my bong. I wouldn’t
say it tasted good, especially the stale bits, but you gotta do what
you gotta do. πŸ˜‰ I also bummed one off CT today. That’s the one that weakened me…I haven’t had RYO’s for years!

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It was nicely rolled and the tobacco was that rum and wine (I think)
mix that I favored years ago too, and damn was it good!!! I didn’t let
the atmosphere sneak a single wift off that one, dragged on it
constantly till I was holding it like a joint and ended up getting a
(okay, three!) lungful of burning filter. I have tasted human blood…get
out of the way everyone! I decided I needed more and I remember seeing
the guy who lives downstairs smoking, so I went knocking at his door. πŸ™‚

Me: Hello, I live upstairs and this would sound strange, but
I ran out off cigarettes and I was wondering if I can buy some off you.
Guy: Oh, sure! No problems, how many do you want?
Me: Can I get 5 off you? I’ll pay you for the trouble.
Guy: Don’t worry about it. It’s fine.
(Guy goes and gets his pack and gave me five.)
Me: Thanks! Here, I don’t feel good about taking them.
(Hands him a A$5 note)
Guy: No, don’t worry about it, it’s fine, being neighbours and all.
Me: Nah, I would prefer it if I paid you for this, I’m not comfortable with bumming them off you like that.
Guy: It’s fine. You can just give some back to me when you get a pack.
Me: Ah…I really don’t feel good about it, coz it’s not like I’m just getting one or two off you.
Guy: Really, it’s fine. You don’t have to worry about it. You can just return them when we bump into each other next time.
Me: I would feel much better if I paid you for this. Seriously, I insist.
Guy: Well…you sure?
Me: Yes. Thanks for the smokes.
(Hands him the A$5 note)
Guy: Oh…thanks.

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That was uncomfortable…it’s like that ang pow pushing back and forth
thing, I can see why he’s reluctant to accept the money since we live
near each other, but I would not feel good about getting that many off
him without paying him. It’s not like we know each other all that well,
it’s a nodding acquaintance, so it feels funny to bum that many off
him. Anyway, I’ve had three already. No! Conserve!!! Unfortunately,
he’s partial to the brand I find most distasteful…Winfield! I think
it’s lights some more. He doesn’t pack his cigarettes either. Oh well,
beggars can’t be choosers.

It’s such a disgusting habit…it’s a wonder it’s legal. πŸ˜‰

Photo Friday – Transportation

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Photo Friday – Transportation [photofriday.com]

Transportation. I’m interpreting this with the basic, yet important
distillation that drives most vehicles – petroleum products. This was
taken at a BP gas station in the middle of the night in the south
eastern suburbs of Melbourne, Australia. This relatively new petrol
station looks contemporary compared to most, with the streamlined pumps
and updated company logo. If you squint, you can see the Mazda
dealership across the road.

The shooting data:

Focal Length: 8mm
Exposure Mode: Programmed Auto
Metering Mode: Multi-Pattern 1/60 sec – f/2.8
Exposure Compensation: 0 EV
Sensitivity: Auto
White Balance: Auto
AF Mode: AF-C
Tone Compensation: Auto
Flash Sync Mode: Front Curtain
Saturation Compensation: 0
Sharpening: OFF
Noise Reduction: OFF

The flash was suppressed to let ambient light in. The post-production work was done in Photoshop 7.0 and involves:

Brightness: Gamma increased for better visibility.
Contrast: Contrast increased to draw out more detail from the background.
Image Size: Size reduced from 2048×1536 to 500×375.

The Weblog Review – Ei Baa Hashne

Original review for The Weblog Review here: Ei Baa Hashne’ – I’ll tell you about it [theweblogreview.com].

I have made the terrible mistake of misidentifying the author’s
gender. This has been corrected today and it’s waiting for approval
before the changes will be reflected in the review page.

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Ei Baa Hashne’ – I’ll tell you about it

Do you know what Ei Baa Hashne means? I’ll tell you about it. No,
that’s what it means, “I’ll tell you about it”. I am very intrigued by
this weblog, it’s subtitled “A web log by a Navajo in New Orleans”. I
must admit, I don’t know much about Navajo culture, and this made me
very interested to read the weblog. The first thing I noticed was the
Navajo Word of the Week column in the right hand sidebar. That is a
really nice touch that adds a lot to the blog. It’s a great way to
introduce the written Navajo language to the readers.

I’m now aware that ‘chidi’ means a car (or automobile) and browsing
through the Navajo Word of the Week archives is interesting, I think I
can formulate a sentence based on what I’ve read: “Ei ashkii bi ‘at’eed
shik’is nizhoni”. My apologies if my attempt came out wrong. I was
trying to say “That boy has a beautiful girlfriend” but I’m not sure it
”at’eed’ and ‘shik’is’ can be joined to mean ‘girlfriend’. It’s fun to
learn the sentence structure and grammar and at least I can say
“Ya’at’eeh. Huai Bin yinishye. Ashkii nishli. 22 shinaahai. Melbourne
di shighan” with confidence. It’s in the Navajo Word archives. πŸ™‚ Go
look up what it means, Vernon (the site owner) has done a really good
job with the description and sample sentences!

Vernon has been running the blog since the 19th of February 2003, so
this makes it a relatively new one. The entries are fairly regular,
Vernon does not skip more than a couple of days in between posts. The
monthly archives are nicely peppered with photos too, and Vernon
participates in quite a few “blog memes” like the Friday Five and Photo
Friday (to name two). The blog starts out nicely, with most of the
entries in the first month and the first few entries in March updating
the reader about the Mardi Gras celebrations in New Orleans. Vernon was
part of the parade as well, in one of his entries in March titled “MG
update: My Orpheus Experience”, he describes his experience with
setting up and riding on a float.

It’s also very nice to see that Vernon is a proud of his heritage
and he makes his feelings about that known in the March 4th entry about
non-Native Americans dressing up as such during Mardi Gras. The later
entries are a mix of commentaries about TV series and the “blog memes”,
which makes the reader know more about Vernon. The two poems entitled
“My Words” and “My Deeds” are really good too, and I particularly liked
the second one. His feelings in that one really came through strongly.

I have always liked reading “nostalgic entries” and I enjoyed
reading Vernon’s post on the 6th of April regarding cliques while he
was in high school at the reservation. I have never noticed clique-type
behavior at my high school, but it seems to be common in the United
States. It’s also interesting to read that he’s on the Atkins Diet,
which I’ve heard a lot of bad things about. It’s worthy to note that
Jennifer Aniston and Brad Pitt is on that very same diet by Dr.
Atkins…I picked that up while reading the papers last week regarding
Hollywood personalities and their diets.

I also noticed that I’ve been to his blog before, but didn’t read
anything then. I have recently started doing the Photo Friday too, and
I remember clicking through all of the past entries, so I must have
stumbled upon his weblog then, but didn’t pay attention to anything
other than the photo. I am disturbed by his entry about accidental
kerosene consumption when he was five. The taste of kerosene is all too
clear to me (don’t ask why) and reading that made nearly made me retch
in recollection of the taste.

The design of the site is based on a three column template, with the
blog entries occupying the middle column. The right sidebar contains
the wonderful Najavo Word of the Week (which I will definitely bookmark
this site for) and links to other blogs. The left sidebar has the site
navigation column, an avatar with the current weather in New Orleans,
links to fellow Native American bloggers, webring memberships and other
miscellaneous links. The design of the site isn’t anything special and
doesn’t stand out, but the interesting entries makes up for that. This
is definitely a blog that favors content over eye candy.

The About Me page pops up a window (with a different background)
with Vernon’s personal details, including his tribe and his ancestor’s
clans. It’s interesting to learn another fact about Navajo culture – it
seems to be a matrilineal society. Vernon is a physician (which he
mentioned in the unforgettable kerosene entry) and we share the same
favorite drink! No, not kerosene. Diet Coke. The other links are
Vernon’s poetry, photos (of the photo memes like Photo Friday), an
archive of all the memes he has done, a page dedicated to his pets, the
blog archives and The May Day Project!

I haven’t seen a May Day project I didn’t like, and this didn’t
break that streak. I enjoyed visually seeing what a day in the life of
the author is. Ahehee Vernon, I really enjoyed reading through your
entries! I’ll have to follow the guidelines and give it a 4 for the
inconsistent design though. hagoonee’ everyone, and don’t forget to
click on the link to check out Vernon’s blog, it certainly is a
refreshing change and a fun read for me. It’s a very good site, that’s
for sure.

[Edit: Mistake regarding author’s gender has been corrected. My apologies.]

This site was reviewed on 2003-05-28 by sixthseal.
They felt this site belonged in the Personal category.
sixthseal felt that Ei Baa Hashne’ – I’ll tell you about it deserved a rating of 4.0

Link to site: Ei Baa Hashne’ – I’ll tell you about it [blogspot.com].

The site owner’s reply:

Ei Baa Hashne’ Reviewed
Wednesday, May 28

My site was reviewed at weblogreview.com.
The reviewer had quite a few flattering words for my site and I think
he summed up some of the intentions I had for this site very nicely.
However, there was one problem with the review. No, it had nothing to
do the reviewer’s opinions. I have nothing against the opinions
expressed at weblogreview. It was something more substantial.
Throughout the column, the author of my site is referred to as ‘her’
and ‘she.’ When I saw that, I had to double check to make sure that it
was actually my site that was being reviewed. Then I opened a new
screen to check the signature at the bottom of each entry to confirm
that I had not inadvertently signed it as “Veronica,” “Victoria,” or
“Verna.” After establishing that I indeed had signed all my entries as
“Vernon,” my next thought was of befuddlement, then an attempt at some
sort of understanding. Failing that after a few minutes, I next felt
curious, then strangely contemplative for a while. My next thought was
uneasiness, which melted into leeriness, and finally I was outright
paranoid.

Nah, just kidding. My only response, if someone were to ask would
be, “Hmm, interesting.” I always wondered if I had another personality
hidden deep inside somewhere. She must come out when I sit down at my
computer to blog. Well, to the Vernon that I don’t know about, I say
thank you for all those wonderful entries. You bring back some of my
most poignant and some of my proudest memories. Here’s to sisterhood!
Once again, thank you, Verna, or Victoria, or is it Veronica, … or
Vicky, maybe Viola, possibly Virginia, Vina, no wait, it’s got to be
Valerie, Vachon, Vanessa, …

Original post here [blogspot.com].

Changes: The links of the original Ei Baa Hashne’ – I’ll tell you about it post has been changed to open up in a new window.

I’ll rather be asleep

I’ve been up for three days and my body is saying no. Today would be
the day I came the closest to having a heart attack. I wish I’m
exaggerating, the damned chest pains and headache would go away then.
No food + no sleep + stimulants (caffeine, I always feel the need to
reiterate myself) = heart working overtime. No water (stupid me) = not
pissing for the whole night. Drank a bit before I went to class, was
feeling terrible before then…hypertension, the kind that makes your
head pound and makes those veins on the side visible, with tactile
rhythmic pumping too. I don’t know what I’m saying. I had to walk as
slow as a slug to not overexcite my overworked heart and yet I still
feel constant chest pain, breathlessness and that damned pounding and
random tingliness and pain in the extremities. Okay, enough of the
feeling sorry for myself bit, I’m going to sleep…sedate me, trusty
thingies.

dogcute.jpg

Of course by thingies I mean food…it makes you sleepy when you
haven’t had any in a while. Anyway, here’s a photo I took while on the
way back today…was feeling like absolute fucking shit, but that dog is
so adorable I had to take a photo. His head is too big for his body and
so is his tongue! πŸ™‚

Thanks for commenting everyone, I’ll reply when I wake up. I am
going to sleep now, before that vein makes good on its promise to give
me a stroke.

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