Tested: White MX (Ecstasy pill), ice (meth)

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Black and blue (and orange)

I went to chemist tip’s place just now and we interrupted his
girlfriend’s viewing of Die Hard (the movie) to test a couple of
substances. The first test subject is a white MX pill that’s going
around Melbourne lately, word is the pills are good quality MDMA. The
second test subject is the white powder that’s sold as ice.

Substance #1: White MX (pill)

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MX pill front – taken on plate

This pill has “mx” imprinted in stylized font on the front. The logo reminded me of the free newspaper with the same name
[mxnet.com.au] that’s distributed around Melbourne, except the “x” on
the pill is in cursive font. The pill is white with colored speckles,
very slightly beveled edges and a single score down the back.

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MX pill back – taken on table

Marquis

The pill was scraped with a razor and two drops of Marquis reagent
was applied to it. The result was an INSTANT color change to black. I
was surprised by the swiftness of the reaction, it went purple to black
as soon as the Marquis solution came into contact with the pill
scraping. My apologies for the out of focus reaction photos. The
digicam doesn’t like to focus on liquids.

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Test result: Purple/black instantly. MDxA (MDMA and MDA (rare) are the only ones that’s common).

Simon’s

One drop of Simon’s reagent and two drops of buffer solution is
applied to another sample of the pill scraping. Instant color change to
blue indicating a secondary amine (ruling out MDA). MDMA is a secondary
amine while MDA is a primary amine.

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Test result: Swift reaction to blue. MDMA.

Substance #2: Ice (powder)

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A$250 per gram

Methamphetamine or 4-MAR? Will 4-MAR (4-methyl-5-phenyl-2-amino-oxazoline) test positive as a secondary amine?

Marquis

The powder turned bright orange almost instantly. It kicked the dexamphetamine reaction’s ass in terms of response time. 🙂

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Test result: Instant bright orange. Meth(amphetamine). Will 4-MAR react with Marquis? It’s not documented.

Simon’s

The reaction was fast again, straight to blue.

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Test result: Instant blue, indicating a secondary amine. Methamphetamine.

Robadope

Tested it with Robadope for fun. It has a strange reaction – turned
grainy black. It’s probably nothing though, this test was not conducted
properly. 🙂 I’m sure that it’s methamphetamine anyway.

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Test result: Grainy black (doesn’t mean anything – this test not done properly)

Tell you all a funny thing from last nite. Well, funny to me anyway.
:p It was crashdown day and I had plenty of B&C’s (benzos, beer,
cannabis) and got some food into me after my tweak session. Apparently
the amount of clonazepam I consumed was too much, because 45 minutes
later, realization dawned upon me that I’ve sedated myself silly. 🙂 I
was eating a McChicken burger when suddenly I thought “Hmm…I’m feeling
something soggy in my right hand. Iwonder what that is”. I looked down
and went “Oh!” – realized I was holding the half eaten burger in my
hand. Okay, I took a bite and after a second (while chewing somemore!)
I thought “Hmm…I’m feeling something soggy in my right hand. I wonder
what that is” AGAIN. This went on for quite a while, until I was too
sleepy to continue eating and stuffed the rest into my mouth and went
to sleep.

EZ-Test substance testing kit (Ecstasy pill tester)

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You’ve got mail!

EZ Test
[eztest.com]. It’s a set of chemical solutions for testing substances.
The reagents produce different reactions to different chemicals so you
can test for Ecstasy (MDMA), methamphetamine, 2C-B, DXM etc. It’s very
useful to have around for testing pills, although personally I’ve never
had any problems about this in Australia. MDMA pills are sold as MDMA
pills and ketamine/speed pills are sold as such. It is useful to verify
the contents of a pill though, so I usually use a Marquis reagent which
I get at Off Ya Tree, a local headshop.

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Inside the package is the EZ Test container and a booklet

That ran out some time ago and I found out that EZ Test has a Australian distributor
[ez-test.com.au] which mails their substance testing kits cash on
delivery, so I ordered a set from them. This is the EZ Test Xtreme,
which has 4 different chemicals – the EZ Test (Marquis reagent),
Simon’s reagent, Robadope and the buffer solution. The Marquis reagent
is probably the most well known for testing Ecstasy pills, but the
other reagents compliment the Marquis solution to provide more
comprehensive results. Hmm…I feel like I’m writing this for a report! 🙂

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The EZ Test container – a closer look

Anyway, the Marquis reagent is able to detect MDxA type substances
(eg MDMA, MDA, MDEA), amphetamines (speed), 2C-B (also called Nexus,
pretty rare chemical), and DXM.

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A peek inside the container

Simons’s reagent is used to test for a “secondary amine”, which to
my limited chemistry knowledge means the substances that have a longer
chemical name than usual. 😉 These are things like methamphetamine (a
methyl group added to -amphetamine), MDMA and so on. This one is good
for testing meth, it won’t react with amphetamines (primary amine),
only with methamphetamines (secondary amine). Anyway, there isn’t a
burning need to have this around either, since most of the ‘speed’ sold
in Australia is methamphetamine, or so I’ve heard. It’s not that hard
to subjectively differentiate meth and speed (I use speed to refer to
amphetamine) when consumed anyway.

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The 4 bottles of reagents

Robadope on the other hand does the opposite of what Simon’s reagent
does. Robadope is used to detect the presence of a primary amine (like
amphetamine). Unfortunately, this test requires quite a lot of the
substance to work. The instructions say at least 1/8th of a pill is
needed to produce a reaction. That’s quite wasteful, but it’s
interesting to have around, if only to test things at random. =D

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EZ Test (Marquis reagent)

There is also the buffer solution, which I think (don’t quote me on
this) is used to speed up the reaction times. Either that, or it’s the
“missing link” that’s needed for Simon’s and Robadope to react, perhaps
the solutions are not that stable and won’t keep as long when combined.
Again, I don’t really know what the buffer is for, just that it’s used
with Simon’s and Robadope but not Marquis.

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Simon’s reagent

The tests are done in sequence and by inference and extrapolation
(just love this phrase), you can detect whether a
pill/powder/capsule/whatever contains MDxA (MDMA, MDEA, MDA),
methamphetamine, amphetamine, PMA, 2C-B, DXM, combinations (primary
amine – secondary amine like a MDMA/amphetamine combo pill) and even
heroin. Each reagent changes color when it’s exposed to the
recreational substances that it’s able to detect.

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Robadope

I don’t know why I’m in a mood for writing something like this, but
anyway. 🙂 Here’s an example, using the EZ Test kit on a dexamphetamine
tablet. I had 2 pills left, which isn’t enough to do anything, so I’ve
left it lying around…until today! Today, I’m going to strike the fear
of God into the little white pills. Or something. I’m tweaking again,
verbal diarrhea and mindless chatter ahoy! =D

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Buffer solution

Anyway, if you’ve read my posts, you’ll know that I have a
dexamphetamine script for my…ah, narcolepsy. 😉 I can’t stop with the
wink wink nudge nudge every time I mention this, my apologies, I’m
actually privately gloating about my script. Heh. Okay, enough
silliness, sorry about that.

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5 mg dexamphetamine tablets

Back on topic, dexamphetamine is a primary amine, from what I’ve
read, amphetamine is a racemic mixture containing both the + and –
isomers. Those are dextro and laevo and Collin’s English Dictionary
defines it as such:

racemic
adjective
(Chem) of, concerned with, or being a mixture of dextrorotatory
and laevorotatory isomers in such proportions that the mixture has no
optical activity
[ETYMOLOGY: 19th Century: from RACEME (as in racemic acid) + -IC]
racemism
noun

Anyway, the laevo (or levo) isomers of both amphetamine and
methamphetamine isn’t recreational compared to the dextro isomers. I
don’t know if this is true for all -amphetamines, but its true for
(meth)amphetamine. The stuff you get off the street is a racemic
mixture, so looking from a recreational perspective, it’s inferior to
dextro only isomers. In other words, pure dextro (meth)amphetamines
will get you higher than a racemic mixture. Personally, I like
dexamphetamine (dextroamphetamine sulfate) because it’s much more
stimulating that street speed (racemic amphetamine), but I’ll take
racemic methamphetamine over it any day! =D

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Dextroamphetamine sulfate – our test subject

I digress. I suspect I’m boring half of you with the background
information and insulting half of you by elaborating on things that you
already know. Nevertheless, I shall continue. 🙂 Oh, and you might have
noticed that I don’t use the word “drug” or “drugs”. I dislike that
term because of the negative connotations that’s associated with it. I
use the term “substances” and “chemicals” instead to refer to
recreational compounds. Okay, instead of digressing again and again and
being self indulgent, I’ll continue to the tests.

Substance: 5 mg dexamphetamine pill (dextroamphetamine sulfate)

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Dexamphetamine pill, crushed into powder

The pill is crushed up with a dog tag as if to prepare for
insufflating (snorting). Half of the powder is used for the tests and
the other half was, er…insufflated. The first test is done using the
Marquis reagent. A small portion of the powder is isolated into a
corner of a CD jewel case and two drops of the Marquis reagent is
applied to it.

Test: Marquis Reagent

The pill’s content is already known, so this is just a test for fun
and to show how reagents work. The Marquis reagent will react by
changing color to orange/brown when it detects amphetamine (speed).
Let’s see how it goes in the test.

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Yellow as soon as it came into contact with the powdered dexamphetamine pill.

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The color started to look orange after a couple of seconds.

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It’s noticeably orange now.

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Yup, unmistakably orange. Indicates the presence of amphetamine (dexamphetamine = amphetamine).

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The reaction settled to become a brown goo after a minute.

Marquis Reagent result: Orange, indicating either methamphetamine or amphetamine.

Test: Simon’s Reagent

Two drops of Simon’s reagent and 4 drops of the buffer solution is
applied to another portion of the powdered dexamphetamine pill. This
should turn blue if there is a secondary anime (methamphetamine) but it
won’t react if it’s amphetamine (primary amine).

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No reaction. The red drops are the reagents, accidentally dropped it outside the sample.

Simon’s Reagent result: No reaction, ruling out
methamphetamine. This indicates that it’s amphetamine, from the
positive result from the previous Marquis test.

Test: Robadope

There’s actually no point in doing the Robadope, since the substance
is already known from the two tests. Robadope is mainly used for
testing for combinations eg MDMA/amphetamine combo pill. The Robadope
will proceed nevertheless. 🙂 The reaction will be reddish/purple if it
detects a primary amine (like dexamphetamine).

I fudged up the first test by dropping too much Robadope on too little sample.

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Slight salmon color.

The second attempt uses only a single drop of Robadope + 2 drops of buffer on quite a large sample.

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Slight reddish tint. It is noticeable to the naked eye (if you squint
really hard), but the colors translated poorly to the digicam. It
wasn’t the shade of red I expected, but that’s probably because the
sample was mostly binders + fillers instead of dexamphetamine. There’s
heaps of binders in a dex pill, which is why snorting is such a chore
that I just eat them after heavy urinary alkalization.

Robadope result: Salmon red tint. This indicates a primary amine – dextroamphetamine.

This is how Ecstasy pill testers work – by cross-referencing reagent results. 🙂

Hi, it’s me

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I’ve been busy with assignments these few days (weeks?). Sleep
deprivation is fun. Watching the toilet bowl water do some fancy
fragment vector graphic effect before when you’re about to take a piss
is interesting indeed. Anyway, I still have some more assignments due
so here’s my (short) day in pictures:

Went to Caulfield to print and hand in one of my assignments. I saw this at the MONSU desk while binding the assignment:

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An assortment of free AA batteries in a box saying “Free batteries”.
Generics mostly, but there’s some Sony and Toshiba alkaline ones in
there too. Went to Coles after that to stock up on groceries. Of
course, when I say ‘groceries’, I really mean non essential food items.
=D

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Tim Tams are going for A$1.98 (usually A$2.57). The new batch has this promotion going on:

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There’s a ticket inside with a nifty layer which you rub to reveal
what’s underneath. After a while, the dark layer forms again and hides
the underlying text. It’s like those novelty lighters with a dark
coating obscuring a model’s naughty bits until you apply heat to it.
Did I win?

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Nope. It says “Second chance draw”. I can’t get a good picture coz the layer reforms really quickly.

The Kollective MANGA!

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The original photo has been resized and compressed so any resulting artifacts are my fault.

The cast has been inked by Daniel
[geocities.com]! I say he did a wonderful job, very nice indeed. I
can’t draw at all, and I was impressed that it only took him 2 hours to
sketch this out. You probably need to read the post
[sixthseal.com] to know what this is about. This is Daniel’s first
draft, so comment if you want him to make changes for the second draft.
It’s a great first draft though, I like how the characters came out.
Eh, I look too feminine in this sketch, gotta submit a change request
to the artist. Haha! Here’s a photo
[sixthseal.com] for the second draft. 🙂 This was taken about two weeks
ago, the pair of jeans that I was talking about isn’t very visible, but
the shirt would be good and it’s nearly a full body length shot. Thanks
buddy!

Incoming! 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets! =D

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I just got my dexamphetamine (dextroamphetamine sulfate) refill
yesterday. I was actually late for the script…the last time I went was
28th of March. I get 100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets for my
“narcolepsy” every 25 days. 😉 My unfortunate condition (sorry about
the jokes, I can’t help myself. hehe!) requires me to take two tablets
twice a day, so that’s 20 mg per day. 500 mg / 20 mg = 25. Thus, each
bottle/script/refill (used interchangeably) is supposed to last me 25
days. I was late this time though, it’s been 33 days since my last
visit, so I’m 8 days late. Isn’t it wonderful how my normally dismal
arithmetic skills rally up and perform when it comes to substances? =D

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29th of April – dexamphetamine refill. I had just done a single pass
at first and was startled to see that my name was visible (although
fuzzy) when the photo was resized. I had to heavily mosaic it again to
obscure my real name and the doctor’s name to protect our privacy.

Anyway, I was actually worried that I’ve been too late for my script
and it’s going to raise suspicions…like I don’t need it for my
“narcolepsy” anymore. I’ve always been worried about being asked to do
a urine drug test too, I hear most people have to go through that
before being prescribed dexamphetamine, but luckily I wasn’t one of
them. 🙂 Everything went well yet again! It was quick, in and out, just
for the script. The doctor recognized me so it was scribble scribble
and I’m out. He said that he feels bad because I have to pay A$35 for
consultation each time I refill my script. Hah! I was thinking that
this is a great bargain – 500 mg, that’s ½ gram of pure
dextroamphetamine (as opposed to racemic stuff you get from the
streets, the dextro isomer is the one that’s recreational) for just
A$35 consultation (refundable so it’s not included as ‘cost’ – this is
the only thing I put on my medical insurance) and A$30.35 for the
dexamphetamine tablets.

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Gobble gobble!

Well, I was about to suggest that he can write dated scripts, ie
“100 x 5 mg dexamphetamine tablets – 24th May 2003” so I can only cash
it on that date or later, but I didn’t know if they’re actually allowed
to do that in Australia. I don’t mind visiting the good doctor anyway.
🙂 Anyway, I picked up the lovely little pills at the pharmacy nearby
and got some Ural as well. Ural is marketed for Urinary Tract
Infections (UTI), but it’s also a urinary alkalinizer. 😉 It’s cheap
and it’s better than drinking sodium bicarbonate (baking soda) mixed
into water.

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Ural – It’s not just for UTI’s.

Ural also has sodium bicarbonate as the main component, plus some
other stuff as well. I always take two, just tear them up and empty
them into my mouth. Mmm…fizzy! It makes you gag if you don’t chase it
down with water though. Heh. Oh, and I’m not recommending the use of
[rxlist.com] because that makes it more neurotoxic as well. I always do
it though, because I’ve grown to love the constant body and head buzz,
especially when taking a piss. 🙂

Anyway, taking too much alkaline stuff is bad as well…makes you feel
nauseous. Ural and other alkalinizers doesn’t last very long, so I take
it constantly. I find that two packs 15 minutes before dumping, two
packs straight after dosing and every half hour after is good for me.
It does noticeably potentiate the dexamphetamine. That might not be
good for you though, I’m just sharing my experience. I don’t know what
excessive consumption of GI alkalinizers would do to people with an
existing condition like a stomach ulcer.

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Box of Ural – 28 x 4g sachets @ A$6.75

Well, I’m going through the script faster than I thought. I’ve
already taken 84 tablets (420 mg of dexamphetamine) over the night and
I’m sad that I’ve gobbled most of the script in less than a day! I
suspect that my five day methamphetamine run er…just two days back,
contributed to my tolerance. I did get wonderfully stimulated during
the initial 90 mg dose (oral – I’ll like to see you snort that many
dexamphetamine tablets! =D) early last night, but re-dosing is just
keeping me awake without much euphoria to speak of.

Anyway, I’m not dependant on (meth)amphetamines, I’m just trying to
finish up my assignments. Everyone is having assignments due this week.
🙁 Well, I don’t have to justify my use, but I just want to make it
clear that no dependency issues are forming here. I wouldn’t take 420
mg in a night if I had the choice! That kind of consumption is
wastefully excessive even in my eyes. The later doses were just
‘maintenance’ ones to stay awake coz I had to finish my stuff.
Re-dosing doesn’t do much at all, nothing beats the first dose, I’ll
much rather keep the rest until next week if I had the choice.

There’s something funny about gobbling a fistful of tiny white pills
but given the choice, I’ll rather have a superb high next weekend
(after my tolerance goes down) than eat more now and not get tweaked
much at all. 🙂 What a waste…still, work needs to be done, and I don’t
like caffeine as a chemical assistant. It’s just too messy and there’s
not much grey matter turbo charging going on compared to its stronger
cousins. The pills are almost gone, and it’s just been slightly over 24
hours! Sigh…I’ve consumed my script in less than a day. Gloomy
indeed…irresponsible and wasteful. Oh well, I’m not the only one with
assignments, better get back to them. Oh, just one last note…I’ve
always found dexamphetamine nice…the comeup is pleasantly euphoric,
happy happy thoughts. It’s unlike the comeup from methamphetamine which
is more chargy and scattered.

Personally:
Dextroamphetamine = nice body + head buzz, “happier”, and good to work with. Nice soft comedowns too.
Methamphetamine = longer lasting, superior mental euphoria,
better clarity and it’s great to work with too. Unfortunately, I tend
to go overboard with it and go for days without sleep and food and
there’s no comedown to speak of…only a horrible crash. 😉

I love you both! 🙂

but neither of you are any good for me…

A day of spills…

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I spilt Diet Coke TWICE on my Logitech Cordless Freedom Optical
keyboard yesterday. I forgot all about it and went to sleep. Upon
waking up, I started typing and wondered why some keys were going
crazy. Typing s brought up Outlook Express, Ctrl puts it into Sleep
mode and stuff like that. I was wondering why, I couldn’t even remember
the spillage incident yesterday…until I saw some liquid coming out from
the seams on the side. I overturned it, and a significant amount of
Diet Coke steeped in gunk dripped out. Fuck. I’m letting it dry and see
if it works, if not I’ll flood it with water (coz it’s sticky), dry it
and try again. That sucks because I have an assignment due on
Wednesday, while all the time I was thinking it’s due on Thursday. This
A$5 backup keyboard has a Sleep button where my Outlook Express mapping
was (grr…), I keep reaching for a non-existent volume control and the
keys feel too hard. I have to apply considerable force to make each key
press register and since I’m used to the softer Logitech, I keep making
typing mistakes coz the key strokes are not being registered. Typing
with such force is tiring too. I also managed to spill chicken topping
sauce on my pants during dinner.

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Oh well, back to work. I’m about to nod off, I need an infusion of something. Too bad I don’t have anything.

Messy Meth (Hello Nurse)

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The best delivery system I’ve seen to date!

I have too many things to do so I’m going to keep this short. I had
a Class A meth induced freak out yesterday. It was my 5th day without
sleep and food (but plenty of meth and dexamphetamine), and I had
forced myself to half a pack of Tim Tams (chocolate biscuit, very
sugary sweet). I was browsing around when I felt my hands go completely
white like there wasn’t any blood. I was feeling very confused,
sweating, hand tremors, extreme dizziness and my vision was fucked.

I felt my blood pounding in my head, had sore muscles, my face was
crawling and my hands had parts that looked black too, which freaked me
out. I’ve heard something about hypoglycemia before and I searched for
it. I read some medical sites about starvation induced hypoglycemia,
reactive hypoglycemia after a high sugar meal stuff like that. I was in
a bad state of mind, and reading those made me worse coz I had those
symptoms. I spent 6 hours reading and debating whether or not to go to
a hospital.

Hmm…nah, I concluded, it’s just a meth freak out, not that
hypothingamajic. Sleep deprivation, overt CNS stimulation for prolonged
periods of time, you’re stressing that grey matter, not getting
starvation/reactive hypoglycemia. The symptoms came and went and I
thought okay, I’ll just eat something that’s not simple sugars to
re-stabilize…forced two small pieces of chicken about the size of a
thumbnail down and well, basically got worse.

The symptoms came again, even worse this time and I was really freaking out. Why?

The risk of permanent neurologic deficits increases with
prolonged hypoglycemia; such deficits can include hemiparesis, memory
impairment, diminished language skills, decreased abstract thinking
capabilities, and ataxia.

Basically, they advice quick medical attention because you’ll damage
your brain the longer you wait. There was one site that said go,
because the risk of not going is permanent brain damage. Fuck, I
thought. I still didn’t want to go, but I was scared coz I had these
effects towards the end during the last long meth run (6 days) too.
Ketoacidosis, hemiparesis (I don’t even know what this is!!),
neurological damage. Medical terms swirling in my head…

I decided that it was just methamphetamine induced paranoia and
sleep deprivation induced erratic thought patterns. Nothing to worry
about, I’ll just pop a couple (maybe more than a couple, har har)
benzos, down some beer, smoke some weed, get some food in me and sleep.
Except, it got worse, and got me seriously worried about my mental
health. Brain damage!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’ve always held my
superior intellect (in my opinion :p) in high regard and I don’t want
to fuck that up.

I guess the last straw was when I couldn’t think or speak normally.
I was having trouble getting what I thought into words and my speech
was abnormally…well, abnormal. My precious brain is getting fried, I
thought. What if it’s really hypoglycemia and not meth paranoia? It’ll
be STUPID to not go for a checkup, when neurons are at stake. I flushed
all my drugs down the toilet and my friend (can’t name him coz that’ll
give away my identity) took me too the hospital. Thanks buddy, I owe
you one! 😉

Well, at the hospital, I had to wait for ages while the triage nurse
(the person that evaluates all incoming patients) fucked around. Most
triage nurses are bitches (and that’s a fact) but you can’t blame them
too coz it’s their job to sort out the emergencies and non-emergencies
for better efficiency. I’ve had experience with them before, I had to
wait for ages before I finally got approved after throwing up blood.
That time, I saw a guy with a broken arm cursing coz he had to wait
ages too.

I think you have to be 5 minutes away from death to get instant
approval from triage nurses. They have the “police syndrome” aka the “I
feel like God, I have so much authority bow before me lesser beings”
disorder. Anyway, I finally got a little bit of mini-God’s time and she
took my blood sugar with a tiny device that pricks the finger, all the
while telling me off. I have to say that not all triage nurses are like
this though, the previous one I saw was much nicer.

Well, she told me I had a blood sugar level of 6.7 which is normal
“and probably even better than mine” (her own words) and asked me
whether I wanted to see a doctor. I said no, because if it wasn’t
hypoglycemia, I don’t have to worry about brain damage. She berated me
for not eating (I didn’t tell her about my methamphetamine use – my
policy is disclosure on a “need to know” basis) and was a general
asshole about it. Regardless, I thanked her and stood up and she
impatiently asked whether I wanted to see a doctor again and I said no
(again). Major fucking bitch with a capital B.

Well, anyway, all is good except that I flushed good drugs down the
toilet for no reason. I know from experience that hospitals won’t
notify police or anything but try telling that to a paranoid delusional
after a meth binge. Anyway, I still have the symptoms but my conclusion
is that it’s just extremely high blood pressure from frequent meth
re-dosing. It went away after stopping and sleep. Did I really go on a
break? I’ve been using it too much, I don’t want to go into specifics,
but it’s too much.

Enough about that, yesterday was a great day for mushrooms but I
think that’s gonna be in a different post coz it’s completely
unrelated. Anyway, I didn’t think I did any serious harm, but my
intellectual abilities sure went down several notches today. It’s quite
noticeable and I’m still waiting for the verdict – benzo related
(temporary) or overheating + high blood pressure (permanent). Hope that
it’s the former, wish me luck people. =D Well, fuck this wasn’t short
after all. Ah…methamphetamine, you’re such a contradiction – my best
friend and my worst enemy.